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told a girl that i love her
it is the very first time that i do such a thing (i've dated 2 different girls for like 4 years total but it is the first time that i REALLY love someone) we talked the whole night till the sun came up. it wasn't romantic because we suck so much at social interaction, we both feel awkward and anxious in different levels. it was like a rational interaction between 2 human beings that are completely fucked up. we know each other for a pretty long time but we have never been this close. we are adults you know, i live alone and she does too. we got real problems like, everyone has a past... i'll marry this girl, hltv. we are going to travel the world one day. and i don't even know if she can love me back yet... i just know that i want her around and that's enough for me about this thing called love: it isn't just a movie thing. it is real. she is real and that makes me feel alive. have a loveful day
2018-02-24 14:20
gl men
2018-02-24 14:22
uh great
2018-02-24 14:23
2018-02-24 14:24
Czech Republic Rehama 
gl hf
2018-02-24 14:26
World Raphe 
what does she said? I bet 100$ on " let's just be friends"
2018-02-24 14:28
nah, she dove really deep into a monologue about why she thinks she doesn't deserve to be loved. we are really fucked up as i said and our previous relationships sucked. she is all defensive but she told me so much about her. i just said that it was up to me to decide how lovable she is.
2018-02-24 14:34
after that, i suggested us to forget everything that we had talked and just keep going as friends, pretending like nothing had happened. she refused the deal and i went home (it was 7 in the morning already)
2018-02-24 14:38
France Underbre 
nt i guess
2018-02-24 14:54
2018-02-24 15:09
No my man, you can't fall back after say something like that to her.
2018-02-24 17:00
it was a bluff, i swear. i guess it worked better like this because she showed that she didn't want to forget the talk
2018-02-24 17:22
First thing I would say is, this bullshit about ''she thinks she doesn't deserve to be loved'' it's a message for you to just give up, she's not into you. But after reading all of comments... Man, just open your heart to her, not anime style, but like a real man.
2018-02-24 17:28
you can be right xd time will tell i really told her everything, i wouldn't write it all here but i told her everything that she needed to know. it wasn't anime style, i guarantee you. I gave her that talk of "i know that life is nearly worthless and we are all going to die one day. i'm completely aware that we are nothing but dust and all of our meaningless effort to reach relevancy won't be enough to scratch the surface of the days dancing through the infinitude of time, but still, i fucking love you rn, girl, and i would've told you before if i had the slightest possibility of finding reciprocity" i know i'm shit brah, don't have to tell me what i already know xd
2018-02-24 18:39
You're not shit brah, I've been in your place some time ago.
2018-02-24 18:43
how did it work for you?
2018-02-24 18:44
how old are you and her? no more than 20?
2018-02-24 14:52
I'm 22 and she is 21
2018-02-24 14:52
that means that she is getting dicked by chad 100%
2018-02-24 17:15
GuardiaN | 
India wakar 
2018-02-24 17:39
Serbia dekizh =DD 
wtf? From my past exp i can say that she is trying to say "I won't be with you in a relationship", thats why she says the she don't deserve/need to be loved. Its just an excuse to not hurt your feelings, sorry to say that really.. hopefully u can find better chick. gl
2018-02-24 18:55
thanks she was pretty convincing 'bout that tho. she kinda has her reasons to say so
2018-02-24 18:59
Serbia dekizh =DD 
Yes, but move on, trust me, it will be way better else you will get stucked mentally..
2018-02-24 19:00
you just can't choose who you love, ya know... she is a big problem... if i could choose, it wouldn't be her for sure. wish i could jump out of this, but getting my heart broken seems way more fun than watching starseries
2018-02-24 19:03
Serbia dekizh =DD 
If I could only help ya but.. i can't even fully help myself, I've been going thru broke up process(1 month ago) and its kinda hard to forget all the moments together, and even tho i dont want to think about her, my brain just thinks more and more about her.. going out helps a bit forget it btw, and i am thinking bout "us" less each day, but some days it all comes back and i am fucked up again, rly hard circle.. hopefully i will be fine sooner or later, ignoring other chicks is not worth it all but i just cant "love" other girl when my old feeling is here and there.. sucks
2018-02-24 19:06
can relate, ive been there, believe me. i know that i look like a mess rn but i've been there and the remaining feeling has always vanished away after time. maybe you'll love again soon and it will be even more real and strong, shit like this takes time from my experience
2018-02-24 19:24
Serbia dekizh =DD 
Yes, everything takes time :DD
2018-02-24 19:51
i hoped she responded that she only loves her bed and her momma, and that she's sorry
2018-02-24 14:30
i wish she would. last week her momma got really mad at her when she showed up really drunk at her folks' place. it was late af... she went there driving and wanted to justify the fact that she was driving around completely drunk. the world has to know how awesome this girl is
2018-02-24 14:49
This polak listened to drake for the first time and now spams shitty lyrics of a shitty artist
2018-02-24 17:44
Sweden TomodachiOM 
gl hf
2018-02-24 14:31
suNny | 
World gto13 
Its a trap. Run!
