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are u depressed?
Other John Goodick 
if u are depressed come here and tell why
2018-10-04 23:04
yes im 19 and i still virgin
2018-10-04 23:05
#7
MSL | 
China NA_LUL 
+1 same
2018-10-04 23:08
Don’t feel bad for being 19 and virgin focus on removing virgin title by fucking girl 19 year old losing virginity is normal unless you are in monkey village or America
2018-10-04 23:14
monkey village lmao
2018-10-04 23:22
#41
coldzera | 
Romania GioN 
+1 same here but im 18
2018-10-04 23:20
+1 same here but im 17
2018-10-04 23:23
#69
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Czech Republic Pee_Tea 
+1 same here but im 16
2018-10-04 23:24
#85
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Ukraine f1R3_ 
+1 same here but im 15
2018-10-04 23:30
I lost mine at 15 and I didn't regret it
2018-10-04 23:42
#321
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Germany Delf1n 
Me too
2018-10-05 10:51
#90
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Turkey xxx_xxx9 
+ same 19
2018-10-04 23:32
#258
Hiko | 
Turkey vVoLF07 
naabeer laaan ossbircii
2018-10-05 01:13
+1 same but im 12, really need that pussy soon
2018-10-04 23:54
#337
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Turkey xxx_xxx9 
911
2018-10-05 21:57
#171
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Malaysia byaIi 
i'm 11
2018-10-05 00:05
hahahahaha 19 and depressed, im still a virgin and i'm 26, talk about depression hahahahaha
2018-10-05 00:10
#180
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Germany juqqt 
hahahahahaha dang ._.
2018-10-05 00:13
u can feel sorry for yourself for all your life or u can do something to change this sir
2018-10-05 00:17
typical comment from someone who hasn't been in this situation ever in his life xD
2018-10-05 00:21
it is true i have not been in this situation but all i know is that you can get used to it yes but it is best for you not to there are so many variables to getting a woman and mating with her but all i know is the last thing you want to do is get used to it all i can say is try to push yourself to losing it but don't push yourself too hard to make yourself feel sad or uncomfterble regardless if you are totally fine with it then try to find the right woman to give your seed to then you can make it special but make sure it is the right woman gl sir
2018-10-05 00:29
A couple of years ago i was fighting against it and was really worried about it too, but back then i didn't have many other problems like now, i wish i hadn't grown used to it but now i have much much very much bigger problems than that so it becomes difficult, but don't worry i'm not going to kill myself yet and believe me, i really want to but no, ill keep trying to find happines for a while longer...
2018-10-05 00:33
There is no reason to kill yourself honestly now you realize that there re bigger things to worry about which is true and should be just to show how virginity is meaningless. Take care of your bigger issues and I can just promise you that you will find a point in your life that you will be very happy but you need to do this for yourself first fix other problems and your life will get much better overall
2018-10-05 00:46
just go to thailand pattaya and bang hookers and enjoy cheap good food, where do you live now?
2018-10-05 07:05
surprisingly u get used to it and i doesnt bother me as much anymore, but im also unemployed and I don't have any money, and that is worse, makes me more depressed, its funny to read these kids talking about being depressed just because they are virgins loool they don't know what it really feels like to be depressed...
2018-10-05 00:17
Man get tf out of this shit website, this is probably the first step to better life.
2018-10-05 00:33
haha probably true! but don't worry i don't spend much time arround here, and sometimes i can get a laugh reading some stupid shit, and a random laugh for me is gold..
2018-10-05 00:35
yea the people on this website are dumb af, I honestly don't know who is the guy that ruined this website and why it's not a nice community like most of the normal games' websites (r global offensive for ex, though I don't like it because they have very strict rules sometimes).
2018-10-05 00:36
yeah back in 2010 when i started reading this site it was different but then the new generation of kids came and we all know how that went.
2018-10-05 00:42
this shit is on first page reddit.com/r/GlobalOffensive/comments/9l.. reddit.com/r/GlobalOffensive/comments/9l.. "nice community" r/globaloffensive is full of 12yo angry gold nova kids who upvote "funny" shit and downvote everything else >post something serious = 80+% downvotes >post b1g "spraydown, ace, 3 hops in a row, finally climb at box after 30th try" etc in silver 1 = ez 1k upvotes
2018-10-05 10:36
You are right, but its still better than HLTV
2018-10-05 15:24
is it really true? feelsbadman btw i am agree with #185, but still it is real shit if you are virgin in 26
2018-10-06 02:52
#189
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United States VerySmartGuy 
being a virgin at 19 isn't the end of the world. 25+ though...
2018-10-05 00:19
thanks <3
2018-10-05 00:20
im 26 (almost 27) and still a virgin and let me tell u the truth, with time u kinda get used to it and it doesn't bother u as much, it still sucks but maybe no as bad.
2018-10-05 00:23
how often do u wank off?
2018-10-05 01:43
when the pressure is too much to bear lol
2018-10-05 02:45
3x a day?
2018-10-05 05:06
#302
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Spain dabehx 
same here and i is 9 i is so desperate i can no lose me virgin
2018-10-05 01:55
Lost mine when I was 20. It's no big deal tbh.
2018-10-05 10:11
#394
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Iceland ez4forsaken 
+1
2018-10-06 10:12
same but 40 y.o.
2018-10-06 17:17
I´m depressed because I wanna be depressed and I´m not
2018-10-04 23:05
#13
ZywOo | 
Poland Arknes 
:O
2018-10-04 23:10
Jk, I'm fine m8
2018-10-04 23:12
im depressed because school and you can look at my name and you'll realize
2018-10-04 23:07
Enjoy days at school unless you get bullied soon it will be over then real life begins
2018-10-04 23:15
i dont get bullied but i just cant wake up in the morning and when i go to school i cant do anything because im tired, class is anoying and im hungry so what should i do to be happy again.
2018-10-04 23:16
yes it must be hard to learn when jamal, jafar,adbullah, damaru and other somalis yell
2018-10-04 23:24
yeah
2018-10-04 23:25
Lol I have the same problem
2018-10-05 00:04
fucc
2018-10-05 00:24
#6
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Turkey b0wsette 
Not depressed but I feel void. Everything's going in favor of me, yet I'm not taking chances because I spend all of my time doing unproductive stuff and procrastinating.
2018-10-04 23:07
I feel you on that just force it now for example for me I am predicting correct results but not having the balls to go for it let’s both just go for what we feel !
2018-10-04 23:15
#28
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Turkey b0wsette 
Sure! Good luck to you mate, let's do this :)
2018-10-04 23:17
#276
MSL | 
China NA_LUL 
same i feel like my life is empty; i feel like everything that i achieved is meaningless and everything that i havent achieved will be unreachable
2018-10-05 01:28
virgin
2018-10-04 23:08
nice
2018-10-04 23:23
i feel bad cuz i bet on ss 1 map and astralis second
2018-10-04 23:09
I missed windigo bet on game 1 vs heroic so we both are fuk in ass
2018-10-04 23:16
i bet on heroic first map AHHAHA
2018-10-04 23:17
I hope heroic comeback and win then sir
2018-10-04 23:26
they don't :( kmp
2018-10-04 23:27
Fuk heroic skip al these league bo1 games honestly either there is so much money to be made or so much to be lost it is not worth even taking the risk
2018-10-04 23:30
sounds wisely as fuck
2018-10-04 23:31
if you are like <20 and depressed just suck it up cuz ur sadness is not unique or special. it is very common and banal.
2018-10-04 23:09
It is hard to tell people this and for them to take it as what it is but it is true but at the same time everyone has their own feelings and they will realize it gets worse later in their life
2018-10-04 23:17
or maybe in a short while they will just grow a pair, l2 stop feeling sorry for themselves, focus on their life and start to think about things differently. things can change quickly.
2018-10-04 23:24
It is easier to say than to do people take things for granted unless they were raised a certain way we can only hope they listen and understand that life is good but the mind is strongest and can overwhelm people
2018-10-04 23:27
yes it's not easy. that's why i say it. sad sack people need to stop feeling sorry for themselves. get out of the house. do some positive things to feel good about themselves. exercise, get a job, buy some new clothes, join some social activity with people irl, etc. have to push past and ignore the reluctance & apprehension to grow (everyone has those feelings sometimes) and experience new things. or get stuck in a depressive rut forever.
