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I hate my life
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Germany Chockzz 
all things doing wrong Im so fckin depressive I cant do anything, no one likes me, all my "friends" arent real friends and Im living w my crazy grandma JUST WHY?? What did I wrong? I just want sleep and never wakeup
2020-05-28 11:02
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#1
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Denmark dyinbyran 
Sorry to add more sadness but hltv.org/news/29696/big-top-dreamhack-ma.. Also play more games if you feel lonely bro it always helps lol
2020-05-28 11:04
#2
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Lithuania I_eat_kebabs 
Men everything will be alright, im kinda going through the same
2020-05-28 11:03
#106
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Europe XXXPAK1 
Yeah same problem. Go find a "good" job and get a GF. She will be your world
2020-05-28 12:51
My dog's name is comet she is very cute :)
2020-05-28 11:04
Mine is called "google"
2020-05-28 11:05
I ate my dog
2020-05-28 12:01
same
2020-05-28 12:03
fakeflag spotted
2020-05-28 12:59
#117
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Russia NorthRussian 
NT North Korea
2020-05-28 13:26
You have to realize that to change your surroundings you have to grow as a person. Pain is temporary. Work towards better education, find a job, put yourself in situations to meet new people that aren't shitty. Find something that makes you fulfilled. You can't do all of this in a short time, but that's not how humans are. You have to work to get a better life but only you can do it. It's worth it.
2020-05-28 11:06
#6
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Germany Chockzz 
Thanks man
2020-05-28 11:06
you can do it mens)) anyone can. Oh and start working out.
2020-05-28 11:09
Don't listen to this brainwashed kid
2020-05-28 11:59
+1
2020-05-28 12:03
okay doomer enjoy your life of sorrow
2020-05-28 12:42
Go somewhere else and spread your bullshit
2020-05-28 11:59
#130
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African Union master kek 
I agree with you
2020-05-28 20:42
#7
s1mple | 
Brazil s1mg 
haram
2020-05-28 11:07
i have the same life do what i do: Watch eSports and play games
2020-05-28 11:07
Same
2020-05-28 11:28
Just go to bang some girls. It's gonna be OKAY.
2020-05-28 11:08
Thats not what will make u happy long term lmao
2020-05-28 13:39
#15
KSCERATO | 
Brazil 1930 
try reading a book about subjects that would help you dealing with your anxiety and depression
2020-05-28 11:09
at least you live in 1st world.be happy about it.
2020-05-28 11:09
stop being so edgy, ur probably not even 20 years old yet and ur wasting ur time living for someone else rather than urself. depression is mostly just a sign that the current way of life is not workin, so reflect upon it and find out what makes u unhappy. cuz if u look around this world is amazing, the fact that nothing matters and ur existence is pointless, makes it the best experience u ever had and nothing u do will matter at the end.
2020-05-28 11:11
#51
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Germany Chockzz 
Thanks my friend!!!
2020-05-28 11:44
" cuz if u look around this world is amazing, the fact that nothing matters and ur existence is pointless, makes it the best experience u ever had and nothing u do will matter at the end" thissssssssss
2020-05-28 11:49
perhaps this is true if your parents are so rich you never have to work lol
2020-05-28 12:05
well if you work from 6am to 8pm in a warehouse no wonder youre depressive
2020-05-28 12:11
that quote is still bullshit, sounds good but bullshit
2020-05-28 12:15
how is it different from rich parents? when ur dead ur equal with everyone, and nothing u ever achieved or bought will have any value at the end, it will be like u never existed. stop acting like u live twice.
