you are shit, cuz you think you are shit.
try reddit.com/depression or suicidewatch
so depressing you remind me of my high school days. Shoot me a PM if you wanna talk anything about cs :)
calm down, get some help, listen to good songs, you're worth, stay strong.
Don't be sorry, be better.
ez quote btw
"So I basically spend about the entire day in social anxiety and repression because i guess i dont conform to a moronic society of inbreds incapable of doing something decent with their lives instead of smoking weed and playing fortnite."
maybe don't be so judgemental to your friends. you say they're not doing anything decent with their lives but you admit that the only thing you care about is csgo. you're in high school, so i don't see why you're judging people's lives when, to be honest, your life doesn't really start till after high school (and even then there's college years which you're basically still a kid as well).
see if you like some of the rappers they listen to. see what other games they play (other than fortnite because i agree its shit). ask them what else is going on in their lives and see if you can relate to some of it. if you truly believe they are shitty friends and not alike you at all then find new friends, i'm sure there's someone in your school who is into cs.
you can be cynical about life or you can find some type of joy in it, the choice is yours. hope this helps.
i feel everything that you said, but now i end my school, and i don't have friends, i need to study to go university, and i'm not studying, i'm so sad, my life is a trash
its a really bad idea posting things like this in hltv since its full of kids and retards who have no humanity and are not mature enough,anyways first stop thinking of yourself that you are shit 2nd if you suck at cs in a day stop playing comeback later (1 2 days),3rd listen to music and if music you listen to contains a certain instrument get and learn to play that instrument 4rd be thankful you are healthy and not suffering from a decease. GL
Things will get better, I know that's the typically answer but trust me things will get better. Keep fighting you will get past this, if you ever want to talk pm me.
When i was 14 i was bullied quite alot. I remember how i hid in the bathroom for the whole lunchbreak just to have peace. It will get better once you grow up more and you can depend on yourself. When you survive this period, your mental strenght will be very strong and it helps to deal with future situations. Stay strong bro.
i dont know how to read long threads sorry
screw school, its a scam. they are not there to give you any marketable skills. they are there to take your money because they can. At the end its you who gotta find valuable skills or you won't have life.
screw friends also. Eagles fly alone
U sleep 5 hours and feel like garbage, i sleep 3 on average, sometimes not even a single one and i live LUL.
First buy some vitamins dude, if you're feeling depressed might be due to lack of magnesium or B vitamins. Start working out it will build your self confidence. And finally smoke some weed occasionally, do this and trust me few months and you'll feel better than ever.
Man the fuck up little bitch be who you wanne be and do what you wanna do.
What we choose to see determines everything.
And btw look out of your window and realize there is a world outside of your monitor
the sooner you realize how much more things you can do in real life and stop wasting your time playing a game, scratch that, a nearly dead game, the better!
same, but even if i try hard - situation doesn't want to change, getting same result in almost everything no matter how hard i'm trying. I feel like if i was rpg character, luck would be from -1 to -infinity. But i never give up, even with no money, with point in life to become pro, what is already hard even having that comfort zone with good pc and devices. Lately i got to same frustration and it's my fault. I'm at supreme playing solo on shit pc and i think i must achieve global this way. Instead of trying it i should go watch demos, practise aim etc. After getting global i'll move to faceit and go from 4th or 5th level up on, i rarely play it rn. I had no friends at school when was learning, only few people i can speak with, but i wouldn't call it a friendship. Few around internet, but only real one which i know good irl. Father left family for no reason, didn't pay alimony tho court forced him to and he never wanted to meet me anyways so for me he's dead. I'm asexual so love overrated in my eyes. For me seems like school exists just to show you what learning is, fill gaps in knowledge if they exist ( not that much information regular person couldn't know already via communication with people, TV, internet, books ) and give you that document, degree, diploma, whatever.