2018-10-04 23:36
It is true but this is age that we are in unfortunately there is a reason why being a life coach or motivator is a job haha
2018-10-05 00:18
#31
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Turkey b0wsette 
-1
2018-10-04 23:18
what if someone is 15 and is depressed because he has severe autism and is isolated? I know a boy whose single mother suddenly abandoned him and his sister. Shut up
2018-10-04 23:21
obviously that person does have some special circumstances. but some sadboi who is socially awkward is not special at all.
2018-10-04 23:22
I'd still tell that sadboi better advice than 'suck it up'. Like doing some exercise, or talking to a counsellor. It is not not necessary to live miserably, and just ignoring a problem won't make it go away
2018-10-04 23:25
#12
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Poland sHEEYmON 
Im depressed becouse im really responsible for my age(18) and im not drinking/smoking and partying i only work so i can help my parents and i as well study on hard degree course, and girls in Poland arent looking for that who you are but for that which iphone model u have and how many shots can u take at one party.
2018-10-04 23:10
No they care about money. You dont earn enough.
2018-10-04 23:11
#32
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Poland sHEEYmON 
thats what im trying to write, i cant live a life where i need to study hard, help my parents all the weekends and afterall pay for such hoe
2018-10-04 23:18
#114
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Myanmar almighty_so 
Money over everything for polish hoes
2018-10-04 23:43
Not only money. If you are brunette then they will jump on your dick. Been in poland for 2 years and they love brownies LUL. sHEEYmON ... I respect your hard work mate. Hope you earn what u deserve and find a proper girl who is not gold digger ...
2018-10-05 10:45
If you are happy with your family that is all that matters honestly if you love your family and feel that you would trade years of your life for them then you already succeeded women can come later but family first unless you have bad relationship
2018-10-04 23:19
#55
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Poland sHEEYmON 
hope so becouse rn i feel like times changed and girls are more inmature than boys, girls from my school which is good one are fucking selling their asses for iphones and they drink tons of vodka every single week
2018-10-04 23:22
Yes it is very sad it is best to dodge those type of women maybe you will get lucky and find clean girl but at the end of life you will appreciate the time spent with your family
2018-10-04 23:30
its same shit everywhere in eastern europe
2018-10-04 23:21
#15
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Russia anime_is_g4y 
Nah just sad
2018-10-04 23:11
Git gud m8 (._.)_b
2018-10-05 00:04
No I am gud.
2018-10-04 23:14
I am not depressed, but I feel troubled by the fact that there is so much to know and learn, and the thought of not picking the right priorities kinda makes me anxious sometimes I mean how are we supposed to know what the right path is, its a gamble
2018-10-04 23:16
i didn't even go uni and i am fine. i'm set for life pretty much. i never knew what i wanted to do when i was in education till i finally just got a job instead. i even had like 2 or 3 years where i did nothing except some shitty voluntary work. just try some things out until you find smth you can live with. life opens up new doors to people if they put themselves out there sometimes.
2018-10-04 23:25
i know what you say and I agree. as long as you're happy its all good. its just the pressure you know, could I really be happy if I dont chase my goals? there is some intangible expectation that drives me I guess, and the insecurities it brings along. its not a big deal, time goes on and I will make choices whether im conscious or not.but yeah definitely some sort of expectation thats fucking me up. this goes for all of us I guess. so yeah I think its normal feelings, just need to chill more
2018-10-04 23:43
The right path is what you feel it to be it is not what others say it to be
2018-10-04 23:20
true, I need to relax and just stick with whatever floats my boat. so much easier said than done, well i dont know, maybe im just burning out. just needed to vent this with my hltv friends, cause that what the topic is and theres nothing to lose. and people say hltv is good for nothing
2018-10-04 23:47
I just trying to help people i hope you feel some centered in your life
2018-10-05 00:19
#318
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Netherlands pewpeww 
spot on
2018-10-05 10:17
#21
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United Kingdom wellhyper 
How can you know you're depressed? Are you a doctor? Only doctors can be depressed. Smh
2018-10-04 23:15
by looking at the diagnostic criteria
2018-10-04 23:19
#40
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Turkey b0wsette 
ikr right!!! very retard thread, smh my head... 😠😠
2018-10-04 23:19
I just try to help people sir
2018-10-05 01:43
#329
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Turkey b0wsette 
Am just horsing around mate
2018-10-05 15:46
why not?
2018-10-04 23:16
#24
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Poland Obolenski 
probably yes but idk i just hate people maybe it's diffrent mental ilness xd
2018-10-04 23:16
No it is just adolescence it is easy to hate but hard to love and forgive people for being not as smart/strong/fast mentally than you it is understandable
2018-10-04 23:21
#173
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Poland sHEEYmON 
same shit kazdy w polsce kto ma powyzej 120iq tak ma bo po prostu zauważasz jak zjebani są ludzie, moje pokolenie, a mam 18 jest tak niedojebane umysłowo, że mnie to boli, każdy by wziął każde gówno halucynogenne dla respektu innych debili, wódka leje się wszedzie litrami a dziewczyny daja dupy za iphony
2018-10-05 00:05
22 party boy, finally found this girl, and she said no lul
2018-10-04 23:17
Try to move past it if you have confidence it should be no problem forget about her it is harder to say than do but if you got big dick should Be no problem
2018-10-04 23:22
ye she lives with my bestfriend (grillll too)
2018-10-04 23:26
3sum oppurtunity i see here good luck mate
2018-10-04 23:31
facepalm
2018-10-04 23:32
#118
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Myanmar almighty_so 
Seems legit xD
2018-10-04 23:44
Somewhat, just numb really, I have a chronic tension headache disorder
2018-10-04 23:18
Smoke weed friend
2018-10-04 23:22
Is this a case of Name checks out or... was chose just 'cause (?) (._.')
2018-10-05 00:08
I thought the word Prozac was cool, but I take amitriptyline because my doctor said it's effective against headaches
2018-10-05 12:38
i depressed cuz i was born in russia
2018-10-04 23:19
idiot...
2018-10-04 23:19
xa4...
2018-10-04 23:40
Russia it's best in world
2018-10-04 23:43
#38
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Brazil cjozek96 
yes, the world is a sad place.
2018-10-04 23:19
It is if you focus on that to be media everyone trying to make you depressed with news outlets spewing negative news even though apart from military force we have been in the safest period in all of time
2018-10-04 23:23
Yes wtf
2018-10-04 23:20
my 5 years girlfriend broke with me,and i still love her.
2018-10-04 23:21
5 years old too young sir
2018-10-04 23:24
lol
2018-10-04 23:34
+ do check his name... tf hltv has turned into (o_o)
2018-10-05 00:09
I am a very depressing guy, it'd make sense I'm depressed. Have a depressing day! -VeryDepressingGuy
2018-10-04 23:27
Eversince 2002 my life has been a series of tragedies and disappointment. Winter 2017/2018 was the start of presuicidal syndrome which I have manage to overcome. But It left scars that will never heal
2018-10-04 23:28
Remember state of mind is the most powerful thing tragedies as unfortunate as they are are still in the past and you can write your future from here
2018-10-04 23:32
Since 2002? Holy shit how old are you?
2018-10-05 00:55
#279
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China NA_LUL 
he was born in 2002, his life went downhill from there... but from now it can go up
2018-10-05 01:30
Yes and it will go up
2018-10-05 01:43
#83
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Finland BOMBDOGE 
no and i hate wanna be depressed kids
2018-10-04 23:29
#88
Snax | 
United Kingdom LFX 
Yeah my life is just repetitive and nothing ever fucking changes, I feel like I'm going insane and I always feel sad or tired or fed up. I also have never got into a proper relationship and have been close but gotten heartbroken and now I don't even wanna try in case.it happens again
2018-10-04 23:31
There is a low probability that everything will keep repeating unless you do nothing to change it. Prop yourself up and make the difference life is too short to ponder and to do same thing for so long
2018-10-04 23:34
#109
Snax | 
United Kingdom LFX 
Yeah true but I mean life in general. I go to school, come home, play cs for a bit, repeat 5 days a week it's insane. Thank you for your kind words though I appreciate it :)
2018-10-04 23:39
Don’t worry try to enjoy school days with friends and such because once you graduate you will have more free time unless you are going to college
2018-10-04 23:45
#124
Snax | 
United Kingdom LFX 
Im in sixth form rn but I call it school
2018-10-04 23:46
same situation but now you rly need to enjoy these college days haha
2018-10-05 00:20
#199
Snax | 
United Kingdom LFX 
I'll try thanks man!
