Never've been comfortable with my gender. Never were agressive, liked girly things, didn't want to become that ripped shit they promote as ideal for men, wanted to be pretty, didn't like what my male classmates were talking about, preferred to talk with girls, anime and manga made some influence as well, never wanted to have a gf, build a family, that's more like being a men isn't my thing.
It's only a small part, i can't describe it fully. It just feels like everything is wrong, like i want to live completely different. And because of that i feel pain, lots of pain.
Dress cute, look cute ... i also liked that part of women's life where they use all kind of chemicals to look even cuter (nail painting, long hair in all different hairstyles) Was really bummed even in young age what girls cover their chest and boys don't. Hell, i'd trade many things for becoming a real girl, even PMS doesn't scare me, i think it's brutal that blood comes out of your vag.
Kinda it. You wanted long post, i see it in your eyes, stranger.