im 19 and i still virgin
I´m depressed because I wanna be depressed and I´m not
im depressed because school and you can look at my name and you'll realize
Not depressed but I feel void. Everything's going in favor of me, yet I'm not taking chances because I spend all of my time doing unproductive stuff and procrastinating.
i feel bad cuz i bet on ss 1 map and astralis second
if you are like <20 and depressed just suck it up cuz ur sadness is not unique or special. it is very common and banal.
Im depressed becouse im really responsible for my age(18) and im not drinking/smoking and partying i only work so i can help my parents and i as well study on hard degree course, and girls in Poland arent looking for that who you are but for that which iphone model u have and how many shots can u take at one party.
I am not depressed, but I feel troubled by the fact that there is so much to know and learn, and the thought of not picking the right priorities kinda makes me anxious sometimes
I mean how are we supposed to know what the right path is, its a gamble
How can you know you're depressed? Are you a doctor? Only doctors can be depressed. Smh
but idk i just hate people maybe it's diffrent mental ilness xd
22 party boy, finally found this girl, and she said no lul
Somewhat, just numb really, I have a chronic tension headache disorder
i depressed cuz i was born in russia
yes, the world is a sad place.
my 5 years girlfriend broke with me,and i still love her.
I am a very depressing guy, it'd make sense I'm depressed.
Have a depressing day!
Eversince 2002 my life has been a series of tragedies and disappointment. Winter 2017/2018 was the start of presuicidal syndrome which I have manage to overcome. But It left scars that will never heal
no and i hate wanna be depressed kids
Yeah my life is just repetitive and nothing ever fucking changes, I feel like I'm going insane and I always feel sad or tired or fed up. I also have never got into a proper relationship and have been close but gotten heartbroken and now I don't even wanna try in case.it happens again
I'm not but a relative is and it hurts to know they feel the way they are. I've never been in that situation so I've never really understand how someone could get to a stage like that, could say i still don't :/
i go to school where is 95% males, and im anti social type, and i dont have this instagram account or some shit like that, so i have actually 0% chance to get gf or how you call that
and im not going out with friends because in eastern europe you only drink and do drugs to make you cool
Im not sure how can you tell.
Nope, I'm on my way forward.
ive lost my 2 best friends after 8 years and ive got no real friends left so im alone the whole day
yes. nothing to do in my life. i dont go to school, i have enough money so i dont work and have never had a job, i dont have any irl friends only online ones. im just sitting at home every single day doing nothing. i havent even left my house for nearly 2 months now. idk man i just hate myself im 99% sure i have undiagnosed aspergers which is why im like this.
I am 28, have a girlfriend for 8 years and a great well paid job but im kinda stuck in the past, thinking a lot about my teen days, random useless memories coming up, missing it and always like not just happy atm. I have been sick for a long time now with a lot of shoulder and neck pain and surgeries, a lot of headache and taking a lot of painkillers, probably not making anything better either. But i still have all theese useless memories from the past with people i don't even talk to anymore, it's fucked up and stupid. Feeling like i want to be 18 again even tho my life is probably way better now. (- my health) I would'nt say im depressed but i don't feel happy either.
Yes , its a long story , I `m too drunk too share this :( ofc i`m drunk cuz of depression
Insane debt + gambling problems
1 girl obviously likes me, she's giving me signs by smiling, sitting closer to me etc. but I have a huge crush on the other girl. I have never ever seen so unique and beautiful girl in my entire fucking life. moving on. They are the girls from my new class since 1st September this year so pretty recent. In the middle school, I didn't had good relations with girls I was more nerdy playing games, but that has changed a lot. It was about 2 weeks ago when I sat alone in the class and the girl I have a crush on immediately asked me if I want to sit with her because she saw I was sitting alone. I swear to god that was the first time somebody asked me that question, didn't even knew someone can be that nice. then we sat, talk a bit and the crush grew even more. Her character is just amazing but since im too shy to ask her to go on the date or something im depressed as fuck so for now we are friends
nobody probably will read it but since I'm depressed af I don't care
girlfriend of 5 years is abusive, my friends dont understand and i hate my degree
distressed.. I would say, the next few days will tell if I'm going to be happy again, or destroy my last hopes in life..
even as a kid I was melancholic
just born this way I guess
not depressed, don't have time because i literally need to get money from somewhere for rent.