2018-10-05 00:22
#93
Snax | 
United Kingdom Frasee 
I'm not but a relative is and it hurts to know they feel the way they are. I've never been in that situation so I've never really understand how someone could get to a stage like that, could say i still don't :/
2018-10-04 23:33
Try to help the relative do what you can unless there is truly nothing for you to do to help
2018-10-04 23:35
#99
Snax | 
United Kingdom Frasee 
We're all trying man
2018-10-04 23:35
It is hard for me to give advice because I can’t see the state of the person that is depressed but good luck to you sir
2018-10-04 23:37
i go to school where is 95% males, and im anti social type, and i dont have this instagram account or some shit like that, so i have actually 0% chance to get gf or how you call that and im not going out with friends because in eastern europe you only drink and do drugs to make you cool
2018-10-04 23:33
It is good don’t go out with these guys and say away from the 5% girls that going to your school try to find something nice outside of school where you can bond with nicer people I am not sure how it will go in east Eu
2018-10-04 23:36
#151
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Poland sHEEYmON 
+2 theres so much thruth in that what u wrote, i also dont have any social accounts and im not into parties, europe suck cucumber at this part
2018-10-04 23:55
#356
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Russia CapitoLNova 
In the whole world tbh.
2018-10-05 23:09
yea im just overreacting
2018-10-05 23:10
#98
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United States n3h 
Im not sure how can you tell.
2018-10-04 23:35
Nope, I'm on my way forward.
2018-10-04 23:35
#102
suNny | 
Germany saluxus 
ive lost my 2 best friends after 8 years and ive got no real friends left so im alone the whole day
2018-10-04 23:37
Did they pass or they are not friend with you anymore
2018-10-04 23:37
#107
suNny | 
Germany saluxus 
they´ve done shit to me, hurt me and i´ve broked up the contact
2018-10-04 23:38
#107
suNny | 
Germany saluxus 
they´ve done shit to me, hurt me and i´ve broked up the contact
2018-10-04 23:38
I am sure you have some friends but you don’t enjoy their presence or feel like you even want it trynto go with some people and meet their friends and see if you can find someone you enjoy to be around
2018-10-04 23:43
#128
suNny | 
Germany saluxus 
thats pretty accurate, im scared xd but, yea, ill try to meet some new people :) thank you, what you are doing here, listen to all the depressed shit everybody got, and giving advices, say something positive, its very cool <3 you saved my evening xd
2018-10-04 23:47
Do good for yourself this is what you should remember always no reason to hinder yourself because of mistakes of others
2018-10-05 00:21
#206
suNny | 
Germany saluxus 
Thats true, i'll rememder this :)
2018-10-05 00:25
#105
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Europe amaxed83 
yes. nothing to do in my life. i dont go to school, i have enough money so i dont work and have never had a job, i dont have any irl friends only online ones. im just sitting at home every single day doing nothing. i havent even left my house for nearly 2 months now. idk man i just hate myself im 99% sure i have undiagnosed aspergers which is why im like this.
2018-10-04 23:37
I don’t think it is due to having aspergers you just in a limbo phase I know what it is like what do you enjoy you have enough money to go and see some csgo tournament or some show you enjoy try to invest in something you like and try to center your life around it you are successful you don’t have to work so many people wish to be in your position just invest your time in something you enjoy and you will find others that will boost you in this position
2018-10-04 23:41
#148
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Europe amaxed83 
thanks a lot man its amazing to hear something nice like this when everything seems awful and most family members are always very negative to me for not doing anything. im not in the right state of mind to really try anything like this but in the future maybe some travelling + going to csgo tournaments to maybe meet up with online friends too would be good. i know nothing about investing but i think im going to try do some research into what i could do while im doing nothing. genuinely thank you a lot this is pretty much the only nice thing ive heard in months.
2018-10-04 23:54
I am happy to hear this I hope to hear from you in months from now and make sure you do what you promise!
2018-10-05 00:21
#106
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Denmark pistolen 
I am 28, have a girlfriend for 8 years and a great well paid job but im kinda stuck in the past, thinking a lot about my teen days, random useless memories coming up, missing it and always like not just happy atm. I have been sick for a long time now with a lot of shoulder and neck pain and surgeries, a lot of headache and taking a lot of painkillers, probably not making anything better either. But i still have all theese useless memories from the past with people i don't even talk to anymore, it's fucked up and stupid. Feeling like i want to be 18 again even tho my life is probably way better now. (- my health) I would'nt say im depressed but i don't feel happy either.
2018-10-04 23:46
i'm no psychologist or anything, so i cant give you advice, just stay strong!
2018-10-04 23:45
You need to sit and think for a while about this you know already that these reminiscing about past memories is useless but you are not the only one that does it I feel like you already know what to do and to leave these memories in the past but you holding on for some reason. Regarding health if these surgeries will make you have less pain then look to it in your future as a turning point for yourself in your life
2018-10-04 23:50
#115
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Taiwan youstupidaf 
Yes , its a long story , I `m too drunk too share this :( ofc i`m drunk cuz of depression
2018-10-04 23:43
#122
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Myanmar almighty_so 
:( unluku
2018-10-04 23:45
#125
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Taiwan youstupidaf 
bro i`m about to wipe out
2018-10-04 23:46
Just smoke weed sir
2018-10-04 23:50
#136
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Taiwan youstupidaf 
I have never tried it and hopefully I won`t
2018-10-04 23:51
Xaxaxa drunk talking shit about weed xaxaxa I hope after u puke ur guts out u will realize that being drunk will not fulfill u
2018-10-04 23:52
#145
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Taiwan youstupidaf 
I had the most beautiful girl in the world and u know what, I was listening to my fucking "friends" that she is bitch and she is cheating on me etc and I broke up with her, I`m here drunk alone without gf and without "FRIENDS" I would kill all of them If I Could
2018-10-04 23:53
#160
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Czech Republic prokda 
Mongo
2018-10-05 00:00
Don’t think this way put yourself as superior as them if there is still a chance for you to get this girl back try your best I am sure it is not over
2018-10-05 00:04
#172
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Taiwan youstupidaf 
There is no way because it was like 2-3 years ago and she a new faggot
2018-10-05 00:05
#174
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Taiwan youstupidaf 
she has a new faggot
2018-10-05 00:05
2-3 years ago no reason to think about this my friend you holding yourself back from moving forward to better things i think it is probably best you seperated from this woman but you are not taking advantage of it
2018-10-05 00:23
Insane debt + gambling problems
2018-10-04 23:44
#123
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Myanmar almighty_so 
Like 99% of HLTV users
2018-10-04 23:45
#143
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Finland BOMBDOGE 
-500
2018-10-04 23:52
i feel u, i have a gambling addiction too but luckily since i live in germany i dont have any debt.
2018-10-04 23:50
Be a man take care of debt work hard gambling is useless but I am not sure how large is debt but you must clear it first
2018-10-04 23:51
Over 50k at age 26. It sucks.
2018-10-04 23:58
Is it school debt or gambling debt
2018-10-05 00:01
both
2018-10-05 00:04
take care of gambling debt fast noone needs that bullshit and for school u are from US so i am sure u know how to dodge the debt for a while
2018-10-05 00:24
1 girl obviously likes me, she's giving me signs by smiling, sitting closer to me etc. but I have a huge crush on the other girl. I have never ever seen so unique and beautiful girl in my entire fucking life. moving on. They are the girls from my new class since 1st September this year so pretty recent. In the middle school, I didn't had good relations with girls I was more nerdy playing games, but that has changed a lot. It was about 2 weeks ago when I sat alone in the class and the girl I have a crush on immediately asked me if I want to sit with her because she saw I was sitting alone. I swear to god that was the first time somebody asked me that question, didn't even knew someone can be that nice. then we sat, talk a bit and the crush grew even more. Her character is just amazing but since im too shy to ask her to go on the date or something im depressed as fuck so for now we are friends nobody probably will read it but since I'm depressed af I don't care
2018-10-04 23:46
8/8
2018-10-04 23:50
cool story bro
2018-10-04 23:50
#146
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Denmark pistolen 
Try to not talk that much to her for the next days and if she ask what's wrong you can tell her that your feelings are growing for her and you are afraid it's not both ways. You have nothing to lose and could probably do it over texts. If she then actually feels the same way it will come naturally from there. You don't need to ignore her or dump her as a friend or anything, just tone it down a bit and see if she reacts.