Start working out and eating better and stop sitting at the computer before you go to sleep, have an hour between and you will sleep better and be a better person, its so easy... stop jerking off to porn as well
i can relate to few of the things you said, so here's how i stay in shape
1. try doing sports(running, walking, jogging.. etc) or gym, preferably with a friend or friends
2. this one is really basic shit, but you have to sleep atleast 6 or 7 hours if you want to get anything done, what i usually do is that i would have a podcast playing in a very low level in one of the ears, i'd listen to it until i start sleaping
3. if you aren't interested in the studies of yours, you should probably try studying something that you are interested in.
4. talk with your parents and or some trust worthy adult, it won't hurt, and they will understand as they have most likely gone through similar experiences. also talking in general is good.
why Romania's parents is so strict?
First , you're not alone . Even if it can seem like nobody is like you trust me there are a lot of people in the same situation as you . I would recommend taking a step back from CS and a step forward in real life : you have to do sport , it must be a sport where you can set clear goals of progression for yourself ( personally i started going to the gym a year ago im 16 and it really changed me in a very good way ) you cant imagine how much killing yourself to a sport can make you better and feel better . thats all for me . gl and stay strong <3 .
Get the fuck off the computer and stop taking advice from 13 year old squeaker kids who have no fucking idea about anything other than skins and cartoons.
Do some research.
Talk to some people.
Man the fuck up.
"because i guess i dont conform to a moronic society of inbreds incapable of doing something decent with their lives instead of smoking weed and playing fortnite. "
"I come home from school to play on faceit and literally try my absolutely hardest only to be in level 2 "
"I sit in bed for 3 hours just thinking about how worthless my life is. School getting me nothing, csgo going nowhere, my entire day EVERY DAY is completely wasted."
perhaps you actually conform to this moronic society
you talk about yourself like you're a complete asshat, so you gotta improve that self-esteem. school can be dreadful, i didnt like it very much either, so go to school and don't give a fuck. you will be around the kiddies at school for a very short period of your life, so you shouldnt care that much about what people say about you, etc. if you just learn how to talk to people, your social anxiety should get better.
maybe you should talk to someone, and also try to get some help with your sleep. and don't play too much cs.
Another attentionwhoring snowflake, what else is new
My diagnosos is that you are useless and also a twat.
It's gg for you, might as well check out early.
i go to school after staying up way too late with maybe 5 hours of sleep each day to feel like complete garbage all day. I try to go to sleep earlier but never feel tired enough to do it. When I get to school I mindlessly wander through 8 hours of complete shit with no friends in 1/2 of my classes, awful teachers who do not even care about their jobs (2/7 classes I actually get teachers who do something but then im complete garbage at the class SO IT DOES NOT EVEN MATTER). In my other half of classes I have friends but have nothing to talk to them about because we do not even share the same interests (since I only play csgo and not asswipe awful console fortnite or soundcloud rappers). So I basically spend about the entire day in social anxiety and repression because i guess i dont conform to a moronic society of inbreds incapable of doing something decent with their lives instead of smoking weed and playing fortnite. Then through out the day I just keep seeing this girl I like but I can never even talk to her because I realize I am fucking boring as shit and worthless to everyone !!! I would probably only harass her by talking to her :DDDDDDD
I come home from school to play on faceit and literally try my absolutely hardest only to be in level 2 and continuously lose match after match no matter how well I do ; I have no friends to queue with and nothing to do but play csgo when I get home which I apparently am complete garbage at for whatever reason even though I watch pro demos, I watch streams, practice aim for hours... nothing helps at all and I feel incredibly frustrated with the only thing I would be able to derive joy out of
I sit in bed for 3 hours just thinking about how worthless my life is. School getting me nothing, csgo going nowhere, my entire day EVERY DAY is completely wasted. I will now spend the first 18 years of my life doing nothing but getting a high school diploma just so I can become single 40 year old man doing nothing in his life because he could only get an office job and die from anti depressant drugs
just fucking go for a long run ,feels good.