2018-02-24 14:36
Poland Zer0Kurw0 
gl bro I wish u the best
2018-02-24 14:37
>he fell for the marriage meme lmao
2018-02-24 14:37
Vietnam yunfei 
2018-02-24 17:44
sex her
2018-02-24 14:38
Gl man <3
2018-02-24 14:38
shox | 
Norway Etr1us 
gay af
2018-02-24 14:39
ikr loving someone feels so pathetic. i'm not good at this
2018-02-24 14:43
man if its true great job then.just remember to keep that harmony in your relationship.
2018-02-24 14:43
thx bro
2018-02-24 15:07
2018-02-24 14:52
haha I'll give you 2 months until she fucks someone behind your back lmao, your post already tells me that you're way too invested into this
2018-02-24 14:54
maybe. but we don't have anything yet, i don't even know if i want to. i can be really extreme with my feelings on hltv because it is hltv, but in reality, it was kinda hard to jump to the conclusion that i like her because i'm usually hard to deal with and she is even harder to reach.
2018-02-24 15:00
Poland papaski2 
good luck man
2018-02-24 14:55
Germany fulltilt 
she is a borderline girl and you just made the biggest mistake of your life. GET OUT OF IT FAST BRO TAKE ADVICE! EDIT: her answer with bla not deserving to be loved crys for real issues and psychopathic manipulative behavior. She dodges your commitment by encouraging you to commit even more by showing weakness. It can be her just being insecure but even that is very bad because you dont know what she really thinks or wants. Maybe 10% Chance that it will work out, so take that into account if u gonna invest everything. GL MAN
2018-02-24 14:58
thank you for the words. she is really insecure as she only had like one boyfriend and it was 6 years ago. don't think she is a psycho or manipulative, she told me the truth and explained her reasons to be like that. I know her for like 10 years and just now that i realized how awesome she is. what you mean by "borderline girl"?
2018-02-24 15:04
Germany fulltilt 
just look up borderline syndrom - gettin to close to one will mostly likely hurt you. Be ready
2018-02-24 15:32
GuardiaN | 
India wakar 
2018-02-24 17:41
Russia Shurnd 
The story is just like from anime
2018-02-24 14:56
North America PsychoLogical 
wish it was reality but just a fantasy?
2018-02-24 15:01
Too wholesome for HLTV to handle, try Reddit next time
2018-02-24 14:57
2018-02-24 15:05
gl hf bro
2018-02-24 14:58
s0m | 
Belarus glitchie 
I'm not crying, its a liquid pride ;(
2018-02-24 14:58
what she saided after you confessedesd ur loves?
2018-02-24 14:59
2018-02-24 15:05
do you mean mentally fucked or physically also mentally sucked or physically? i dont speak australian very much
2018-02-24 16:28
not really good at this American stuff called feelings but mentally i guess
2018-02-24 18:41
sex her
2018-02-24 15:01
first good advice here
2018-02-24 19:08
rename yourself to "WORSTESTMEMER"
2018-02-24 15:01
it was wortestmemer before worthiest
2018-02-24 15:06
2018-02-24 15:02
>i've dated 2 different girls for like 4 years total but it is the first time that i REALLY love someone Gl and I'm happy for you if you have found real love, but this is something I have never understood. You have wasted 4 years of precious time laying on the couch and watching Netflix and other boring shit with girl that you don't even really love. Why? To get pussy? Wohoo! To get social acceptance, because you have girlfriend? Woo fucking hoo. I personally think that only reason to start a relationship is that you enjoy spending the time with that person more than with your friend or with yourself. Not many chicks fill those requirements lol.