2018-10-04 23:53
+1 this is good too but not too much seperation it depends how old you are honestly
2018-10-04 23:55
I don't think she's interested more than friends and that's why I'm afraid of the feeling that is going only one way
2018-10-04 23:58
Honestly man just go for her everyone will tell you that you will wish to be a kid but you may ignore it. Do you want to grow up and regret that you were shy for this girl or do you want to do this like a man and have no regrets or wishes that you were young again when you missed this oppurtunity
2018-10-04 23:54
but there the problem, im just TOO shy, i cannot break down for shit... im scared that i will have the same personality for the rest of my life
2018-10-04 23:56
Lock yourself in a room with mirror look at yourself talk to yourself try to understand that life is very short and soon you can wake up to being 25 y/o with no happiness or friends do to this very moment in your life don’t let this ruin what you can become because life goes fast and if you make mistakes you can have many regrets
2018-10-04 23:59
will try but I'm afraid it's not gonna happen still. It's so damn different from the "crushes" I had in the primary school and middle school I never had that feeling in my whole life
2018-10-05 00:04
#181
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United States ItsImpact 
Don’t ask to go on a date just ask if u wanna study together or hangout outside of class
2018-10-05 00:16
thank you
2018-10-05 00:19
Yes hang out of her outside of class make sure not to freak her out and talk to her more but don't overbear yourself onto her this is a moment where you will be happy with your decisions and maybe make her yours make sure you do it it is very easy to overlook this and to miss this opportunity
2018-10-05 00:26
I know but even I don't think she would like to be more, we are completely different persons, she's funny, always smiling and I'm just sad walking with the head looking to the ground without even smiling for a second
2018-10-05 00:31
Now you bring another problem where does this source of sadness come from is what you need to find out you guys are not completely different if all you are different from is being happy/sad u can help yourself by changing this and then i am sure if this is the only difference i am sure you can get her
2018-10-05 00:34
well if you put it like this... thanks for the time spent here, really appreciate that, i will try as much as i can
2018-10-05 00:36
I hope you make positive change for yourself at the end of all of this I have been where you once been and I have passed up this opportunity all I can say that this does not bother me that I missed it but it would have made things nice at the time if I haven't. Think about this thoroughly because time flies very quickly
2018-10-05 00:42
saint words, thank you for everything, that means absolutely everything for me, even if its hltv
2018-10-05 00:44
#251
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
Easy does it my polak friend, wish all the best for you and her and I hope you can get happier whether you two end up dating or not, I know how you feel :)
2018-10-05 01:07
Never will happend we are completely different persons, she's funny, always smiling and I'm just sad walking with the head looking to the ground without even smiling for a second. It hurts when you love someone but the love isnt going both ways
2018-10-05 01:18
#269
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
She’s the proton, and you’re the electron my dood. She might love you FOR your modest personality, you never know.
2018-10-05 01:22
thats a really small chance of it :/
2018-10-05 01:25
#278
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
Will you take those odds?
2018-10-05 01:29
Its really hard to say, sometimes i feel like i've got some kind of input on her. When she sits with her other friends that are more social shes laughing etc but when she sits with me shes becoming more calm
2018-10-05 01:32
#286
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
Mate that’s fine, it’s okay to have different types of conversations with different types of people. If this all works out, odds are you won’t be depressed anymore, or at least as much as you are now, so you’ll be happier and more social and laugh with her more.
2018-10-05 01:36
Yeah i really hope for it. Its just a 2 weeks friendship i need to give it a time a little bit and maybe in the near future... who knows. Thank you for joining me here, you dont even know how these words were important, i appreciate that :)
2018-10-05 01:41
#296
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
All the best mate, it’s my pleasure to talk to you :)
2018-10-05 01:43
#129
suNny | 
United Kingdom Nerv3 
depressed. girlfriend of 5 years is abusive, my friends dont understand and i hate my degree
2018-10-04 23:49
stick it in her pooper and all will be fine
2018-10-04 23:51
#213
suNny | 
United Kingdom Nerv3 
+1 will try
2018-10-05 00:30
xD
2018-10-05 23:21
beat her up, get new friends, change ur degree
2018-10-04 23:51
#214
suNny | 
United Kingdom Nerv3 
thx bro
2018-10-05 00:30
You need to just say fuck it and do what you really want in life these periods where you are not happy with yourself is either to say fuck it and break up with the bitch and do what you feel or to stick with it if you feel that it is a worthy investment in your life
2018-10-04 23:57
#212
suNny | 
United Kingdom Nerv3 
i know what i want and what i feel like i should do, i just genuinely would rather things stay stable and sad rather than go through shit to get where i wnat
2018-10-05 00:30
If you don't enjoy the relationship I suggest you leave right now and trust me if you stay in this relationship get engaged and have baby you will be stuck with this sad abusive woman for the rest of your life. But if you are in love with this woman you must talk to her and make her understand what she is doing to you but for 5 year relationship i am sure you tried. Also i feel your problems in life is coming from one area not from both school and relationship but if these are 2 separate problems i suggest you first think about what to do about the relationship then about degree.
2018-10-05 00:40
#228
suNny | 
United Kingdom Nerv3 
yeah. its shitty situation. we were basically children 8 years ago and were on and off, she has cheated on me but manipulated me to stay. its a shame, because i know people out tthere i could have been with and been a lot happier. thank you for the advice brother, i was unsure if depressed but i have diagnosed general anxiety disorder and have had a tough few years. thank you
2018-10-05 00:45
I hope that change will come from this and you will seek it for yourself. You can be diagnosed with many things when you are in a tough position in life but I hope you don't stay in this position
2018-10-05 00:48
#290
suNny | 
United Kingdom Nerv3 
thank you very much my friend. it was easy to get here but hard to get out,
2018-10-05 01:39
At the end of the day if it is a toxic sad relationship that you see there is no redemption in staying in you must get out there are many people that make baby with a woman that is toxic and get stuck with them for all their life trust me this is your change to dodge it.
2018-10-05 01:41
#324
suNny | 
United Kingdom Nerv3 
thank you bro, i will do
2018-10-05 13:11
just become muslim, it will make everything easier
2018-10-05 15:22
thought that black guy was gonna start rapping. 0/8
2018-10-04 23:53
0/8 But this videos are so helpful if you are depressed. All that they say it's true. Depression is a lie. You create it. Stop feeling sorry because the only thing we want is show to the others that we are depressed
2018-10-04 23:54
xaxa if i were depressed and i saw some normie guy speaking with some "inspirational" music in the background i would just turn off that vid ez but yeah i agree with what u said
2018-10-04 23:58
I watched thst video 2 weeks ago and now im doing exercise everyday and just ACTING.
2018-10-05 00:02
distressed.. I would say, the next few days will tell if I'm going to be happy again, or destroy my last hopes in life..
2018-10-04 23:59
Tell me more sir so I can tell you if it is even worth to destroy hopes in your life
2018-10-05 00:00
i've looked your profile, you're a good person john, keep trying to help people, don't worry if i lose hopes in life, this happens, i'm not gonna kill myself (but sometimes i think about how it will fix my problems), but i've tried everything to have a good life, to do best things to my family, but actually i'm sinking into the mistakes and difficulties.. lul, this almost makes me cry.
2018-10-05 00:07
Don't cry friend I am here to help if you seek it I hope the next few days will bring you happiness but I also don't think that you should make it have the ability to destroy your last hopes in life.
2018-10-05 00:52
#248
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
Wish you all the best my favela friend, I hope you can find contentment with your life in whatever way you can
2018-10-05 01:04
extremely
2018-10-05 00:04
Elaborate My friend
2018-10-05 00:53
no friends no gf shit grades feelsbadman
2018-10-05 01:07
You are the only person that can change and I am sure you can do so.
