Smoking weed daily can mean vaping a 0.05g dose 1x per day. Extreme example, sure, but yeah.
"Comforting haze...nothing positive, drowning out emotions, just a waste", I mean, this narrative is emotionally loaded and I understand, I've been in that place where literally any more you smoke feels exactly like a waste, and you still smoke more.
I could explain how the ways I grew up in my surroundings (family, school, culture) have made me who I am and why I choose to do and advocate what I do. I certainly appreciate the advice, you should talk and/or hang out with me for a few days/weeks to really get a good picture of how my life normally proceeds. I see your flag is dutch, and I've been to Amsterdam around 7 times now...the fact we were both born into wealthy cultures gives us a lot of opportunity to live very liberally. I do not subscribe to traditional lifestyles and have very serious issues with authority figures. Only now that I'm 30+ years old, do I realize how stupid some of my views have been, and still are.
I wish I had listened to some wiser people when I was younger, but I can't help what was and what is. It's never too late to start living instead of dying, however. I got married some months ago and me and my wife are expecting our first baby. I share this not out of pride, but just to give you some picture of what's going on.
Take care man, bless.