I didn’t use social media which caused me to lose connection with friends and now I hate almost everyone at my gay ass catholic school
I'm depressed cuz my government spending 24 hours per day by scamming me and they want me to die young :c And the most depressed thing,what it's for real.They even laughing and joking around about that and not trying to hide all this shitty stuff for 8 years at least.
No, Im not. Had hard times in life (like losing my long-term and only girlfriend 6 years ago) and Im constantly on a physical rollercoaster but I try my best to control it mentally. I had times in life when I was like sad 24/7 and with weird thoughts (I suffer brain palsy/hydrocephalus, so high-school was a hard run) but I don't think it was depression because once I got outta there I was back at my normal state of balance.
Today I don't really have friends irl, no gf, but I have a job, some money and some small (and only I need) social contact. But if I feel like need more surely I'll search for it.
I'm depressed because I paid for PornHub premium and hot girls in my area don't wanna fuck me anymore.
hell no but i´ve had
i´ve been though shit and at times i was very unhappy with a lot of stuff but i since then i decided to change a bit
tomorrow is a new day so instead of crying about how life sucks what about I actually do something to change it :)
+ dogs pics and vids always keep me sane + I avoid toxic environments in general (hltv being an exception )
Not being a pro gamer and working a shitty monday to friday 8hour job
Because I’m 15 and have no friends to go out with at the weekend so I lead an unhealthy lifestyle by my only hobby being sitting on my computer playing games all day and my internet is shit so I can’t even enjoy myself or get better at CS cause I only get to play like 1 comp every 2 weeks. Also I’m socially awkward and am hopeless at making friends and my ex-friends decided I was too ironic and meme obsessed to be in their group anymore so they all ignore me as does everyone because I have the least interesting life ever. I really want to try and go pro in CS soon since that’s an escape from school and also I’ll get to go places if it works out but good luck with my ping fluctuating between 150 and 1500 every 5 seconds, so I’m basically getting a big middle finger from the gods above. Also I’m virgin
I was, but I found a girl who ended this.
I DONT WANNA DIE I JUST WANT TO BE ALIVE
Not only with life or only society, with everything. Seeing all the possibilities and ways of how could everything be, how could life be. Many years ago i realized i'm actually trans. I never wanted to live this life, to have this body. To fit in a template society wants you to be. I think in some moment people around me understood that intuitively because i was asked straight about this. And that day i lied to them. Said no, i'm not going on a sex change or something, i'm alright. That was... I don't know what else to say about that, just bad and embarrassing. Although i know i won't ever be able to become a real girl (science hasn't gone that far yet and we don't have any magic) i still can't give up on that. That just doesn't feel right for me. I feel envious towards every girl i see. I feel painful each time i walk in public. I really rarely smile now. My head like trash bin filled with thoughts and self-analysis. How would people react on that, my friends? Will they be my friends after? Will i feel better after? My family knows that and they're ok. But still everything so complicated.
You see that flag btw, right? That's not really like i could afford anything like that in close future. And cs always was my passion. I was really damn good, even on shit pc and devices doing pretty good. I planned to become pro player, everything was looking like i definitely could. That would fullfill both my dreams. And then suddenly everything went down, i started underperforming, losing shots, blamed myself for poor training, for doing not enough. And here i am now, at my 19. I cry. Alot. Feel hopeless. Not because i want to, that's the only way i can feel now.
Suicidal thought is my good ol' friend. But my self-preservation yet strong. Just as strong realization of fact what erasing me from existance may hurt some people. Sometimes it gets over me and i make pathetic "try" to end it all. Like get knife in a hand and be one step further from doing it, try to hang myself on a belt, stress out my heart till it fatally damaged. Something like that, i'd say it could be described as depression.
Btw i'm unbanned so i'll shitpost again just to feel better.
First of all I'd like to mention that I'm writing this at 1 AM, so all of this might be a bunch of emotional nonsense, especially since I've got no idea how to properlyexpressing without writing a 50 page essay (even though you could probably sum up its content in 5 sentences, but whatever). If you're not interested in such, just skip this comment.
As for whether I'm depressed or not, I don't really know. I feel like I've been born into the wrong world at times, not because I feel like life's been treating me unfairly, but rather because there's nothing I really enjoy anymore, not even playing videogames, which even a year ago was something I'd always enjoy.
In the meantime I've had a girlfriend, with whom I broke up 8 months after, since my mental health was really going downhill from spending time with her (it's a long story, I can't really elaborate all that much). The initial couple of months after I felt great, but now I feel an emptiness like I never have before, and I feel like it's completely unrelated to that first relationship which turned out to be a failure.