2020-05-28 12:47
easier to enjoy life when you dont have to stress about anything
2020-05-28 12:48
You make up stress yourself, once you come to realisation that everything you do is pointless, you will just do the things you wanna do. and some ppl are fine with earning 1-2k a month, when its with something they enjoy. as soon u have enough money to fill in your desires, ur good for life, the society way of life, is just to fuel capitalism. everyone has his own opinion, and i would be a food trying to change it, so just do what u feel is right
2020-05-28 12:51
again, it sounds good but life doesn't work like that. if i really wanna enjoy life i have to study (a lot), have to find a good work, maybe get a relationship here and there, family, kids later, list goes on. and of course pray to god that I stay somewhat healthy during this
2020-05-28 12:56
#124
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Poland subconsious 
lmao what a sheep
2020-05-28 13:56
im not saying i live my life like this but this is the truth how is the hippie lifestyle working out for you?
2020-05-28 14:04
#127
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Poland subconsious 
perfect, just chillin
2020-05-28 14:23
i hate you too
2020-05-28 11:10
#20
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Russia VelsVivard 
You're in the position to change it if it really grows on you. It's possible. I had such times too but it's all behind now.
2020-05-28 11:11
#21
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Finland Homeless775 
You need to set goals and do something with your life, if you can’t think of any good goals for yourself then start doing something good to others you will feel better, you gotta start somewhere
2020-05-28 11:12
#22
United States hhkb 
just be yourself :^)
2020-05-28 11:11
Friends and family are not the most important thing in your life. Always rely on yourself and never look for social approval.
2020-05-28 11:12
#26
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Russia BoumerRU 
i'm so sorry you feel like that... everything will be alright man
2020-05-28 11:13
i mean i respect u being honest but i don't know how anyone can be depressed in the 21st century in the western world, ur literally handed everything on a silver platter, u have every right to do anything u want, even more in young age. stop living for society, live for urself.
2020-05-28 11:15
#31
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Venezuela Jorge_ 
lol this is good copypasta
2020-05-28 11:20
+1 Angelo Merte brain best brain
2020-05-28 11:22
#36
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Portugal NabasKi 
Precisely why there's depression, you don't really have to fight for anything.
2020-05-28 11:23
bullshit. if we lived in this world without social media or other shit, everyone would be the happiest motherfucker.
2020-05-28 11:25
#40
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Portugal NabasKi 
That's probably true.
2020-05-28 11:28
Just because someone lives in a rich country doesn't mean a person can't feel like shit or feel depressed. But let me tell you one thing, the worst thing that you can do in this life is tell yourself how bad everything is, it creates self pity and that's really the worst thing you can do to yourself. Tell yourself that you're a fucking MAN and that you will NOT feel sorry for yourself. Go out and get a job for a couple years, save some money and try figuring out what to do with your life (I know it's difficult), I've been there trust me.. No gf or friends, no car, no work, addictions and still living with my parents and having ZERO self esteem. I'm still struggling in day 2 day life but I'm never going back to where I once was, two steps forward one step back, ups and downs that's life. If I can do it so can you.
2020-05-28 11:32
#60
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Germany Chockzz 
Thanks guy
2020-05-28 11:50
No problem bro, you are better then the situation you're currently in. I 100% believe in you
2020-05-28 12:01
+1...only ppl with lot of empathy or ppl who went through some situation like that can understand....some rich smugs that feel like everythings supernice wont understand...
2020-05-28 13:41
#29
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Russia Praeter 
mate, at least you live in a decent country
2020-05-28 11:18
Join army
2020-05-28 11:20
me too
2020-05-28 11:21
just go to the gym and eat healthy and ur serotonin receptors will work again.
2020-05-28 11:23
i felt this shit like 4 years in a row, just do something , find the reason to wake up and do this. Just find some missions in your life and try to get it done , like in video games.
2020-05-28 11:25
#41
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Sri Lanka kvezee 
u are living in germany omg some people dream to live there and some weere born in africa and dont have anything
2020-05-28 11:28
humans are not made for this enviroment and the manipulation and the fear mongering of the media, makes the young kids fear for their future, but in reality. everything is just as fine as it always was. live 1 year without any media content and u will think, ur in heaven.
2020-05-28 11:29
dont be like that bro, you never know what comes next for you... I'm 28 atm been there many times, life is all about cycles, dont worry, get your shit together go do stuff you like and fuck everyone!! go for a spiritual path or something like that if u are depressed, try to stay away from drugs and alcohol, and good luck, if u need someone to talk I'm here bro. #HLTVarmy #brotherhood
2020-05-28 11:29
#56
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Germany Chockzz 
thanks!! You'll are amazing peaple
2020-05-28 11:47
Every time I see a depressed person I give the same quote my grandpa always said to me in exactly this way "imagine your parents boned 2 hours later, you would not have won the sperm race, you would not be here to experience all this amazing things, and lets be honest if we look from the PLANET EARTH perspective, it's amazingly beautiful here"
2020-05-28 11:31
#49
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Croatia nAmeless69 
I think i read that somewhere be4, probably was you. Yeah, nice quote from your grandpa
2020-05-28 11:36
The problem with being depressed though is that every interaction or any trigger (visual, communication or whatever) is perceived as negative. I wish it was as easy as saying look how beautiful everything is but that's unfortunately not how the depressed person thinks about it, their brain chemicals work different in a depressed state.
2020-05-28 11:42
ye but lets be honest, 90% of the kids claiming to be depressed nowadays are just bipolar or ptsd, like a real depressiv person that has damaged dopamin/serotinin receptors, is really rare. mayb some have dopamin resistance due to social media bursting them, but for the rest im sure its just bipolar disorder.
2020-05-28 11:47
I agree with you that being depressed is over diagnosed. A lot of young adults just have to much self pity like I said in a earlier post. That's the society we live in today, people think others have it better then them or look better or have more friends because of social media and social pressure and as a result they feel `depressed´ when in reality it's just low self esteem and having a twisted view of reality.
2020-05-28 11:55
#54
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Germany Chockzz 
thanks!
2020-05-28 11:46
#47
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Russia HikZ 
just kys and no problems :)
2020-05-28 11:32
#48
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Croatia nAmeless69 
You’ll be suprised how many people here are in the similar boat as you (myself included), things will get better.. hopefully
2020-05-28 11:36
#55
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Germany Chockzz 
Ok man I will be strong, lets win this shit
2020-05-28 11:47
#57
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Russia Ceo_of_navi 
Start a new life in a new country and never com back))
2020-05-28 11:48
reflect on your life and remove anything that doesnt help u. like fake friends, fake relationships, instagram accounts that let u believe ur worth less.
2020-05-28 11:48
#61
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Sweden RTX_2080_TI 
Loser.
2020-05-28 11:51
lemme guess, ur feeling like a worthless piece of shit urself and therefor look for distractio, and for that ur trying to trigger another persons emotions? boya gotcha.
2020-05-28 11:54
#76
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Sweden RTX_2080_TI 
You're wrong, I live a perfect life and I love everything about it. Losers need to realize that they are a failure in real life and that they need to change their life.
2020-05-28 12:02
if u would live a perfect life, u would not be on hltv saying shit like that. im 100% sure, u'r just a failure and now projecting it onto other people.
2020-05-28 12:04
#85
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Sweden RTX_2080_TI 
Why can't I enjoy video games and live a good life at the same time ? You're spreading a lot of nonsense and negativity.
2020-05-28 12:05
no i dont care if u here to play video games or talk video games but u come into a thread and call a person that has already a hard time, sounding slightly suicidal a loser? this is just the prove that u'r a failure in our system to me. and for this to happen, u have to be a some kind of person, that is not happy with himself too.
2020-05-28 12:16
+1 that's not cool, no matter what.
2020-05-28 12:19
#96
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Sweden RTX_2080_TI 
You can think whatever you want want if it makes you feel better, losers need to be put down on their place to where they belong, no respect for low life people, they did this to themselves. Done talking here.
2020-05-28 12:25
u just prove his point more and more and i wish u all the best to cope with ur traumas.
2020-05-28 12:43
#62
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United States zovint 
Go try to learn a new hobby or find something to be passionate about. im not sure if trying to stop cooming helps, but you can try, its hard but idk if you do. :) dont try to compare yourself to others that will make you feel down such as success and where you are as a person gl mens
2020-05-28 11:51
#67
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Germany Chockzz 
:) ok thanks my friend
2020-05-28 11:55
1-800-273-8255
2020-05-28 11:54
>all things doing wrong; I cant do anything >JUST WHY?? What did I wrong? start using your head. That's all you need, in order to start making incremental improvements that will stack over time.
2020-05-28 11:56
#69
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Ukraine workspree 
F
2020-05-28 11:57
Then change the way you live.
2020-05-28 12:00
a flawless person would be boring, in the end of the days, the flaws are what makes us human. whats wrong with not being able to get anything done?
2020-05-28 12:00
#77
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Germany Enlay 
You can do it mein Freund :( life has its ups and downs :)
2020-05-28 12:02
#82
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Germany Chockzz 
danke!
2020-05-28 12:05
Give up on people. Force yourself to become socialy independant. Do not try to follow the tracks of others. Be comfortable with who you are. Good luck. Also, make sure to check for any sort of deficiencies and/or hormonal dysfunctions.
2020-05-28 12:04
stop with the self pity and stop that i am the victim mentality, this will cure alot of u'r problems.
2020-05-28 12:05
I know that you're trolling, though it is for one thing that kids in Africa are fucking dying of starvation and multiple diseases and yet we're the ones complaining. Too many people nowadays complain of depression, when really, most of them are just being weak and/or faking it for attention on social media. It's disgusting and it only worsens the situation for those who are actually suffering with the condition, since they get overshadowed by these loud-mouthed assholes.
2020-05-28 12:11
it's not my fault, my country exploits Africa for their opioids and uses it as a testing ground for diseases.
2020-05-28 12:20
I was in the exact same situation as you, the one thing that I found out was the worst thing was how I drowned in self pity. I always said "Why am I so unlucky life hates me buuhuu" and never looked at myself and thought what I could do to make my life better, and I am sure there always is a path, it might be very very hard to walk down that path but everything is better than being suicidal, literally having your brain in a constant conflict. This obviously doenst work for everybody, but as soon as I tackled my flaws without being sad about them my life went 1000 times better. Of course I still felt like shit for a long long time and it isnt fully gone but I am no longer in the same mindset as you are and I think thats exactly what you need right now
2020-05-28 12:10
Someone once told me.. Are you really depressed or depressed about your situation, if you had no work, no money, no woman, no friends, no driver license, a lot of addictions ofcourse you're feeling like shit. But what I'm trying to say is that's not depression, that's you not listening to yourself and making bad choices and that's fixable with some fucking willpower and determination. GL
2020-05-28 12:15
Try drugs and hookers)
2020-05-28 12:16
I honestly don't have anything I could say to you that would be of value, so I'll just say hang in there it'll get better <3
2020-05-28 12:47
Do your sports, man.
2020-05-28 12:54
#110
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Israel tomnduck 
life is hard you either get used to it or give up its sad but its true
2020-05-28 12:57
expected from german
2020-05-28 13:21
Do something that's fun for you , be determined , try as hard as you can to get out of this shitty position. "I just want sleep and never wakeup" please don't ever think like that , it will only make you more miserable.
2020-05-28 13:25
I recommend: Start going to the gym Find a job Find a girl Thanks, that's all to attain the happiness
2020-05-28 13:25
Shit days happens also me cant handle my job duties but I hope all will normalize soon. Wish you good days too!
2020-05-28 13:28
you will be ok friend)))
2020-05-28 13:29
#126
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World mjuddi 
hang in there dude, things will get better :)
2020-05-28 14:11
#128
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Kazakhstan aqua4kz 
omg this is so pathetic for a man. yeah u can be depressed, yeah u can be dead inside, but please don't show it to others. tell about ur problems to psychiatrician or other specialists, but please don't involve others, men should be better than this.
2020-05-28 14:26
+1 Same, keep strong bro
2020-05-28 15:16
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