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I want to end it all...
SolEk | 
United Kingdom Nik0l4yy 
I’ve been really struggling with betting addiction for the past four years, its only getting worse. And I know I will lose the money but can’t help myself. Now I have a £350 debt and received a letter which threatens legal action unless I pay it/arrange a payment, by the 27th. I also need to pay £180 college fee, if I don’t pay it in the next few weeks I will not be entered for exams. (Final year of A levels) I had a job but I stopped working there. I’m literally broke and have £0. Just want to get it over with and end my life. Nobody will care anyway. I’m a burden on family.
2020-01-24 00:34
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lmao nice fail
2020-01-24 00:35
#2
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Italy ltaly 
I care and so do your family, don't do anything
2020-01-24 00:36
#3
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Germany Neckarstadion 
Nah you're not. Start working again, even at a shitty place for now and things will work out fine
2020-01-24 00:36
#6
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Germany Neckarstadion 
or just bet against ManU, that will work too
2020-01-24 00:37
wtf
2020-01-24 00:46
#86
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Brazil NiceBrazilian 
LOL
2020-01-24 01:54
#100
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Indonesia lumayan 
+1111
2020-01-24 02:34
pretty accurate
2020-01-24 03:46
HAHAHAHAH
2020-01-24 08:01
#140
rain | 
Germany fgnoway 
Fuck you are smart
2020-01-24 14:38
#4
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Poland Grahdens 
So basically you reap what you sow. Why should we care?
2020-01-24 00:37
Because we are no psychopaths
2020-01-24 00:46
#66
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Poland Grahdens 
2020-01-24 01:32
"difficulty with showing remorse or empathy" I think it's fitting
2020-01-24 01:35
#88
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Poland Grahdens 
Why should I show empathy to a lazy fuck who left his job and spent every last penny on betting? Besides he is a baiting fakeflagger (sick London skillz) so instead of pretending to be a white knight on a gaming forum I recommend trying to be reasonable every once in a while
2020-01-24 01:54
You don't know how addiction works and he is not a fakeflagger but an immigrant (hence his name)
2020-01-24 01:59
#110
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Poland Grahdens 
Authored threads of OP: underage I guess your age I want to end it all... I lost everything From £100 to £750 13cm NEW EBOLA top1 rigged What the actual fuck dude. Are germans really that stupid or it's just trash education?
2020-01-24 03:40
#123
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Germany MackyGee 
What do you want to prove with this?
2020-01-24 07:58
What do you want to prove with this?
2020-01-24 08:29
Polak hardboyo projecting self hatred onto others, gj, polandman
2020-01-24 13:53
#137
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Poland Grahdens 
Hypocrite fingol Color me surprised
2020-01-24 14:32
imagine attention whoring on hltv about this
2020-01-24 00:37
+1
2020-01-24 12:34
don't bet
2020-01-24 00:37
#9
rain | 
Thailand mongboon 
No man dont think that of yourself. Your family loves you, and if they ever went through the loss of you, your parents would have a permanent scar that would hurt them more than you hurt yourself. Please dont say that bro, i know the feeling and i have felt the same before. Its hard to go through it, but dont ever give up, thats the number 1 rule you have to follow. Think about your family, i know its really hard when you suffer, but talk to someone about your problems, You need to open up yourself, and dont let these things dwell inside you, while you suffer, it only hurts more and more. Try to talk to your family about it, please. I understand you, i have felt the same pain before. But things get better, just focus on taking it one step at a time. Your life isnt over because you are in debt of that money, you can find a way just dont give up. Life is not about money and suffering, you will live and feel happy, the days will come but i know its long and its really hard. But talk to your closest people, and as i said, dont go around in your life with this inside you and yourself. Let people help you..!
