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i can't forgive myself
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
how do i stop thinking about my past mistakes? it doesn't get out of my head. thinking about it 24/7. there’s nothing worse than that feeling of utter defeat and despair that comes along with making major mistakes in life and failing.
2019-06-16 16:53
You need time. Time is the cure for everything dude. Nothing else works especially to people who have your mentality, I know it, I am the same
2019-06-16 16:55
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
thank you so much. but the time i go through is really painful and i really want it to end asap.
2019-06-16 16:56
use more alcohol and drugs, slam your head against concrete 10 times non-stop
2019-06-16 17:41
#44
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Bulgaria R34 
Second method helps a lot
2019-06-16 17:43
#54
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
i'll do that as soon as i get alone
2019-06-16 18:02
good luck. If I don't hear from you tomorrow that means it worked
2019-06-16 18:03
you should know that negative thoughts about the past interfere with your present and future, good luck mah ninja
2019-06-16 17:45
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Belgium jelledm 
what mistake did u make??
2019-06-16 16:56
#6
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
could go to an 8.5/10 university but now apparently i'll go to a 6/10 university because of panics during the exam
2019-06-16 16:58
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Belgium jelledm 
you really stressing over that shit? lmao
2019-06-16 16:58
#9
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
yes.
2019-06-16 16:59
#10
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Finland siloquez 
Haha don't worry I could've gone at 8yrs old to some super1337 math school with this girl from our class. Later on she did some epic records from graduating high school (long time ago) and now I'm smoking dope and playing CS:D:D
2019-06-16 17:00
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Russia og_loc 
I can relate to that
2019-06-16 17:17
hey man, one time I shat my pants in public, I still think about it sometimes and how terrible it was, that shit is normal but it doesn’t mean I let it get to me.
2019-06-16 16:56
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Russia peia 
how about you drop down and start pushing
2019-06-16 16:56
#66
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
i'm not strong enough
2019-06-16 19:03
#7
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Denmark sonnebonne 
Make it a part of you, cause you have to live with it no matter what. Learn how to forgive yourself.
2019-06-16 16:58
#11
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Turkey headshotk1ng 
Just be the real alpha and forgive yourself _NOW_. _LAST WARNING_
2019-06-16 17:00
#13
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
not as easy as that
2019-06-16 17:01
OR_ELSE
2019-06-16 17:10
What kind of mistakes? For example
2019-06-16 17:00
Like you, I have a problem with stress especially during test and exams To forgot, you need to spend your time at doing activities, with your friends or family, or go to a party 😉
2019-06-16 17:04
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
when i work so much for an exam and fail it due to stupid braindead mistakes, it hits me so hard and i even consider to suicide sometimes. i have no balls for it though.
2019-06-16 17:06
Omg I was so many time in the same situation! I failed so many test due to stress and stupid mistakes... But one time at the end of the class, the teacher talked to me and explain me that a single test will not define my future and that I have to calm down in evaluation. I know in University it is a bit different but there is surely a way for you to integrate the university you really want ? Could you try the test again next year? Or be in the best in the 6/10 university and be switched to the 8.5/10 after on year?
2019-06-16 17:14
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
i'm not going to try next year, and i'm not sure about switching between universities. it must be really hard
2019-06-16 17:25
I can understand that. But you must know something, your grade will help you to find your first job and define your first salary, but after that employers will mainly look at your CVs and about what is your "real" qualification So don't worry, it will be ok ;D
2019-06-16 17:44
#52
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
thank you
2019-06-16 18:01
on wednesday im retaking the exam at uni. if i fail, they are gonna throw me out from uni :)
2019-06-16 17:07
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
and look how calm you are. don't you even think how disappointed will your parents get?
2019-06-16 17:08
im not calm, im stressing about it
2019-06-16 17:10
#20
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
what are you studying
2019-06-16 17:10
law
2019-06-16 17:10
#22
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
shit law is hard gl with that
2019-06-16 17:11
thanks. i hopefully wont fail. but with my luck u never know
2019-06-16 17:11
#24
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
same shit i'm always unlucky
2019-06-16 17:12
the funny thing about it is that even if i fail the exam, my subject mark is still positive. but in my study program i have to pass all the exams no matter what
2019-06-16 17:13
just study and relax. rather go into a test calm and relaxed than panicking and stressed out. just have the mindset that you'll ace the test, but make sure you study lots. good luck my friend.
2019-06-16 17:16
thank you. i should go study rn, to be honest, instead of browsing hltv :D but yea
2019-06-16 17:18
if you ever get stressed while studying or while taking the test, just take a deep breath and try your best to use what you know and what you studied to help.