2018-02-24 15:08
sometimes we do some weird shit when we are young. i'm still young. the comfort zone is a dangerous place to be, it is hard to climb out once you are there. not saying that i hated them. obviously, from what i've experienced till then i would consider that love. just now i realize how superficial everything was and how toxic those relationships were. it is really hard when you see yourself with someone for like 2 years and realize that you wouldn't spend the rest of your life with that person, but you guys have lived a lot together, traveled to many places and stuff. it is not that simple, but it is not fair tho because you wouldn't be happy together so you have to do something after all
2018-02-24 15:19
Yeah you got a point there and I think the basics of relationships has changed a lot during these few years and I guess those "toxic, boring ass shit Netflix and chill and lets take couple pictures to Instagram and get a lot of likes" kinda relationships are pretty much considered normal. I personally look everything from very of logical point of view and wouldn't ever even get myself to the point where I "have lived a lot together, traveled to many places and stuff" with a person I don't liketoo much. But I personally enjoy time alone maybe too much and it's sometimes hard to remember there is people exactly the opposite or somewhere between those extremities. Although there is one certain thing and that's when you REALLY fall in love you can forget the rational thinking, You are fucked and on a road to glory or to get your heart broken. I wish the first one for you, but prepare for the second too !
2018-02-24 15:43
can't agree more on the netflix-instagram kind of relationship part. i think you are safe being like that for a while, wish you the best when routine strikes your relationships, don't do what i did. copypasta but fits better your post: you just can't choose who you love, ya know... she is a big problem... if i could choose, it wouldn't be her for sure. wish i could jump out of this, but getting my heart broken seems way more fun than watching starseries
2018-02-24 19:35
allu | 
Pyaar ek dhoka hai Love is nothing but betrayal
2018-02-24 15:11
GuardiaN | 
India wakar 
pyar ek dhoka hai hilane se kisne roka hai?
2018-02-24 17:45
Korea almighty_so 
gl hf
2018-02-24 15:40
gl but seems that you gonna be hurt thats what happens when you really love someone xd
2018-02-24 15:44
sounds fun
2018-02-24 18:45
Greece rusty1 
gl hf
2018-02-24 15:46
2018-02-24 15:46
Netherlands Klitaris 
Classic Schmosby
2018-02-24 15:48
=') the first thing i did when i arrived home was watching this:
2018-02-24 18:47
Portugal FiZzYgAy 
omfg so fucking GEY on a serious note, gl man, hope you can do the things you mentioned above. everyone deserves to be loved ( unless your a fucking maniac who goes around shooting schools, ofc ) , no one should be alone. once again man, gl, wish the best of luck for you man
2018-02-24 15:47
thank you so much for the kind words, buddy have a loveful day
2018-02-24 18:48
love = low IQ
2018-02-24 16:46
Brazil EWRO 
2018-02-24 16:52
can confirm
2018-02-24 18:49
2018-02-24 16:48
Brazil EWRO 
2018-02-24 16:51
Edward | 
Russia Flavorx 
Great! Good luck
2018-02-24 17:00
Name checks out
2018-02-24 17:00
Estonia T1mbl3d0re 
gl m8... hope it will go as you have planned
2018-02-24 17:02
fake and gay but gl .
2018-02-24 17:05
u should never show that u like a girl, or say that u love her, not if she doesnt say it first. I did that and got fuckd up. rip.
2018-02-24 17:10
GuardiaN | 
India wakar 
2018-02-24 17:45
tell me more about your experience, i'm really curious about it
2018-02-24 18:50
is too long, i dont wanna lmao srry mate hehe
2018-02-25 00:40
bullshit if u dont tell ur feelings ur mostly ending in the friendzone.
2018-02-24 18:59
dude if a girl wants to put u in the friendzone nothing will help, this has nothing to do with it. im just saying to keep ur feelings to urself dont say anything before she does. anyway is just what i learned lol
2018-02-25 00:39
Xyp9x | 
Russia Ind3x 
Oh, I can relate. But I've totally ruined that thing 3 or 4 years ago, and now we're just the best friends, all feelings are in the past. It was funny and sad at the same time when we discussed if we would have regret our decision not to try to date each other. But it was so freaking scary to confess or to be initiative, so yeah. Also her mindbugs 'bout being too harsh and jealous in relations (from her own words) were smth that have stopped me. Now I'm happy with my girlfriend who doesn't afraid to do the first romantic step and encourage me to do some. For the first time I feel like everything is just going as it should be. P.S. Have a loveful weekend too, m8 P.P.S. Sorry for that horrible Russian English.
2018-02-24 17:14
really happy for you, dude seems like you are better without the fucked up girl. do you love your gf? how was it when you first told her?
