You don't have to be sorry! It's a pleasure to try and help you because i recognize the old me in what you said and remember how hard it was just to go out to the grocery for me, I always thought about what others think of me and if i didn't wear the best clothes, like from good brands, i would feel awkward... And the pimples... Oh man, it was a nightmare! I always thought that everyone's staring at me and at my RED face! And here's the things that helped me throughout the time of "reborning". The book "no more mr. Nice guy" helped me a lot and gave me pretty much all the answers for the questions i was always asking myself. The thing that i learned and that really helped me is to be confident, never be scared of anything, and if you are scared of smth or a situation, or to start talking to smbdy - do it, do the thing that you are afraid of! That's how i was building up my confidence and it's never stoping! And that's how i started getting out of the home and started talking with girls and not just with girls, pretty much with everyone! If i'm in a good mood and i just wanna send positive vibes to people, i'll do it! Saying good morning to the girl that's making me coffee in the cafe and wishing her a good day, it just makes ME feel good! There's a bunch of things that i could say but im trying to make ot less boring for you xD and yeah, don't be shy to ask any questions or if you want to have a talk! Stay positive and keep with people that gives you positive energy around you ! Much love from Russia!