This is gonna be a long post, so bear with me if you have some spare time.
So I've finally gathered the courage and decided to make a post including pictures of myself to find out what people actually think about my appearance.
Would you say I look fat? Here’s some recent photos - imgur.com/a/CjJynWE
(would appreciate an honest answer) My current weight is ~ 97kg - imgur.com/2JYJKw9.jpg
I’ve significantly reduced my weight over the last 2 years but I’m still not satisfied and think it’s not enough. Initially I used to be extremely obese and weighed over 152kg - imgur.com/Z6ovbxG
Luckily enough, my height is also quite high (197cm) so it didn’t look THAT terrible back then. Here’s a scuffed pic of me when I was 152kg - imgur.com/5dYyQlm.jpg
and some old pic as well - imgur.com/fwkISw6.jpg
I personally think I‘m still fat (or at least overweight) till this day, but people around me keep telling me that I don’t need to lose any more weight (which I frankly think is complete bullshit)
I’m gonna share some intermediate results of the long and exhausting process below:
145kg - imgur.com/TNIdTbu
I looked like this - i.imgur.com/sc3ksO6.jpg
135kg - imgur.com/6SfqkyL
I looked like this - imgur.com/kX2Rdb4.jpg
125kg - imgur.com/adnjoUG
I looked like this - i.imgur.com/HJl5Jd6.jpg
120kg - imgur.com/2TvZxfv
I looked like this - imgur.com/a/vgnK1bu
115kg - imgur.com/lKRHv7G
I looked like this - imgur.com/a/lDbbnAv
110kg - imgur.com/a/M9IfsOm
I looked like this - imgur.com/a/I5z4CWW
(actually some of the greatest memories I have from Moscow)
105kg - imgur.com/At246t4
I looked like this - imgur.com/a/S4NXDjd
100kg - imgur.com/mldPcvS
I looked like this - imgur.com/a/f1z4O2o
To be honest I don't even see much difference between 120kg and 97kg myself, which is kinda weird. Sometimes my face looks less bloated and sometimes opposite. I kept losing weight but I didn't notice any improvements in the appearance itself, which is disappointing
My main goal was to reach 100kg and I thought I would already look decent (cuz my height is almost 2M) but l don't like myself yet. Now I'm aiming for 95kg and then 90 or less if I still won't be satisfied, and then I can totally focus on gaining muscle mass.
I'm actually shy IRL and don't have many friends and the main issue for me has always been my weight, I was ashamed of my body. I never had enough self-confidence, I never posted any photos online until this moment. I would always prefer sitting home at my PC or watching Netflix alone, rather than going out.
I've had a lot of struggles and downfalls but I finally overcame myself and found the motivation to actually start losing weight because I wanted to change something in my life. It hasn't been easy so far, and in fact this whole process requires incredible patience and self-restriction. I'm sort of proud of myself, ngl. My life overall has been improving but still a long way to go in order to reach what I want, in all aspects.
I know a lot of obese people don't believe in themselves and don't think it's possible to lose weight and often just give up effortlessly (and I was one of them). So hopefully this post might inspire someone. Thanks for reading if you did!