:( My medkit only heals physical wounds, not spiritual or emotional ones :/
Send me a private message if you'd like to talk. Perhaps I will have some words that can help you. Regardless, stay strong and keep fighting!
I don't know if they really play a lot of pubg or not but perhaps NEO, TaZ and pasha can make a PUBG team and be pro in that. PUBG is a style of game where you could probably be 50 and still compete at a pro level.
Well. Taz and neo had almost 100h in 2 weeks in cs. I don't know about pasha but he didn't played since Christmas. But byali and Snax were often seen playing pubg. Specially byali almost same amount of time as cs.