2018-10-05 01:17
even as a kid I was melancholic just born this way I guess
2018-10-05 00:12
Try to remember that power of mind is the strongest thing a person has maybe you can use this power to change this position you find yourself in
2018-10-05 00:54
I can logically tell myself I shouldn't feel this way, but it's hard to reason with emotions Whenever I'm having a great time, I think "thank god I didn't kill myself" and it helps
2018-10-05 01:10
What for you have to even think to kill yourself I believe that to ultimately have peace for yourself you need to confront the source of this sadness. But if you have no source of this sadness and as you sad you are just a melancholic then there are other ways to deal with this but I hope that there is a root to this sadness so we can pull it out and pass through this time.
2018-10-05 01:14
#182
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Europe xaxzera 
not depressed, don't have time because i literally need to get money from somewhere for rent.
2018-10-05 00:16
#186
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United States ItsImpact 
Yes I didn’t use social media which caused me to lose connection with friends and now I hate almost everyone at my gay ass catholic school
2018-10-05 00:17
Can you look to switch schools? unfortunately it will also happen in other schools because most people are self absorbed with social media but i am sure you can meet some normal people in this catholic school like you said you hate most of the people in this school not all
2018-10-05 00:27
#210
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United States ItsImpact 
Yeah but I also gained social anxiety so I get scared to talk to people I don’t know
2018-10-05 00:28
don't be scared to talk to people you don't know nothing bad can come from it to have many friends. All i know is i used to have many friends that i could walk up and talk to but later on i just stuck with one group where i enjoyed the most maybe this is what you need to do make friends with a large amount of people from different groups and later in the year you will see which one you really want to stay in but make sure there is no drugs in this group with drugs bring bad
2018-10-05 00:32
#187
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Russia Sur10n 
I'm depressed cuz my government spending 24 hours per day by scamming me and they want me to die young :c And the most depressed thing,what it's for real.They even laughing and joking around about that and not trying to hide all this shitty stuff for 8 years at least.
2018-10-05 00:17
Try to get out of where you are from
2018-10-05 00:26
#197
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United States subzera 
yes lonely
2018-10-05 00:22
Elaborate My friend
2018-10-05 00:52
#239
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United States subzera 
always been quite. few friends. move to college. friends gone.
2018-10-05 00:54
If you are in college now it is not over and for some people now is the best time to meet the people that you can always count on in the future just make sure you put yourself around the right people
2018-10-05 00:57
#245
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United States subzera 
i drink with my brother on the weekends and am on the csgo team but thats it
2018-10-05 00:59
You say thats it as if you can't do more for yourself I am sure that there is more you can do for yourself and as soon as you try a little bit you will see big differences
2018-10-05 01:08
#260
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United States subzera 
i mean thats it as in thats all the social interaction i have
2018-10-05 01:14
Yes and my message above still states for this you can do more by meeting people with the same hobbies/likes that you have you should not close yourself to only certain interactions
2018-10-05 01:16
Help yourself the best you can and make sure you doing the best for yourself every day
2018-10-05 01:25
#198
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Malaysia byaIi 
depressed cuz im bad kid
2018-10-05 00:22
Tell Me more sir
2018-10-05 00:52
#240
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Malaysia byaIi 
i was behind one guy and i missed all shoots
2018-10-05 00:54
it is good u missed all shots u didn't murder the innocent man sir
2018-10-05 00:55
No, Im not. Had hard times in life (like losing my long-term and only girlfriend 6 years ago) and Im constantly on a physical rollercoaster but I try my best to control it mentally. I had times in life when I was like sad 24/7 and with weird thoughts (I suffer brain palsy/hydrocephalus, so high-school was a hard run) but I don't think it was depression because once I got outta there I was back at my normal state of balance. Today I don't really have friends irl, no gf, but I have a job, some money and some small (and only I need) social contact. But if I feel like need more surely I'll search for it. (._.)_b
2018-10-05 00:23
It seems like you already have yourself set for success and know what you must do to fix it!
2018-10-05 00:49
I'm depressed because I paid for PornHub premium and hot girls in my area don't wanna fuck me anymore.
2018-10-05 00:25
hell no but i´ve had i´ve been though shit and at times i was very unhappy with a lot of stuff but i since then i decided to change a bit tomorrow is a new day so instead of crying about how life sucks what about I actually do something to change it :) + dogs pics and vids always keep me sane + I avoid toxic environments in general (hltv being an exception )
2018-10-05 00:35
I am happy to hear that you have ways to help yourself
2018-10-05 00:49
btw congrats on the thread! these days it´s nice to see such positive and helpful thread in the toxic place that is hltv keep up the good work :)
2018-10-05 23:18
#237
device | 
Netherlands fiwish 
Not being a pro gamer and working a shitty monday to friday 8hour job
2018-10-05 00:54
I think you need to also lock yourself in a room and if you are serious about wanting to be pro gamer look at what you are first age lifestyle etc and if you really want to do this then you must think long and hard what it will take to push yourself to this point in being what you dream to be
2018-10-05 00:56
#246
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
Because I’m 15 and have no friends to go out with at the weekend so I lead an unhealthy lifestyle by my only hobby being sitting on my computer playing games all day and my internet is shit so I can’t even enjoy myself or get better at CS cause I only get to play like 1 comp every 2 weeks. Also I’m socially awkward and am hopeless at making friends and my ex-friends decided I was too ironic and meme obsessed to be in their group anymore so they all ignore me as does everyone because I have the least interesting life ever. I really want to try and go pro in CS soon since that’s an escape from school and also I’ll get to go places if it works out but good luck with my ping fluctuating between 150 and 1500 every 5 seconds, so I’m basically getting a big middle finger from the gods above. Also I’m virgin
2018-10-05 01:00
Nothing wrong with being virgin with 15 years(I have 16,never even kissed the girl,or been even close) "because I’m 15 and have no friends to go out with at the weekend so I lead an unhealthy lifestyle by my only hobby being sitting on my computer playing games all day " Well,It seems like you aren't the only one with this kind of a lifestyle...
2018-10-05 01:06
If you are not baiting then you have an amazing life and you don't realize this I know it is easy to toss the words I say away but Your life is great and you need to enjoy these days when you are young like this because someday you will need to grow up and it will be a harsh reality check. I can understand if you just say "yea yea i understand" but bookmark this and come back in 4 years and you will see how much your life will change and possibly you will wish to have been a kid again even at the age of 19 unless you go to college
2018-10-05 01:12
#265
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
Sure, an amazing life where literally nothing happens and I do nothing go nowhere and talk to no one. I couldn’t care less about financial issues in the future, I’m confident I’ll get a good job and be able to get by in life. But the expression goes “how do you explain the bunch of billionaires that killed themselves”, not saying I’m gonna be a billionaire obviously lol, but financial problems are far from the only source of depression. If I become the richest person in the world in the future but still do the same stuff I do now, I’ll consider myself a failure. And I know there’s no guarantee of anything and I could literally have my life changed tomorrow. But I’ve been like this for 3 years and nothing’s came or gone, I’m the same and nothing’s changed. I can count on my fingers the amount of times I’d go out with friends in a year.
2018-10-05 01:19
I never spoke about money I just said when you will grow older you will miss the past regardless even if you had friends or not unless you are abused at home or at school. Just by this post you showed me you are actually 15. I can't give advice to someone so young other than just enjoy the time with your family and what you have right now because trust me you will miss these days. Find some new friends it is harder to do than to say but just try to enjoy these young years the most once it is over you will see what will happen I am just trying to warn you.
2018-10-05 01:25
#277
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
You’re telling me to enjoy my young life. I’m telling you that’s the problem, I CANT. I agree that when I’m older I’ll wish I was a kid again, but I would wish to be a kid with a different life to the one I had. There’s nothing here to miss
2018-10-05 01:30
But now you can ask yourself what can YOU do to help yourself and to fix this if you will do this for yourself you will feel fulfilled from your childhood. Make friends with kids that have the same hobbies as you try to do something more for yourself you can sit down every day playing computer but I am sure you go to a school with many kids that don't understand what we are talking about even and will cry when they are older about their childhood. Now is your time to not be that type of person and to make yourself happy make many friends find the right ones to stay with for longterm friendships and you will see how much you will enjoy this life.