Go out with friends and get wasted. Its a great medicine
If not bait than try to give something to Lool forward to. Cant sleep in time than go to the gym, if no gym go to a jog before dinner. Or if none of that, try to find a part time job. You get your own money and you will be tired at night for sure. Also try to communicate more, if your ,,friends" not good enough try other people. I try to speak of really vague things like what you gon do at the weekends and just build on that whatever he/she says. Ofc you cant share the same interest but if you communicate about these things you also get more knowledge, Maybe something will sound cool and try it
what about travelling the world after you finished high school? unless you are really shy u will meet cool people there i guarantee it
anyways maybe go to a psych doc and tell them about it, what good is hltv advice? its worth a shot
Walk or jog to the store every morning to buy an apple and wave and smile to everyone you see (especially old people) to get a smile back. i think it would help alot
wrote all of this to bait every 2 out of 10 people OMEGALUL
Read Albert Camus essay The Myth of Sisyphus.
Calm down school shooter.
Hits too close to home. Damn nigga you ain't gotta make me feel sad.
I just got scammed out of my $500 gloves so we're on the same boat :(
Find shit you are willing to put alot of time in. Something that motivates you to keep on going. For me this was going to the gym, hanging around with friends and kickboxing. Become more confident in life and you'll get girls ez.
Get out of your comfort zone and make yourself more interesting. Hang up the mouse or stop playing so much computer games.
The good news is you're really young. Go to college, meet some people, and take some risks. No one cares who you were in high school in the real world anyways.
Take a break from cs, cured my depression within a week. Come back to the game when YOU are ready.
just talk to people man, get into whatever they talk about, even if you dont like it... for example, if a group of guys talk about a sport, search little bit about it, and start to talk with them, after getting little bit close to them, start going out with them, and just practice conversation with every people you can, even with people you dont know, you dont need to be all smiles 24 7, just talk to people!! sometimes you are just stuck in your own mind, life is really good and you dont need to take this so serious... good luck my friend, the #HTLVarmy will always be here for you <3
if u are in eu we can play cs ma dude
you have friends in some of your classes. start conversations with them, even if they aren't the best topics, they're your friends right? just talk to them. im sure they'll talk back, even if it isn't too interesting.
as for teachers, you don't need them to teach you. all you need is the textbook they give you, and you can study on your own with it. half the time the teachers teach you shit that isn't needed.
as for the girl problem, i've never had a real relationship, so maybe im not the best person to listen to, but hey, ill give advice anyways. first off, just start talking to her, don't be afraid. it's better to try and fail then to never try. because making mistakes is part of life, trust me, i've made mistakes all my life.
btw, you aren't worthless. you're just upset so you think you're worthless. you aren't, so don't say that kind of stuff. trust me, once you get through these problems, you'll realize they aren't as problematic as you thought they were.
i wish you the best of luck my friend!
Try to go homeless for 2 weeks.
This will show you the reality.
It will make you stronger.
feelsbadman, i totally understand where you are coming from, have been through kind of the same thing. My advise is, find a few friends and invest a lot of time into them to show you care about them. Try to be more extravert, but don't overdo it, you don't wanna seem desperate for attention. Maybe bad advise, but i hope i can help a bit. Just find people you love and find things you love doing.
i feel you bro. in my experience, csgo has only made me feel worse when i am in a rut. the game is so toxic and frustrating that it is hard to stay positive.
high school is awful. as much as it sucks, focus on school and getting good grades. time heals everything if you are patient. you will graduate eventually and either go to college or find a good job. You will meet people you love and find happiness eventually. you just have to be patient and work on yourself.
there are a lot of things you can do to better yourself, but it is different for each person. i know personally i am very antisocial, and i am anxious of starting conversations or hanging out with new people. and it's really hard, but if you throw yourself out there enough then you will find you have common interests with just about anyone. and there's other things like eating healthier and working out/running that will make you feel so much better and more confident