2020-01-24 00:38
#63
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Denmark GenericPilot 
+1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
2020-01-24 01:27
+1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
2020-01-24 02:01
#99
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Russia ArtyoMM 
+1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000
2020-01-24 02:26
If this isn't bait, seek help from your family and close ones, gambling/betting addiction is serious stuff
2020-01-24 00:39
its actually not , people confuse addiction with enjoying to do something i enjoy smoking cigs and weed everyday but i could go months without them , its just why would i,if i enjoy doing it betting is serious stuff only becoz its consequences , and those are owing money its totally an individual problem and blaming addiction on gambling is just pure lying , he bets coz he loves that feeling of adrenalin , so its all about owing money and blaming addiction on it ofc i do think some more serious drugs like heroin are making physical addiction to take more of it coz body cannot function without it
2020-01-24 00:55
#37
NiKo | 
Morocco royflord 
"i smoke everyday but i can stop whenever i want but i don't want to" like that's literally what addicts say
2020-01-24 01:06
smoked almost everyday from june to december now i havent smoked for a month coz i have exams and havent felt an urge to smoke either nt tho
2020-01-24 01:11
#56
NiKo | 
Morocco royflord 
you'll come back stronger hahah
2020-01-24 01:16
come back from where ? what " hahah" are you mentally challenged?
2020-01-24 01:17
#59
NiKo | 
Morocco royflord 
damn already mad
2020-01-24 01:20
imagine being mad about an opinion of a random not so smart hltv user couldn't be me
2020-01-24 01:23
#61
NiKo | 
Morocco royflord 
wow calm down woman
2020-01-24 01:25
and sexist too i see
2020-01-24 01:26
#64
NiKo | 
Morocco royflord 
ok take a deep breath and go buy yourself a pack of cigarettes i think you clearly need it when you get mad on hltv
2020-01-24 01:29
weak comebacks , weak jokes not even worth arguing /closed
2020-01-24 01:30
#67
NiKo | 
Morocco royflord 
/closed so you have time to buy them nice
2020-01-24 01:32
#104
s1mple | 
Algeria bqrri 
bro he's right .. no one knows weed better than a morroccan xd
2020-01-24 02:38
#69
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United States dracxz 
I dont necessarily disagree with everything you said but when you say "blaming addiction on gambling is just pure lying , he bets coz he loves that feeling of adrenalin" ..... that IS addiction... people bet for the feeling of adrenaline, people take drugs for the feelings of whatever that drug does... then their body wants it more because it feels good, then you have addiction. "blaming addiction on gambling" isnt lying, its the textbook definition of addiction to betting, drugs, or anything.
2020-01-24 01:38
well theoretically it is defined as an addiction , but i wrote the whole text explaining how i dont belive in it your statement defines literally everything as an addiction then well i surely love the dopamine i get from eating mcdonalds , but is it an addiction ? i dont belive in that bs
2020-01-24 01:43
#78
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United States dracxz 
I see your point - but you also have balance in your life - its people that dont control or have balance or something to do in life, they love the feeling, have nothing productive to do, etc. and have no balance so they go back to it, creating addiction. I dont disagree with you fully, like I said in the beginning :)
2020-01-24 01:49
#70
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Thailand mongboon 
you do drugs because you love the feeling. Drugs and cigs are a problem too lol, if you cant see that you are fucking addicted lmao. The only way drugs arent a issue if you have control over it, and your life. If drugs control you, its just like betting
2020-01-24 01:40
i have an absolute control and even tho i can go smoking everyday for months , i could go months without smoking too so what is your point i think addiction is just an excuse for loving to to something or genuinely enjoying it
2020-01-24 01:47
#83
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Thailand mongboon 
i dont want to start explaining all this to you cus its late and im tired but if thats the way you think then it means you have never experienced being truly addicted before. Why say something is like that when you never even have tried it, you probaly judge people by how you see the world from your own perspective
2020-01-24 01:52