2018-10-05 01:38
#294
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
I’m do believe that if a miracle happens i will be able to enjoy my life again. But I don’t right now, and I’m not in the mindset to go out and make a change or any that shit. Technically speaking there’s a lot of shit I can do to help myself enjoy my life. But I can’t because I’d hate myself for it because that’s the state of mind I’m in and have been in for years
2018-10-05 01:42
#291
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
If you so wish, I will take your advice to appreciate the things about being a kid more, like family, feeling safe and protected, because I trust you. But it doesn’t change the fact that I’m severely depressed and my life is the irl equivalent of untextured
2018-10-05 01:39
I am not saying to stay content with the way your life is going youtube.com/watch?v=_J_bOqPhuZA watch this video and if you still feel disconnected or that you can't do more for yourself then so be it. I need you just to understand that you are the only person that can do good for yourself but most likely you will understand this later on in life.
2018-10-05 01:50
#305
kennyS | 
France Thijo 
Look, I appreciate you trying to help me I really do, thank you, but if fixing my life was as easy as you’re making it out, I wouldn’t be depressed, and I am depressed, very much so. I’m spiralling downwards faster and faster, but maybe if I hit rock bottom one day, that’ll be enough for me to want to pick my life back up myself, like you’re saying. I just can’t right now. Thank you for your time, you’re a good guy with good intentions
2018-10-05 02:08
You can only do for yourself in this situation good luck.
2018-10-05 02:25
#322
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Germany Delf1n 
Yeah ,I'm sometimes socialy akward but my lifestyle is pretty healthy so I atleast have that.
2018-10-05 10:55
#247
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Brazil marcosopora 
I was, but I found a girl who ended this.
2018-10-05 01:04
Good I am happy for you
2018-10-05 01:09
#308
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Brazil marcosopora 
ty mate <3
2018-10-05 02:26
I DONT WANNA DIE I JUST WANT TO BE ALIVE
2018-10-05 01:05
#255
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Canada VeryMightGuy 
sip cyanide
2018-10-05 01:10
the school shooter anthem
2018-10-05 01:33
Depressed. Not only with life or only society, with everything. Seeing all the possibilities and ways of how could everything be, how could life be. Many years ago i realized i'm actually trans. I never wanted to live this life, to have this body. To fit in a template society wants you to be. I think in some moment people around me understood that intuitively because i was asked straight about this. And that day i lied to them. Said no, i'm not going on a sex change or something, i'm alright. That was... I don't know what else to say about that, just bad and embarrassing. Although i know i won't ever be able to become a real girl (science hasn't gone that far yet and we don't have any magic) i still can't give up on that. That just doesn't feel right for me. I feel envious towards every girl i see. I feel painful each time i walk in public. I really rarely smile now. My head like trash bin filled with thoughts and self-analysis. How would people react on that, my friends? Will they be my friends after? Will i feel better after? My family knows that and they're ok. But still everything so complicated. You see that flag btw, right? That's not really like i could afford anything like that in close future. And cs always was my passion. I was really damn good, even on shit pc and devices doing pretty good. I planned to become pro player, everything was looking like i definitely could. That would fullfill both my dreams. And then suddenly everything went down, i started underperforming, losing shots, blamed myself for poor training, for doing not enough. And here i am now, at my 19. I cry. Alot. Feel hopeless. Not because i want to, that's the only way i can feel now. Suicidal thought is my good ol' friend. But my self-preservation yet strong. Just as strong realization of fact what erasing me from existance may hurt some people. Sometimes it gets over me and i make pathetic "try" to end it all. Like get knife in a hand and be one step further from doing it, try to hang myself on a belt, stress out my heart till it fatally damaged. Something like that, i'd say it could be described as depression. Btw i'm unbanned so i'll shitpost again just to feel better.
2018-10-05 01:15
I hope you are not baiting but if you really live in russia there are many more problems to being trans than feeling bad. I think you are too young to feel this bad in this position and for being pro csgo player your 19 its ok keep trying unless you feel like it is bringing you down in other aspects of life. I am sure one day you will reach a point where you are very very happy for what your life has become and for your decisions.
2018-10-05 01:22
Would i type that much and describe so many aspects just for simple bait in 200+ comments thread? And there's not that much of problems i think, just some granny may be mad about that or smth. I think I can handle the opinion of the society.(It's actually not that bad in russia) I may not be ok with what'll my best friend think of it and some other people. I just hope it'll get better somehow. What i'll solve these problems.
2018-10-05 01:32
It will get much better I think you need to surround yourself with more people that are interested in the same things as you (if that means being with other trans then i suggest you do it because finding people with same interests is always a good thing for mental health) but like i said i am sure you will reach a point where you will feel happy and fulfilled
2018-10-05 01:35
I can't do anything, but thank you for warm words. That's something what helps no matter how bad you feel. Good night.
2018-10-05 01:38
Hi bro, i'm from brazil, i hope you get happy, don't worry now, take a time, think more about your decision, here on brazil we have a TRANS pro player called "Olga", she plays on Bootkamp Gaming (female team from brazil), she suffered the samethings that you, and also she sold her PC to do the surgery (sex changing), if this help you, try translate to ENG/RUS and read her history.. vs.com.br/artigo/olga-a-primeira-tecnica..
2018-10-05 01:37
Thank you
2018-10-05 15:17
#266
iNTERP | 
Norway tiIt 
nope im happy
2018-10-05 01:21
#268
Twistzz | 
Ireland IX! 
Hella
2018-10-05 01:22
Tell me more!
2018-10-05 01:25
#280
Twistzz | 
Ireland IX! 
Don't want to take up too much time but the TL;DR is dependent personality disorder + anxiety + other physical health issues + relationship stuff (or rather the lack of) = not fun times
2018-10-05 01:32
What can you say you enjoy thoughroughy in this life? And what do you think can be the key to fixing some of these issues
2018-10-05 02:01
First of all I'd like to mention that I'm writing this at 1 AM, so all of this might be a bunch of emotional nonsense, especially since I've got no idea how to properlyexpressing without writing a 50 page essay (even though you could probably sum up its content in 5 sentences, but whatever). If you're not interested in such, just skip this comment. As for whether I'm depressed or not, I don't really know. I feel like I've been born into the wrong world at times, not because I feel like life's been treating me unfairly, but rather because there's nothing I really enjoy anymore, not even playing videogames, which even a year ago was something I'd always enjoy. In the meantime I've had a girlfriend, with whom I broke up 8 months after, since my mental health was really going downhill from spending time with her (it's a long story, I can't really elaborate all that much). The initial couple of months after I felt great, but now I feel an emptiness like I never have before, and I feel like it's completely unrelated to that first relationship which turned out to be a failure. I've always been someone who'd just walk around and think for hours, but lately I've been thinking about life and death, and a lot at that. I'm questioning my very reason for existing; Why should I live? What does it mean to be happy? Why shouldn't I just die off right now? Does it even make any difference? But all of that wouldn't be that big of a deal if it were just numbness I'm feeling. Oftentimes I feel actual sadness, and it's a result of my numbness. It's kind of like building rain up in a cloud, and then unleashing it. This is when I feel like I should end my life, again for no particular reason, which is why I refuse to explicitly say that I'm depressed, because I know that there are plenty of people with real problems. I don't think there's any way of helping me honestly, it's all up to myself. I admit that I might even enjoy making myself sad in a perverted way. And yes, I've had actual rough times before in my life (problems within my family), but I also don't think there's any correlation to my situation right now. I'm not sure I really understand it myself, so I'll stop rambling right here. Again just to clarify, I don't want to complain, I'm merely blowing some steam off. Sorry for this mess of a text. I wish anyone who's read this text all the best.
2018-10-05 01:26
I understand what you are going through I am not sure how old you are but concerning life and death it is easy to think about it but during those long times where you think to yourself about life I want you to specifically think about your life and what you would feel is yourself being fulfilled. I can compare myself with you because with gambling at some points I would subconsciously make myself lose everything to go through a period of sadness and emptiness and like you said we enjoy this sadness. But it does not have to be this way and just by thinking to myself and fixing some things I have been in a good position. It is best to think about yourself instead to think too deep and too far for things that are not meant for us to think about. You are too in a limbo but most likely with time and changes in your personal life you will see positive things come out of it.
2018-10-05 01:33
I suppose you're right, I really can get absorbed in negative thoughts. I do think that this is just a temporary stage I'm at, so I'm not worried that this'll last forever. There are also some thing that make me happy, I'll try to focus more on that, even when I feel like everything's gone bad. I'll get there somehow. Oh and by the way I'm 17, so I guess it'd be normal to go through something similar at this age. I'm not the only one I know who has this kind of problem. Thank you for taking your time to read and reply to my comment, I always appreciate it when anyone takes their time to have a little chat with me. I wish you all the best for you future endeavors.
