Yo men, it’s ya boi heatbreaker here. Nah fr, want to talk about a serious issue right now, so only serious answers allowed. I think I might be suffering from depression for a while now, like a year or so and genuinely don’t know what to do.
Everything started when my girlfriend broke up with me in 2018 december. We were together for a long time, like 3years or so and she really grew on me and when we split up I was literally lost without her. I know it sounds cliche but that’s just how it is when you fall in love with somebody and don’t want to let go. Alright after we broke up, we didn’t talk, we were living our lives and stuff, we eventually blocked each other on social media’s to not get memories back, but the thing is I still remember her, I still kinda (I’m saying kinda because I know that the relationship was toxic with major red flags) want to be together with her and I just remember her, like in dreams n shit, I see her and then remember the good times that we spent together. Alright so after like 6months of literally not speaking to each other (even tho we knew what each other are doing, because we share similar friends, my friend group is often with her friend group and I still talk to this day to some of her friends, and getting snapchats and ig stories of her n shit) I decided to hit her up looking for closure (because I didn’t get any when we broke up, everything was literally out of the blues). We talked for like a hour about life, how she’s doing, how I’m doing and stuff and then talked about the relationship and yada yada yada. Then I asked do you still want to be friends, she answered no, because she asked to be friends after the split and I refused, because I couldn’t handle the heart break. That literally crippled me, I was shook, I mean I didn’t even know what I was feeling tbh, angry or chill, I was just lost.
Basically here I am today, I’m doing university and my grades plummeted, my attendance is becoming horse shit, because I literally have no motivation, I’ve been having troubles sleeping, either sleeping too much or not sleeping enough, lost loads of weight, like 10-15 kilos in a year, my eating has suffered and I can’t socialise properly anymore, because I simply don’t know how to, I can’t be arsed to do my assignments because I have literally 0 motivation to do anything. Guys I really need tips what to do, this can’t go on any further, I don’t want to fuck up my life. Please hltv, help a brother in need out. Thank you