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depression is not a myth
United Kingdom SpoonzS 
read the other thread and it annoyed me a bit because today is the one year anniversary of me getting discharged from a psych ward. i got stuck in a psych ward for 4 months last year because i was so depressed that i'd tried to rope it 5 times. i hated it. but because i was in such a bad headspace i couldn't do anything to fix it, to stop harming myself // attempting suicide. so i wasn't let out. i was 15. if you think depression is fake n people should just man up then you're stupid. i didn't do all that for no reason, i did it because my brain was so beyond fucked i genuinely thought topping myself was the way out. i didn't think i'd be alive to see today.
2019-08-09 01:40
ok
2019-08-09 01:42
#2
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Peru TheJuan 
+100
2019-08-09 01:43
You are just weak Let me guess you got rejected by your crush
2019-08-09 01:43
+1
2019-08-09 01:45
#24
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Germany RobiDable 
Bro, your HLTV name is literally based on a anime. You really shouldn't talk lmao.
2019-08-09 03:12
Berserk is so good dont talk shit. But also yeah #3 is a dumbass
2019-08-09 03:34
#31
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Germany RobiDable 
Didn't watched it, i just know a women gets raped by a horse lmao.
2019-08-09 03:36
Almost raped by a horse lol
2019-08-09 05:48
Ever more stupid
2019-08-10 10:25
#64
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Greece Poor_Noob 
But gets fucked by a wierdo, I guess he was the villain
2019-08-10 10:30
omegalul
2019-08-14 11:05
-1
2019-08-09 03:14
no? i had been in a relationship for 12 months. we split actually august last year, after i got discharged.
2019-08-10 02:04
not good to hear man, sorry you had to deal with this shit, I had a similar thing happen last august, split with ex and got placed on a ward except I got an exemption after 2weeks or something due to my personality apparently being more normal/stable but shit like this ain't a joke, only absolute losers mock this shit men
2019-08-14 11:16
Hope you die irl
2019-08-10 10:31
this actually caused a lot of bad things in my life
2019-08-14 10:37
#88
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Denmark fnx_2_major 
reported, and stfu, you are the weakling here
2019-08-14 10:40
#4
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Germany xsyzzz1235 
ok
2019-08-09 01:44
2019-08-09 01:45
#25
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Germany RobiDable 
wtf xD Edit: It's really hypnotic and i can't stop listen to it.
2019-08-09 03:19
idk what to say to you? i ended up on a dose of anti depressants higher than the legal maximum in the uk and the only reason that they could do it was because i had a specialist psychiatrist. i promise you i wasn't doing this for attention or anything like that? my brain was fucked.
2019-08-10 02:05
Definitely not the best place to post delicate stuff, HLTV is full of kids, virgins, people pretending to speak English and trolls wanna be. But you're totally right, I know what it feels, for as much that you try making up your mind to pass over depression it's almost impossible, cause even if you wanna wake up smiling, deep inside you are down, I have a gorgeous girlfriend and a beautiful baby of 1 year old, I had depression and still working on it, at that time I wasn't able to feel happiness, love, joy or anything related due depression, my days were wasted and my personality wasn't stable, I almost fucked up my relationship because of it, but the best you can do is to look ahead of your days, accept depression and organize yourself, and slowly it will fade away.
2019-08-10 04:24
First world problems. African kids who die because illness that are shit in europe, hunger or war are so lucky because not depressed.
2019-08-14 11:21
everything is myth
2019-08-09 01:49
was the ward fun?
2019-08-09 01:50
it was surprisingly good. i met my current girlfriend there and made some amazing friends who i see often. i became known as the 'ward therapist' by staff because sometimes i could speak to the other kids better than the staff could.
2019-08-10 02:06
depression was good for me sometimes.Isolate yourself from the world and thinking so much made me more powerful than before.
2019-08-09 01:52
#10
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Estonia swag420weed 
The thing is, that many people say they have depression when they just have bad mood while they dont have depression. Depression is not just something you can think away. Your brain chemicals are fucked...
2019-08-09 01:56
+++++++++++++ but at the same time, if somebody wants to label themselves as depressed they're welcome to. if dave who works in an office wants to not go to work bcos he's 'depressed' and lose his job and thus his income that's his choice.
2019-08-10 02:07
mine are definitely fucked. i can be normal then all of a sudden it's like this thick black cloud sweeps in and my thoughts and mood get dark real quick, usually it can be triggered by something very small that most people wont even care about... sometimes it happens on its own. in saying that ive got so much more wrong with me lmao, that's only the tip of the iceberg so to say.