I've always been someone who'd just walk around and think for hours, but lately I've been thinking about life and death, and a lot at that. I'm questioning my very reason for existing; Why should I live? What does it mean to be happy? Why shouldn't I just die off right now? Does it even make any difference?
But all of that wouldn't be that big of a deal if it were just numbness I'm feeling. Oftentimes I feel actual sadness, and it's a result of my numbness. It's kind of like building rain up in a cloud, and then unleashing it. This is when I feel like I should end my life, again for no particular reason, which is why I refuse to explicitly say that I'm depressed, because I know that there are plenty of people with real problems.
I don't think there's any way of helping me honestly, it's all up to myself. I admit that I might even enjoy making myself sad in a perverted way. And yes, I've had actual rough times before in my life (problems within my family), but I also don't think there's any correlation to my situation right now. I'm not sure I really understand it myself, so I'll stop rambling right here.
Again just to clarify, I don't want to complain, I'm merely blowing some steam off.
Sorry for this mess of a text. I wish anyone who's read this text all the best.
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ofc i wish some things were better but no not depressed
I am taking a break from this Thread I am not sure if anyone else needs help but I am going to go chill out and do some things if you are coming here for advice and I am not here just remember this presence of mind is one of the strongest things we have as humans.
I actually plan to commit suicide some time in the future.I have not killed myself yet because it would hurt the people I care about. So I am waiting until they all die so I can die in peace.
if you think its wrong or coward way
-Yes. Suicide is an easy and shitty way out. Only cowards who are inept at functioning normally in society would commit suicide. And that's exactly what I am. People like me are only a burden to the rest of society.
just like #311
if my grandaparents are gone, i am as well
16, family deaths, bully, no1cares and memtal issues
turning to 21 and still a virgin.
NEED HALP !!
I dont have any motivation to do anything anymore !! Im just bored with everything not depressed.
Ofc i am...
My love is in Poland and i am in fucking Ireland....
Miss her soo much and cant wait when I will see my little princess ^_^
I'm 22 (23 after 6 months) and still virgin, well even worse, i didn't even date a girl in my life for real :/
i'm just shy gamer dude who hasn't enough communication skills to keep a simple conversation with females even tho i had many chances in the past to find a girlfriend, but it never went further than flirting.. just don't have that confidence, manliness if u may xd
im not fat tho and looking quite decent, but ofc it's not for me to judge. Also, i don't look just for any girl tbh, I'm not that desperate, although i really wanna have that experience finally in my life heh
Yeaa Im depressed maybe a little bit... cuz I study sth what I dont want to study its rly hard .. and Idk if I am good enough to learn so much.... :(
a little bit and i don't know why
loving a girl but couldn't tell anyone
I do feel sad sometimes, but never depressed
The sad feeling gives my mind a more open/clear state of thinking
For me being sad is like being happy, it just happens. I find people calling themselves "depressed", weaklings that are too scared to take actions and responsibilities for their lifes.
All my friends left me, no one loves me, i have absolutely no motivation to do anything. All i do is work,sleep,uni. No social life or anything, basically im a waste of oxygen. I havent felt happy in like 2 years.
A girl i met on my work place, we talked for 2 weeks and she seemed atracted to me giving me hints, coming with hot clothes, trying to get my attention and i was stupid to not give her the attention she wanted. I was going to do that but she just traded me for another one and they probably fucked this weekend. Girls are cruel , i cant even sleep now, i think i like her more than i should but now its gone and i have to find a way to forget her.
yes, lost all my fiends due to cs and runescape
yeah, i am 44 year old somali csgo player with constantly 500+ping on brazil server........
dont know why, everything is going good for me, i have alot of friends, i have a job, have place to live. But im just angry all the time, and i hate everything nothing seems fun anymore. And i have always had a very negative mindset
I’m friends with girl from my university for 2 years and this September I fell in love with her. I don’t know what to do cause I don’t wanna ruin our friendship but I also want her as my girlfriend. And she also started to sommunicate closer with my friend from the same university (all 3 of us we’re friends before) and I think she might like him as boyfriend as well. I’m not fully sure about them but every time we hang out together they both are just having fun while I’m feeling some pressure...
And this fucking situation is killing me inside because I just don’t know what to do.
Ah yes, and I’m 20 years old virgin which bothers me as well. But not as much as this situation.
depression doesn't exist. I mean, depression is literally 'thing' like 'invented walls', guy (doesn't matter who) create this walls for himself when in reality there is no wall. FACT