well i regularly smoke weed and cigs everyday or two,and i hear how people are complaining how addicted they are to smoking and want to stop so i dont actually understand them coz i could go months without smoking and not having a slight urge to smoke so i literally experienced the thing other people classify as an addiction and i totally disagree with them so your comment doesn't really make sense
2020-01-24 01:57
"you probaly judge people by how you see the world from your own perspective" lol , so i should judge people from your perspective or anyone's? everything in this world is subjective , get it into your thick skull asap just noticed that you are not worth arguing actually you are not clever enough for me to waste a time on your child like arguments /closed
2020-01-24 02:09
#121
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Finland Danuzz 
people are different. Gambling sites are made to keep you hooked. that's how they make money. Get your head out of your ass and start thinking rationally
2020-01-24 07:56
#11
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Portugal Zedonp 
Sell ur phone and some clothes so you can afford all that stuff stop crying and mb get a job
2020-01-24 00:40
3fiddy debt isn't even that much lolwut. Im in over 1000 not worried about a thing since it's gonna be ~35k in like 4 years LOL
2020-01-24 00:42
U have a problem to solve, its normal, believe nobody has a perfect life One day u will laugh of this, but so this happens first not do anything stupid Find a way to have the money, sell something, or ask someone to borrow Than u focus to get rid of the addiciont, thats how life goes End your life wont solve problems, and u also bring a lot of saddednes to a plenty of people Breath, clean your mind, medidate look to the sky and honestly ask for help (not talking about god) an insight might show, an idea, new energy to face problems.
2020-01-24 00:45
Go seek professional help. The internet won't help you and if you can't stop by yourself, go to a professional
2020-01-24 00:47
#19
SolEk | 
United Kingdom Nik0l4yy 
I’m ashamed to talk to anyone
2020-01-24 00:52
Don't be. No shame in needing help with addiction. Also these people that you'll talk with deal with that everyday, you are not special in that regard. You're not the only one with problems
2020-01-24 00:53
what actually is a professional help ? Just an opinion of someone who works at mental ward its like saying , im too stupid to think , so ill ask someone else to think for me if you need someones approval it generally means that you are dumb
2020-01-24 01:01
No it is saying I didn't study this topic for literal years and this person might know more about it and can help me. I assume you have never experienced a serious addiction
2020-01-24 01:03
if you need to " study " social skills or understanding psyschology , then i pitty you what do you consider a serious addiction , i think people confuse it with enjoying to do something with betting , its not the addiction that is problem ,its owing money i only belive that hard drugs could give you physical addiction ( heroin etc) you assumed well , i cannot get addicted coz that would be underestimating my own intelligence
2020-01-24 01:09
okay so you're just baiting in a serious topic
2020-01-24 01:11
thats your comeback? low iq spotted
2020-01-24 01:12
#129
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Netherlands Sev1ce 
0/8
2020-01-24 12:32
You're obviously addicted, so get some real help (you won't get any on HLTV) from friends and family to pay your debts and college and a profeessional for your gambling addiction, or stop baiting with such topic.
2020-01-24 00:53
#38
SolEk | 
United Kingdom Nik0l4yy 
Thanks for calling me a baiter, helps a lot
2020-01-24 01:06
"or stop baiting with such topic.", never said you were a baiter. Now you do sound like one. My indvice: go kill youtself.
2020-01-24 01:13
#85
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United States dracxz 
You def read that post wrong - he was on your side telling you to get help with the caveat that it better not be a bait like 90% of hltv
2020-01-24 01:53
#18
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United Kingdom Megamo10 
Go seek professional help to stop your gambling addiction now
2020-01-24 00:49
£350 debt >gambling addiction
2020-01-24 00:52
#22
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United Kingdom Megamo10 
Can quickly turn into 3500gbp and still.. I've never been in a penny of debt in my life
2020-01-24 00:54
£350 >gambling addiction >want to end it all
2020-01-24 00:59
The amount doesn't matter. If you're gambling and suffer from it, you can call it an addiction. Gambling is not a financial problem, but an emotional problem that has financial consequences.
2020-01-24 00:58
#25
2020-01-24 00:59
What's your point, except being sarcastic?