2019-08-10 02:23
Don't listen to this braindead wagecuck, he's saying this shit to make himself feel better about his own inability to fight back and be depressed about it
2019-08-09 02:34
easy_as_expected is the one mentioned
2019-08-09 02:35
How can you be so weak that your brain gives up
2019-08-09 02:36
don't think it comes down to that. but if it was: childhood trauma bad household history of bullying lack of a social life lack of self respect / self worth those things could make your brain give up :)
2019-08-10 02:07
How can u have a lack of self respect??? Ego is always inflated for me idk its what mostly makes me loose friends, faceit games, etc
2019-08-10 02:15
even if it's not that there's everything else on the list.
2019-08-10 02:31
I guess, I am the Anger over sadness type of guy
2019-08-10 02:35
This guy explains it in one way: youtube.com/watch?v=azRl1dI-Cts
2019-08-10 10:31
#90
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Finland MoRst 
well if nobody respects you sooner or later youll lose your respect to you
2019-08-14 10:43
Nah, in a way i feel superior to everyone in my school
2019-08-14 13:03
#91
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United States FarCentrist 
+1
2019-08-14 10:44
#14
gla1ve | 
Denmark flapdur 
I suffered from depression too some years ago. It prevents you from coping with the simplest things and even things you like or really want to do. Often people develop social angst. Life shuts down at some point. I called in sick to a friends wedding party and nearly quit playing football at the club that I was a founding member of. It really sucks. Its over now, but some things can trigger light depressions. I skipped an exam and ruined a friendship because a relationship ended and took me "out of the game" for a while. Some people/personalities are more prone to depression than others - the "glass half empty" types.
2019-08-09 02:47
#18
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Portugal NabasKi 
I've seen somewhere that people who were born during the cold months tend to be more depressed. It might be BS though
2019-08-09 02:56
#34
gla1ve | 
Denmark flapdur 
Maybe BS, but I was born in december. I know one other person with bigger issues than me, and he was born in july. There is a lot of talk about the effect of light, and some people vacation in winter for that reason. Others have special lamps. I went to Tenerife in winter some years. Hard to measure, but light is a nice change during winter months.
2019-08-09 21:37
idk about born in cold months but, seasonal affective disorder can cause your mood to lack stability during different seasons.
2019-08-10 02:08
Hope you get better. I know how it feels and the feeling of emptiness really never goes away unfortunately :/
2019-08-09 02:51
#20
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Portugal NabasKi 
Have you ever felt like all you want to do is to do nothing at all?
2019-08-09 02:58
all the time
2019-08-09 02:59
#22
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Portugal NabasKi 
damn I thought it was only me
2019-08-09 03:00
see #45 bro
2019-08-10 02:13
i can tell you that it does brother. i hit the ropes head on and came out bruised but walking. you're not gonna be stuck there forever. you need to text someone? send me a hltv pm.
2019-08-10 02:13
#17
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Serbia d1ckson 
Shit man, that sucks. Glad you are better, keep it that way!
2019-08-09 02:54
thankyou dude. i'm a lot better and intend to stay that way. didn't mean for this thread to be about me, the other one about it being fake just really annoyed me.
2019-08-10 02:12
#57
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Serbia d1ckson 
Don't sweat it dude. Just get better mens)))
2019-08-10 03:01
I don't know what I expected from hltv but this thread is actually a painful one to go through.
2019-08-09 02:57
Just be happy
2019-08-09 03:03
i genuinely had the same thoughts towards people who said they were 'depressed' till it hit me.
2019-08-10 02:11
+1, There are lots of people who fake it for attention. It de-legitimizes everyone who legitimately suffers.
2019-08-09 03:15
#28
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United States crulix 
k
2019-08-09 03:24
#29
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Finland Smoonah 
2019-08-09 03:29
They're parts of the world where people run from mass genocide, there is too much to appreciate in life especially at a young age brother.
2019-08-09 05:50
not when your own brain is telling itself that it's worth less than the scum that are committing these genocides. when your own brain is telling you that you're the lowest form of life on the planet and that the world would be better off without you for that reason you don't see how good your situation is compared to other people. all you see are the negatives. you don't even process that there could be worse things going on because all that you can feel is the dark fog stuck in your head telling you that everyone would be better off without you there.
2019-08-10 02:11
But why are you telling yourself this? Are you simply attaching too much value to what others say, or are you allowing yourself extended amounts of time to think about a negative topic? We are blessed with an opportunity to live a life full of experiences and if negative emotions stop you from it you shouldn't let them. I realized this and lost like 55pounds and never have loved life more, you're loved and I hope this helps.
2019-08-10 10:16
#92
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United States FarCentrist 
As an example; I used to live with my parents till I was 22, without working or anything. Just sat at home doing nothing because I couldn't bare to cope with the reality that I was a complete fuck up, so I didnt even try to look for a job. Every time I heard my parents getting ready for work in the morning while I was sitting in bed, I would feel an immense amount of guilt. It was mysery. It makes you feel completely worthless.
2019-08-14 10:52
You're loved brother, don't let comparing your situation to others get you down.