2018-02-24 19:07
Xyp9x | 
Russia Ind3x 
sry for kinda necroposting, but it feels like I need to answer well, it was september 2017, I was kinda in a bad mood so I told her that I needed to kill all my feelings in the past to begin interacting with her like a normal friend would do. She said smth like "you have some strange options of building relationships with people", and I know that, but that whole thing was not true, I still loved her. That moment I just wanted to end this uncertainty of my status, even if that means that I will not be with her like a boyfriend, only a friend. When I woke up next day, it felt so wrong I was texting her to forget everything I said the day before. But I still needed an explanation for all those words, so I just got all the courage I had and told that I still have my feelings. She said it's okay, and so everything stayed like it was and we still were friends. A week ago I asked her when she started to like me, and the answer was september-october 2016. Well, that explained everything, and mosly the reason why she wasn't ignoring me after my confession. Damn, she's just so smart and patient.
2018-03-25 17:59
did she say only party i only love my bed and my momma?
2018-02-24 17:15
ok man this is HLTV not dating site
2018-02-24 17:17
remember to sex her atleast 3 times a day.
2018-02-24 17:18
Europe kennyBeast 
Are you together or no? I kinda havent understood that.
2018-02-24 17:21
we are not dating what else can i say
2018-02-24 19:07
Europe kennyBeast 
oh, maybe that i love you was a bit too early then.
2018-02-24 19:18
can't disagree. i'm feeling relieved now that i've removed all this overwhelming weight from my shoulders. like, if i died today she should know that she was loved by someone and it was real. would do it again 100%. it was too early 100%
2018-02-24 19:21
2018-02-24 17:30
gl ma man down under
2018-02-24 17:40
Nifty | 
Hungary Baliz 
Go for it budy have a nice life!
2018-02-24 17:47
2018-02-24 18:48
Serbia dekizh =DD 
shit got tensed in you but you think its heart, just relax. Love hurts when you don't expect it.. I thought the same for one girl with whom i've broke up.
2018-02-24 18:51
are you ok with that now?
2018-02-24 19:05
Serbia dekizh =DD 
2018-02-24 19:07
Norway namsayin 
you should fuck, then find another girl. this generation of girls is untrustable.
2018-02-24 18:54
Brazil EWRO 
this /closed
2018-02-24 19:00
gl my friend <3 I hope u have very healthy and loved relationship <3
2018-02-24 18:55
thanks bro <3
2018-02-24 19:12
shes cockblocking you and herself at the same time , in the first part when she said that she doesnt deserve to be loved shes totally friendzoning you but in the other hand shes doesnt want to forget it because she likes the attention you give her , shes needy , I think what you should do is more action and less talk , talking aint going to work because shes going to use her brain and try to find a reason not to fall in your trap and keep just as close friends , but if u dont give her time to think or react you will score for sure , she can regret it afterwards but then its to late already. But dont give up bro , atleast you are honest and not acting tough
2018-02-24 18:55
i like you and your way of thinking thanks
2018-02-24 19:00
Serbia dekizh =DD 
agreed all except the part "think what you should do is more action and less talk" , imho he just needs to move on and slowly get away from her.. either she will want him more or just disappeAr. Btw, its kinda easy to spot if she is feeling lonely or if she is rly interested.
2018-02-24 19:02
but thats very risky , since we dont know how she is and only he can tell , if hes sure that she will run back if he starts ignoring her then go for it , that can go right or wrong , is it worth taking the risk? hell yea absolutely but only if it works , and the second thing is , will he be able to ignore her and act distant ? because he will not only make her sad but also himself
2018-02-24 19:04
Serbia dekizh =DD 
One thing is for sure, ignoring won't work if she is not that interested, she will simply disappear.
2018-02-24 19:07
France NoThanks 
I really hope she loves you back , it seems like you're a nice person Good luck !
2018-02-24 18:58
<3 i cried
2018-02-24 18:59
Denmark VladiBot 
2018-02-24 19:00
Denmark Afro2307 
Reported for being smart on hltv, have a good day and gl.
2018-02-24 19:08
nice pasta
2018-02-24 19:08
she will fuck chad soon and break your heart.
2018-02-24 19:09
fnx | 
Israel GODTwiX 
2018-02-24 19:36
Fuck her on ur bed
2018-02-25 01:11
2018-02-25 01:18
Portugal Leg_Day 
good luck man,i wish you the best ;) .
2018-02-25 01:46
Hope everything turns out great, man!
2018-03-25 18:02
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