2019-06-16 17:19
yea I will do my best. hopefully i get lucky with questions too, hope they dont put some shit in i barely studied about. but my fault if I dont review everything as well
2019-06-16 17:24
It's different for everyone. I used to go to a therapist for various reasons, and forgiving myself was one thing we tackled with. He used a metaphor that for some reason hit the spot for me. He said that I was a ship, tied to a harbour with a rope. The rope is the guilt I feel. It prevents me from leaving the harbour. By letting go of the guilt I am free to leave the harbour and go explore the sea and other harbours,and even maybe later go back to that particular harbour and explore it more. But I don't need to stay there anymore if I don't want to. I don't know if this metaphor does it for you, but you probably get the point.
2019-06-16 17:12
#38
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
shit that's dramatic, thank you.
2019-06-16 17:38
#38
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
shit that's dramatic, thank you.
2019-06-16 17:38
It isn't a cure-it-all but from what you are describing it sounds like meditating could really help you. Have you tried it?
2019-06-16 17:21
#37
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
No, i don't believe if it works though.
2019-06-16 17:35
#34
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Europe Flashbong 
pull the trigger my guy
2019-06-16 17:23
#53
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
i have no balls for that
2019-06-16 18:02
#56
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Europe Flashbong 
fuck bro why did you have to answer nicely... now i actually feel bad >:((
2019-06-16 18:14
#57
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
i used to be toxic but i think i look stupid, so i'm trying to change slowly
2019-06-16 18:17
#58
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Europe Flashbong 
bet homie. hope you'll figure it all out
2019-06-16 18:18
#40
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Latvia Agbetchok 
What mistakes did you make?
2019-06-16 17:40
#43
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
#6
2019-06-16 17:42
#46
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Latvia Agbetchok 
What are you planning to study in university?
2019-06-16 17:45
#48
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
probably industrial engineering, if my result don't be enough for that degree i'll go for economics then.
2019-06-16 17:48
#50
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Latvia Agbetchok 
What was the university you were going to go to and what is the one your most likely going to now?
2019-06-16 17:50
#51
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
i wanted to go to Yildiz technical university which wants me to get 440 points out of 550. datatassjel.s3.amazonaws.com/uploads/uni.. kinda small but cute place. now i'm most likely about to go to Uludag university and it wants at least 390 out of 550. olay.com.tr/d/news/147709.jpg this one is pretty huge but the education is not as good as the first one.
2019-06-16 17:58
I sometimes think my mistakes also but I have learnt to accept them, it is past anyway, in future I can make better decisions.
2019-06-16 17:42
It's okay dude everyone went to this part at least some of us in HLTV. Just try to have some good time with your friends and do fun things , also in studies try to think the positive not the negative. I studied 4 days before the exam , and memorized before the day of the exam and review with my friends the day of the exam , yet I forgot. Just don't push yourself too hard.
2019-06-16 17:48
#59
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Vietnam comergod1 
Of cause you cant forgive yourself, just go to your church, your god will forgive your sins
2019-06-16 18:18
#60
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
i have no faith in religions and god.
2019-06-16 18:22
If you can not do anything with these errors, then there is no point in worrying. Spend time with friends, play games, have fun. People have worse problems, but there are people who do not stop smiling even if everything is bad. Find the strength to forget the whole thing and make it so that you don’t repeat it anymore. Know that after the black strip will always be white. Cheer up, everything will be fine :)
2019-06-16 18:22
+1
2019-06-16 18:38
You need to think of all the horrible things that can still happen to you. I couldn't let go of my past for 9 years. Then developed problems I thought would kill me or make my life never the same and wished I could've been more grateful for everything I had. Just be grateful man, and try to enjoy every moment.
2019-06-16 18:30
+1
2019-06-16 18:38
Even am having lower CGPA in university, because of my laziness and studying a day or few before exams. I'm having around 6 when I could easily have 7 or 7.5 CGPA if I studied meticulously now and then. But having lower CGPA is not the end of life, which I believe in. Think about CS players like swag, steel, dazed, kqly, forsaken, etc., who threw/cheated in match(es) and are partially or fully banned from participating in tournaments, But swag and steel didn't give up on CS after they're valve banned, and kept on grinding for 2-3 years after which they got to play in a team and earned salaries. Just don't give up on yourself and go forward, and work hard. Try to overcome exam fears. You'll find success in one way or another. Even if university degree doesn't help you get a job, there are thousands of businesses and ways for earning money. Have a good day buddy!
2019-06-16 18:34
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Azerbaijan vocaroo_guy 
Thank you
2019-06-16 19:05
#68
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Austria Dontellme 
U are not perfect and so u are allowed to make mistakes as everybody does.
2019-06-16 19:07
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