you sound like typical moscovite -speaking vatny citizen of Ukraine, who as a rule strongly brainwashed by moscovite and also local pro-moscovite (5th column) media for many years. Probably you learned that anti-Ukrainian mood yet from ur chilhood, formn parents, schools teachers, some soviet and post soviet movies, tv series - no wonder, for moscovite propaganda was and still huge (though now less a bit), peoplehave been brainwashing in anti-Ukrainian way massively on all possible levels - from everyday life routine to "high ideals". In school you and your parrents (me and mine too), grandpas etc studied completely perverted falsse hisroty of Ukraine and so called "russia".
So even now for many citizens of Ukraine it`s hard to accept truth, they think it`s kinda some propaganda etc. This is how strong post-colonial syndrome, post-genocide trauma and aslo Stocholm syndrome strong is.
True patriots are true nationalists.