I genuinely enjoy eating tasty food, it somehow makes me feel better and my mood rises up for some reason
But the food I like is often unhealthy and highly caloric
I used to be depressed all the time and I would always put tons of unhealthy foods in myself and watch movies/TV series, trying to escape from this world. It really made me forget about all the problems and feel better for a while
Eventually It came to the point when I weighted over 157kg and then I seriously decided it’s time to change something.
Now a lot of time has passed and I drastically restrict myself and stay on constant calories deficit diet.
Currently my weigh consists of 99kg (which is a great result and achievement for myself) but sometimes I still CRAVE sweets or burgers or pizza or something else. Especially in moments when I’m extremely sad I just can’t resist myself and could go buy everything I’m fond of (in terms of food) and eat it all until I’m literally full and can’t possibly eat anymore.
And deep down I realize it’s bad and unhealthy and would fuck up my diet and all the effort but I was putting in, but I still fucking do it. Why?
lol i have it worse
i binged out twice a week on weekends(i cant help it)... however on Monday i fast like 20 hours to make up for it. i train and lift and run if that helps.. basically, just dont beat yourself up and learn how to pick up yourself. i mean, its better to have discipline than none. go for it bro, were gonna make it
Look up about dophamine hormone. All the addictions including food and computer games are coming from there. Basically you're gonna crave your addiction object until you heal your dophamine receptors. Cuz when your receptors are insensitive (due to developed dophamine resistance) you can't fulfill your dophamine norm with usual activities like walking or exercising for example. For drug addicts usual activities like hobbies give 100-1000 times less dophamine so that is not surprisin they chose drugs. The thing is that healing those receptors takes a lot of discipline which most of us dont have. Usually for addictions like food you need to restrict yourself for about 1-2 months, for drugs it can take years or even decades. And if during this period you make a mistake - your dophamine healing is basically reset and you have to start again. There are lots of videos regarding dophamine on youtube. I really advice you to study this subject. Here are few examples: