I understand You fully. Tbh, back then I bought my first apartment (no loans or anything) and I had like 500$ on my bank account so I couldn't even think about renovation of my kitchen so my kitchen was basicly 4 walls, stove and some dirty table.
After Katowice I put every penny to renovate my kitchen and my apartment was finally ready.
I have a friend tho who was betting hard on CSGOLounnge. He won like 100k $, he was partying for 2 weeks and then he lost 80k. He tried to win some with his final 10k, lost everything again.
I don't see him that much anymore but I heard that he's so deep in gambling that he owes like 100k $ to some bad people and btw, 100k$ in Poland is 400k of Polish currency. I bought my apartment for 400k -.-