2019-08-14 21:26
#42
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United States 1for1discount 
gl
2019-08-10 02:11
i got stuck in a psych ward for 4 months last year because i was so depressed that i'd tried to rope it 5 times. i hated it. but because i was in such a bad headspace i couldn't do anything to fix it, to stop harming myself // attempting suicide. so i wasn't let out.
2019-08-10 02:16
Thanks for the copy pasta
2019-08-10 02:16
Every depression originates from childhood, whether you know it or not.
2019-08-10 02:35
That's actually wrong.
2019-08-10 02:36
It is kinda sad to see so many ignorant people in the Internet Not having any Kind of Idea of psychology.
2019-08-10 02:37
why doesn't those people kill themselves and eradicate these disorders instead of choosing to live and pass it on to their children is beyond me
2019-08-10 02:43
#60
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Europe letqpena 
You're a disorder
2019-08-10 10:19
Ok but I'm just saying facts
2019-08-10 14:32
Hope you die irl
2019-08-10 10:29
? I don't have a mental problem like these sorry kids. And everyone will die, your post was stupid as hell.
2019-08-10 14:31
RIght now if I need to be more specific, idiot
2019-08-13 20:52
#75
2019-08-13 22:35
There's little to no history of severe mental illness in my family. These things can be circumstantial as opposed to genetic.
2019-08-13 16:13
my post was bait, i do know people who have depression, it's a terrible thing to have to deal with. only dumb people don't believe it's real and you shouldn't even bother with those people. they don't want to learn or anything and are just a waste of time.
2019-08-13 17:31
4 month?dude it took me 15 years still countinue
2019-08-10 10:29
#65
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Australia t0rrent 
Such a cringe thread. Who cares what someone jackass on the internet thread? Why be so insecure over the validity of your own experiences?
2019-08-10 10:30
If you actually read the thread, the only reason I made the thread is that the date was the anniversary of me being discharged from psychiatrics so it struck a nerve with me then.
2019-08-13 16:12
#79
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Australia t0rrent 
A specific date is too arbitrary to get triggered over. Try to train your subconscious to focus on all the positive things in life and good things will happen.
2019-08-14 04:17
It's hard for people who have never experienced depression (myself included) to understand how someone could feel the way you did. But to say it doesn't exist is just pure stupidity. I mean, your brain must have been fucked up real bad if you tried to hang yourself 5 times. I'm glad that you're feeling better!
2019-08-10 10:45
#69
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France Tasy_ 
Attempting suicide is such a foolish thing to do, people should learn to cherish their life more, we only got one, wasting it away like that is both selfish and pitiful, get yourself a new reason to live and cheer up, only weaklings finish up their already miserable life. Life is life and it's gonna be harsh anyway because it's part of life, fighting for your struggles if what's making it so much more enjoyable and rewarding at the end of the day when you see the end of the tunnel. If that wasn't for these words, I would have already ended up my yet so miserable life (even though I've never truly felt such thing as depression before). Get yourself new hobbies and fill this void of yours.
2019-08-10 10:53
#74
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United States Tom_D_Cat 
Of course depression is real. It comes in many forms and levels of severity. But you gotta remember, most HLTV users are educated psychiatrists and researchers who know the TRUTH about complex mental illnesses
2019-08-13 16:15
#82
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Europe meramoer1 
And all level 10 global elite millionaires that are 6’9” and jacked
2019-08-14 09:04
how can you be depressed if dj 32k/month
2019-08-13 22:37
"depressed" people are just overly sensitive or attention seekers
2019-08-14 08:57
#83
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Europe meramoer1 
12?
2019-08-14 09:04
Nope, u know they are attention seekers because they will mention that they are "depressed" instantly
2019-08-14 09:09
#85
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Europe meramoer1 
The people who mention it like that yeah But a lot of people are actually depressed
2019-08-14 10:28
Yea i guess ive had bad experiences with these kind of ppl. Seems like a trend that makes people like me think it doesnt exist
2019-08-14 10:35
#81
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Europe meramoer1 
This ain't the right place for this. People will troll you for talking about this. Hltv is too edgy for real discussion
2019-08-14 09:03
#89
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Denmark fnx_2_major 
+1
2019-08-14 10:41
#93
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United States FarCentrist 
+1 lol.
2019-08-14 10:53
bro idc if it's right place or not, if ppl wanna talk shit they can talk shit. was posting w the context of the other guy posting how it's a myth etc on the date
2019-08-14 11:14
#101
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Europe meramoer1 
It's probably not the best place for it. Your wasting your time, most people either already agree with you or don't give a shit.
2019-08-14 19:28
Ofcourse its not a myth, i myself know the feeling when nothing gives you joy and everything you used to like doesnt bring happiness.
2019-08-14 11:00
bruh there are just a bunch of edgy kids who have never had anything bad happen in their life or are too sociopathic to care about it, dont pay attention to them, they will find out some day and then you can only hope they will get the same care you did so they'll get through it as well.
2019-08-14 11:21
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