2018-10-05 10:09
I wish you too luck at the age of 17 like you said you are not the only one with these thoughts
2018-10-05 19:47
#306
iNTERP | 
Norway tiIt 
You're only 17-18, literally no reason to take your own life. I don't know how serious the thoughts are but you should stop thinking about it. I hope you don't have any plans on taking your own life
2018-10-05 02:14
I know, and to be frank I don't think I'd even have the guts to do so. If I really wanted to end my life that badly I'd have done it I guess. It's not like I'm thinking about it all the time, the thought just comes to me at times (mostly at night). Besides that, I've made that promise to a very close friend of mine. Now, one may break any promise if they're desperate enough, but it always helps as a mental reminder that I'm not alone. So to answer your question definitely, no, I don't have any actual plans of the sorts. I'm not at the point where even at my happiest I'm unhappy enough to take my life. If I did that right now, it'd definitely be a hasty decision rather than a calculated one. I'll keep on trying for as long as I can, I'm pretty sure things are bound to get better. Thank you for sparing some of your time to hear what I've had to say. I hope you yourself are doing well, but regardless of that I wish you all the best.
2018-10-05 10:17
#275
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Canada Uncle_Osama 
:( Reply needs to have actual content
2018-10-05 01:27
#299
eLUSIVE | 
United States mook_ 
ofc i wish some things were better but no not depressed
2018-10-05 01:44
I am taking a break from this Thread I am not sure if anyone else needs help but I am going to go chill out and do some things if you are coming here for advice and I am not here just remember this presence of mind is one of the strongest things we have as humans.
2018-10-05 01:52
yes
2018-10-05 02:03
I actually plan to commit suicide some time in the future.I have not killed myself yet because it would hurt the people I care about. So I am waiting until they all die so I can die in peace. if you think its wrong or coward way -Yes. Suicide is an easy and shitty way out. Only cowards who are inept at functioning normally in society would commit suicide. And that's exactly what I am. People like me are only a burden to the rest of society.
2018-10-05 05:20
You will never be a burden to society trust me. It seems as your surroundings are very negative and I think you need to move from where you currently live. With a new surrounding brings a new start where all your mistakes from a previous time will not be shown
2018-10-05 06:41
#326
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Faroe Islands memento_1 
you will never suicide thats what i can tell. if you care about others youre not 100% lost yet. climb up.
2018-10-05 15:19
Alot of ppl in life thinking about suicide, so do I. Sometimes bcuz of depression, and sometimes bcuz of serious health problems with whom I was born. That's how I thought when I was 20+ years old. Now Im much older and trust me man, suicide is not cowardice, it is stupidity. Life for most ppl on this planet is very rough, but each of them has to deal with it, because that's what life is about. If you are depressed because you are not rich or you do not have the life you see on Youtube or on TV, you just neet to wake up. Life is crap, it's true, but you will not get another one.
2018-10-05 15:47
i'll do the same but not now
2018-10-05 15:49
#316
cyx | 
Other jNkey 
no
2018-10-05 10:12
#332
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Dominican Republic g8Q0wHY 
just like #311 if my grandaparents are gone, i am as well
2018-10-05 16:05
Do you think that your grandparents would want this of you? Why don't you spend every second with them and try to make yourself have a greater idea of what you should become for them if you are willing to kill yourself for them. Think about becoming a champion in sport or something for your grandparents push yourself to do something you think you cannot but for their spirit you will try. Your grandparents want you to be more and do more if you have the power you will do it for them.
2018-10-05 21:09
#339
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Dominican Republic g8Q0wHY 
im living with them im too old for sports or anything
2018-10-05 22:01
Never too old to do what you feel is right or to make a change on earth trust me
2018-10-05 22:34
I want you to know this you can make a change on this earth whichever way you see fit you just need to be set on this.
2018-10-05 22:59
you give horrible advice, its just like watching a movie. Learn to talk to depressed people with no hope.
2018-10-05 23:04
16, family deaths, bully, no1cares and memtal issues
2018-10-05 19:49
I must say this through this depression if you get through the hardships in this life I can say that you will have a period in your life when everything will go your way but you must overcome these things it is easier to say but find the power in yourself in your mind to do this and I promise you will see good come from it. Once you get through this time of adolescence and bullying you will be much stronger and the people that put you down will be below you
2018-10-05 22:36
thanks for support, but there isnt a day without me crying... I can beat the fuck out of these people, who bully me, I had problems because of it, I destroyed one guy who was bullying me like 2 years, he ended up in hospital. I always wanted a person who I can talk to without being scared that he leaves me then... girls bait me so hard, I always fall in love with her (she seems to be in love with me too) then kick me like a bitch. My brother commited suicide, he was like my everything, we used to play together, we worked together, we talked together. I want him back maan.
2018-10-06 14:55
I think you need to survive these years for your brother these bullies will disappear soon and these girls are young and dumb it is tough but I think you need to separate yourself from this energy. Try to look at a goal after you finish school to go somewhere or do something separate from these people.
2018-10-06 20:58
#336
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Other Phoebus97 
turning to 21 and still a virgin.
2018-10-05 21:41
Not big deal now go to bar drink and find a nice lady
2018-10-05 22:36
#415
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Other Phoebus97 
just not good at making contacts making conversations.. (not a bad looking guy)
2018-10-06 22:03
You are fine just find a place where people like the same things as you and you should find a nice girl
2018-10-06 23:01
two more years, and you know how awesome hookers are.
2018-10-05 23:03
#338
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
20 bipolar
2018-10-05 21:57
How extreme would you say the bipolar episodes are
2018-10-05 22:37
If he is medicated, not so bad.
2018-10-05 23:01
let us see what he says
2018-10-05 23:04
if he's not medicated, then he can go fuck himself. I don't feel sorry for people who dont seek help.
2018-10-05 23:05
it completely depends everyone is different
2018-10-05 23:06
No, not really.
2018-10-05 23:06
#366
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
you know its ok with me but you should not judge anyone cause sometimes i just feel should i take medicine to people love me? its hard sometimes you know ... in my country people dont understand alot about mind illness so they think your some kinda crazy
2018-10-06 00:59
#364
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
im fighting as hard as i can you know i go out more with friends only the one who i trust sometimes again its happen and i feel bad but i just do nothing that day just i rest but i meake sure to do not go low if i feel sad i just cry and empty my self but before i seek for help and taking some medicine i cry alot maybe 2-3 times a week
2018-10-06 00:56
#362
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
when im high i do alot of weeds, jerk off 2-3 times a day playing video games and i feel like im the best in the world when im low just thinking about suicide all the time i even decided about that but this is before i seek help
2018-10-06 00:54
Why do you feel empty what was family life like?
2018-10-06 01:04
#369
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
before it was like this: thinking about future, feeling like i dont deserve anything that im waste of time, sometimes because i loved someone who broke my heart sometimes when family judge me and ... but nowadays its not like that i feel good sometimes extra hype, i talk more i mean alot more people love me everyone respect and suddnly in middle of my day or night i feel like i need to cry it can happens anytime or anywhere, its like an heart attack so i just rush to my bed and cry still i have a deep sadness in my heart cause im gay and people say i dont deserve to live specialy in my country and im in love with someone which everyone tell me he is using you but i cant understand cause he is all my hope and the future that i dream of but at the end its just broken dream i have faith, the only thing that is keeping me and im figthing is that i know things always gets better, im just having patience, patience, patience
2018-10-06 01:11
It is true by time things will be better Take it easy smoke a little bit of weed and watch some tv shows enjoy little things in life don't think too much try to make this life the best for you.
2018-10-06 01:50
#376
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
im trying i just hope that everyone is wrong and he cares about me
2018-10-06 02:48
Time will tell don't be too paranoid about it
2018-10-06 02:49
#380
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
:( i wish i could smoke some weed now 4am and cant sleep and in morning i cant wakeuo really need some1 by my side
2018-10-06 03:00
why is your lover not with u
2018-10-06 03:40
#386
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
Cause his not gay it seems
2018-10-06 08:04
sad don't worry just jerk off more u wil be fin smoke more weed
2018-10-06 08:08
#390
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
before i jerk off 2-3 times a day but now i jerk off less cause jerking off alot distroy your seretonin and you get more depresses
2018-10-06 10:00
No mor jerk off for me tooonly time to time take it easy do some shrooms pce
2018-10-06 10:07
#397
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
i know that shroo can do so much help
2018-10-06 12:06
bipolar
2018-10-05 23:05
tell me more sir
2018-10-05 23:06
mania or some shit..spending money on some bs.