2020-01-24 01:02
it was a shit bait turned half decent because u guys :D he got u mens)
2020-01-24 01:03
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2020-01-24 01:04
#25
2020-01-24 01:40
#61
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2020-01-24 01:47
#65
2020-01-24 01:49
#72
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#55
2020-01-24 01:52
#80
2020-01-24 01:52
#42
2020-01-24 01:54
#84 goodnight mens)))
2020-01-24 01:55
#41 sweet dreams mens)))
2020-01-24 01:58
Yeah time to kill yourself. £350+£180 is like a million, who has that kind of money lol btw stop gambling except for money you expect to lose
2020-01-24 01:01
#33
SolEk | 
United Kingdom Nik0l4yy 
If I don’t pay my exams fee I won’t be entered for exams and my whole life is fucked up
2020-01-24 01:05
Yeah that's true, your whole life is fucked up lol.
2020-01-24 01:05
#44
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United Kingdom Megamo10 
You could always be re entered next summer It wouldn't affect your life that much
2020-01-24 01:08
#50
SolEk | 
United Kingdom Nik0l4yy 
1 more year... I’m already third year college cos I failed GCSE’s
2020-01-24 01:11
#34
LoOna | 
Korea ARBOGA 
don't, hit me up in the pm's. i care about u.
2020-01-24 01:05
#41
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United Kingdom Megamo10 
Unexpected
2020-01-24 01:08
Bro. Don't do it... The most common reason people commit suicide is because of shame, luckily most of these 'threats' are just a cry for help, but you do need it, 'cus you're considering doing it out of shame. You have no idea of the pain it leaves your family if you are no longer there. I don't know how hard it is to stop gambling, but you have to admit to your parents, siblings, uncle/aunt or whomever you can trust you have a problem. You must quit, the best way is cold turkey, just don't do it anymore, I'm not saying it's simple, but it is the best solution. Good luck and don't do anything stupid.
2020-01-24 01:06
#42
SolEk | 
United Kingdom Nik0l4yy 
I don’t have open conversations with anyone. I isolated myself from people and thats why I make these threads.
2020-01-24 01:09
Then you probably don't realize you are not a burden on your family. But you have to open up and admit this problem to your parents or somebody at all, surely there is someone you can turn to, and if not you should look up help for your problems because this is not good at all.
2020-01-24 01:11
#39
shrek | 
United States 69420 
Your mom would be sad. Your dog wouldn't know where you went :(
2020-01-24 01:07
#119
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Finland Teukkasd 
+1
2020-01-24 07:53
#132
shrek | 
United States 69420 
Facts
2020-01-24 13:45
2.6/8
2020-01-24 01:07
#43
flusha | 
Finland MEZi 
400€ debt and thinking about ending it all ajhahahah are u fucking pussy or what holy shit
2020-01-24 01:08
#46
SolEk | 
United Kingdom Nik0l4yy 
its not about debt but whatever
2020-01-24 01:09
#47
flusha | 
Finland MEZi 
bro do what u want when u die nothing matters just try to have some fun no point killing yourself
2020-01-24 01:10
if all the shitposters & baiters had followed your example maybe this place would be actually half decent. how about you gtfo so at the very least we get 1 shitposter less?
2020-01-24 01:12
#55
SolEk | 
United Kingdom Nik0l4yy 
Why bother writing this
2020-01-24 01:13
an appeal to your conscience
2020-01-24 01:16
#89
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Poland Grahdens 
+1
2020-01-24 01:54
no
2020-01-24 01:40
fuck yeah i have the same problem man i am unemployed rn and still i have lost around 4k$ past 2 months and still i didint managed to quit i keep losing money
2020-01-24 01:43
Ur worth more than anything in the world m8. Hopefully you will get better. Never ever think the thought of ending it. It is never the way to go.
2020-01-24 02:07
£350...... nice b8
2020-01-24 02:11
keep ur head up , brighter days ahead awaiting !
