I used to watch Reckful for a little bit, specifically when he was in Japan with SodaPoppin, comedy gold. It was clear for me he and Soda are both very nice people, genuinely nice people. Both with their flaws, but both harmless and hilarious imo.
When he left there and I continued watching his "personal" streams, I always thought he came across, sometimes, as a little over emotional, in some cases, where he'd start to cry and I thought his laugh, sometimes, felt "forced". I think I knew he said he had bipolar disorder, and I've, at that time, started to grow weary of people faking shit online to get more online followers. So I thought he was faking it, which made me uncomfortable and so I unfollowed and basically didn't see him for years (except on special occasions when he was doing some actually funny shit again. Like I think he went to Disney world or Disney land or smth at some point, that was funny, I liked that stream.)
But now this all came out, I understand what was really going on, and I feel bad. I liked the guy, a lot. And I watched some of his shit back, today, and he's actually pretty smart too, from what I can tell.
Specifically the 2 videos I linked, I watched, but also in the past, some of his "solo" stream u know.
Anyway, I too wanted to have said that. I feel.... emotional? Though not in a crying sense, just in a sort of, "my chest feel a bit tighter than usual" kinda way. I feel like typing this might have helped, not as a "coping mechanism" per say, I don't think I need that. Just another sort of release, I guess.
I now better understand what bipolar disorder is really like. And I shouldn't be too skeptical when people express their actual mental illnesses.