Nobody said I take pride in my atheism. And the nothingness after death is the most logical assumption for me, because when you sleep with no dreams your brain is turned off, you have no thoughts, you feel nothing. And after you die your brain stops working, so I imagine death as sleeping without dreams.
But I hope there is some kind of an afterlife, its not like I want this nothingness thing but it seems like the most realistic one, as we are just some random organism in this big universe. I also think that it is possible that all of this is a simulation.