2020-01-24 02:36
Lmao thats nothing. My older brother has gambling addiction and like 10 thousand debt. Lost his credit long time ago and has basically been unemployed for years.
2020-01-24 02:37
I will play with you if you come to Zeeland! Best mens))) Best womens))) Best food Best beaches
2020-01-24 02:38
Talk to your parents and be honnest with them, about your gambling addiction , no shame about it. Tell them why you need the money and look for a part time job, many out there for college students, you'll pay them back once you have the money. Also find a hobby, something that costs little money but takes a good amount of time, whenever you feel like gambling go do something actually usefull or productive, you're in college so go study.
2020-01-24 02:45
#106
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North America 007DBR9 
cool story mens
2020-01-24 02:45
#107
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Brazil blankenstein 
I know it sounds generic, but surely people around you care about you, just don't lose hope.
2020-01-24 02:52
Who cares if they're threatening legal action , don't pay Pay the exams fee Do you really think they're going to pay a lawyer to take you to court over such a small amount?
2020-01-24 02:53
don't have money for exams either
2020-01-24 02:56
I'm sorry mate. I have been paying my school $880 a month for the past few months so I'm broke too I hope you can figure something out. Maybe even just some temporary work or odd jobs to get the 180
2020-01-24 05:25
u can suck for 50
2020-01-24 05:30
#114
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Mongolia k0ng0 
Don't take your life man. Things will always get better if you go through your struggling Times. Struggle is what eventually leads to hapiness. Take a job to pay for exams. Fuck the rest for now. Take One thing a time and ban yourself from all of the betting sites. Call the company that you owe money or the people you owe and tell them you can't pay right now, and tell them the truth why. It's not that big of an amount. When you have studied enough and get exams and you get a nicer job you will eventually find a girlfriend and your debt will be long forgotten and your life will be good. You just need to get through the struggle.
2020-01-24 05:36
Do it, plenty of people in the world. One useless guy wont make a difference.
2020-01-24 05:50
It’s a small debt dude , don’t panic , you are not the first ... chill out ,
2020-01-24 07:39
#136
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Lithuania Whomens 
Flag really analyzes
2020-01-24 14:03
#117
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Bulgaria kr9ptonn 
go bet
2020-01-24 07:40
#118
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Finland Teukkasd 
i feel u bro im addicted to gambling too.. i dont have debt tho but everyday i bet 100-250euros
2020-01-24 07:52
Keep heads high. Work towards your dream. Even if that dream is to stop gambling, it just takes time. If you really want to do something you have to work towards it :D
2020-01-24 07:54
#122
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Germany felixlulz 
okay pussy, stfu really wish i had your problems lmao
2020-01-24 07:58
just bet on mad lions today
2020-01-24 07:59
#126
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Norway Bigg1 
go back to work. (?) how hard is that?
2020-01-24 08:03
Hope this isn't bait, but don't do it! Try to find a job and stop your studies, and when you have earned all the required money, go back to college! (Or i don't know if you wanna go back there but still, don't end your life man. So many are gonna miss you)
2020-01-24 08:07
Attention whore spotted
2020-01-24 12:37
#133
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Latvia tibr0 
lmao say mby this to your family not this site lmao stop depresing others bot
2020-01-24 13:46
#134
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Denmark Bal0 
JUST DO IT
2020-01-24 13:48
#138
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Croatia feelsbadmane 
dont bet if u dont have banroll for it simple i also bet 10 times a day but im always rolled for it,if u have lets say 1000$ bankroll never put more than 10-20$ on a bet
2020-01-24 14:35
all debts that are less than 20k+ are managable
2020-01-24 14:37
#141
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Denmark Howlite 
ask parents for money pay back later. pls dont kill yourself
2020-01-24 14:39
#142
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Germany Jixxahh_CS 
then do it you fucking pussy, nobody cares about your life, everyone else has problems aswell kid
2020-01-24 14:45
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