2018-10-05 23:09
For the spending money part I suggest you lock yourself out of your account time to time not sure how but I believe that you can think of a way to make sure when you go through an episode you won't make mistakes.
2018-10-05 23:11
#367
GuardiaN | 
Iran NGOD 
i feel that i gifted all my money to a my crush who just used me
2018-10-06 01:00
#351
Snax | 
Japan axe__ 
faceit.com that's answer
2018-10-05 23:05
ah so thats why its such a miserable experience
2018-10-05 23:22
NEED HALP !! I dont have any motivation to do anything anymore !! Im just bored with everything not depressed.
2018-10-06 00:55
Wake up tommorow like you are in a movie do what you want or feel to do forget about everything that is normal in your life and imagine something more for yourself. Then do it and you will see things will be much better and more fun.
2018-10-06 01:51
Ofc i am... My love is in Poland and i am in fucking Ireland.... Miss her soo much and cant wait when I will see my little princess ^_^
2018-10-06 00:58
Very Nice story! You will see your princess soon!
2018-10-06 01:50
I'm 22 (23 after 6 months) and still virgin, well even worse, i didn't even date a girl in my life for real :/ i'm just shy gamer dude who hasn't enough communication skills to keep a simple conversation with females even tho i had many chances in the past to find a girlfriend, but it never went further than flirting.. just don't have that confidence, manliness if u may xd im not fat tho and looking quite decent, but ofc it's not for me to judge. Also, i don't look just for any girl tbh, I'm not that desperate, although i really wanna have that experience finally in my life heh
2018-10-06 01:23
You need to widen yourself then if you want to find this girl. You need to do more go out etc if you want to get the girl you are talking about but being 22yo virgin is not big deal so no worries!
2018-10-06 01:53
thanks man!
2018-10-06 08:47
#382
iNTERP | 
Norway tiIt 
Have you tried downloading dating apps?
2018-10-06 03:02
not really) can be one of the options i guess
2018-10-06 08:48
No
2018-10-06 01:54
Yeaa Im depressed maybe a little bit... cuz I study sth what I dont want to study its rly hard .. and Idk if I am good enough to learn so much.... :(
2018-10-06 02:55
The only barrier you are putting from you succeeding and studying this subject is doubt. you need to understand that the mind is the strongest thing we have as humans and that with you just letting go of all the pressure and putting yourself in a higher place mentally can help you achieve what you need.
2018-10-06 03:00
I know that... But Ty bro
2018-10-06 03:03
Just know this you can do whatever you want to do remember this my friend nothing is impossible if you put your heart to it.
2018-10-06 03:40
#391
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France comenToFaZe 
a little bit and i don't know why
2018-10-06 10:04
#395
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Albania blizaardy 
no gf?
2018-10-06 10:15
#396
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France comenToFaZe 
no
2018-10-06 10:16
#393
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Slovakia baucek1 
yes im not
2018-10-06 10:11
maybe loving a girl but couldn't tell anyone
2018-10-06 12:08
if you love her just tell her
2018-10-06 12:08
She will say'Hey u r a good man,but we better be friends' 100 percent
2018-10-06 13:18
Show her your Kung-Fu skills and she will fall in love, for sure
2018-10-06 13:20
You'll never know it until you ask her. And i know that this video has nothing to do with your problem but youtu.be/6eM-wjbkSU4
2018-10-06 13:22
Thx man!I'm impressed by this video tbh,I have to try,start my first step
2018-10-06 17:38
#412
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Portugal cufwipe 
You better tell her fast before the changes her mind and choses another one. Girls are very cold hearted trust me.
2018-10-06 21:10
No I do feel sad sometimes, but never depressed The sad feeling gives my mind a more open/clear state of thinking For me being sad is like being happy, it just happens. I find people calling themselves "depressed", weaklings that are too scared to take actions and responsibilities for their lifes.
2018-10-06 12:11
Some people that are in depressed state of mind just can't see the way out because it is shrouded in all the negative thoughts they have or they are forced into the lifestyle that makes them depressed i.e being too young to leave home from abusive family etc
2018-10-06 21:00
All my friends left me, no one loves me, i have absolutely no motivation to do anything. All i do is work,sleep,uni. No social life or anything, basically im a waste of oxygen. I havent felt happy in like 2 years.
2018-10-06 21:05
#411
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Portugal cufwipe 
Yep i am like that too, i think knowing the right people is key, growing in the right place is also a key. Too many details we cant control and end up like this. I am a chill guy and i like to go out but because i have no close friends at all i cant.
2018-10-06 21:09
I hope you figure your life out.
2018-10-06 21:10
You can’t be a waste of oxygen trust me there are way more people on this earth that does not deserve what they have. Apart from that your problems are depended on others too much but it sounds as if they stem from family issues which is understandable.
2018-10-06 23:59
#410
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Portugal cufwipe 
A girl i met on my work place, we talked for 2 weeks and she seemed atracted to me giving me hints, coming with hot clothes, trying to get my attention and i was stupid to not give her the attention she wanted. I was going to do that but she just traded me for another one and they probably fucked this weekend. Girls are cruel , i cant even sleep now, i think i like her more than i should but now its gone and i have to find a way to forget her.
2018-10-06 21:06
This pain is very temporary if you want you can smoke some weed and you will understand how meaningless she is but are you sure she had sex with this other guy I feel like you are taking it too far from reality maybe she still likes you sir
2018-10-07 00:01
#422
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Portugal cufwipe 
She was dating him at my front this entire week, she was completely "in love" with him, could not stop looking at him, i saw her perfectly. She stoped coming to my car for a home ride and started waiting for the other guy car, they were making plans for this weekend. Thats so sad, i dont understand how a girl can quickly change sides like this, she was testing me and i know that, i wasnt good enough to take it but still, really hurts to see how she does nt give a fuck about me anymore when i started to think about her all day all night.
2018-10-07 00:09
Don’t worry I been through this before it will take like 1 month to get over her but if you want to forget easier smoke a little bit of weed not too much and you will feel much better maybe now you know you can get these type of nice girls and use this as confidence to find some nice girl and do the opposite from what this working crush did to you.
2018-10-07 00:22
#416
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Norway analpain1337 
yes, lost all my fiends due to cs and runescape
2018-10-06 22:04
#417
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Sweden Zae 
yeah, i am 44 year old somali csgo player with constantly 500+ping on brazil server........
2018-10-06 22:07
dont know why, everything is going good for me, i have alot of friends, i have a job, have place to live. But im just angry all the time, and i hate everything nothing seems fun anymore. And i have always had a very negative mindset
2018-10-06 23:13
Well, yes. I’m friends with girl from my university for 2 years and this September I fell in love with her. I don’t know what to do cause I don’t wanna ruin our friendship but I also want her as my girlfriend. And she also started to sommunicate closer with my friend from the same university (all 3 of us we’re friends before) and I think she might like him as boyfriend as well. I’m not fully sure about them but every time we hang out together they both are just having fun while I’m feeling some pressure... And this fucking situation is killing me inside because I just don’t know what to do. Ah yes, and I’m 20 years old virgin which bothers me as well. But not as much as this situation.
2018-10-07 00:25
dude i just saw this. There are two options here either you bite the bullet and let your friend go for it or you go for it. Either way talk with both of them .Let them know where u stand in this equation. Just do something because if you don´t the remorse will be a bitch believe me. If you get everything out to her then even if she says no it´s way easier to move on.Not easy, it´s still a bitch but slightly easier Have a nice one :)
2018-10-15 23:20
Thank you. I talked to her few days ago ( I didn’t confess to her that I love her) and she said that she doesn’t want to make any relationships with friends. It’s also a bit complicated because we see each other every day in our university. I guess now I’m very jealous because she communicates with my friend a lot and with only in university. Shitty situation... Thanks again for the help
2018-10-16 15:17
depression doesn't exist. I mean, depression is literally 'thing' like 'invented walls', guy (doesn't matter who) create this walls for himself when in reality there is no wall. FACT
2018-10-07 00:26
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