I met up with a couple of my friends and socialised for the first time in 8 months. We went for a walk up and across a mountain. It started out with them talking about girls, sex, gfs etc. It was awkward and I was uncomfortable because I did not want to think about that and I could not contribute anything to the conversation. After 10mins they ran out of things to say regarding that.
One of them dared me to run up a tall hill and I rose to the challenge. I ran up it and it was very difficult. There were steps and it was a winding path that made it hard to not fall over. I reached the top and for a minute, I felt invincible.
Then I got really tired. Incredibly out of breath. I couldn't get enough oxygen. My chest felt tight. I collapsed and was lying face down on rocks and grass. It was so painful. I blacked out and felt like I was dying. I remember saying to myself out loud "pain... endless pain". It was a weird sensation. Randoms just ignored me and walked past. My friends caught up and reach me. I was on the ground for 10mins maybe and then ate and drank. It was probably because I had not eaten at all so far. Pretty silly IK.
After I recovered, I felt odd as if I was invincible and could do anything. I was acting uncharacteristically confident. No social anxiety. I was talking loudly and confident. I think I had some kind of high from lack of oxygen.
We saw some great views and then walked back to where I parked the car. We went to a cafe and I went to the toilet. As I walked to the table where my friends were sitting, I noticed this very pretty blonde girl staring at me. I glanced at her and looked away. I sat down with them, still felt her looking and looked back to see her still looking at me. I was wearing a baseball cap as my hair is a bit too short IMO and also it covers a bit of acne on my forehead. I might wear it more often.
Overall a good day. Will be another several months wait for the next one.
-met up with friends for the 1st time in 8 months
- they started talking about girls and I didn't like that/felt awkward
- I ran up a steep tall hill and fainted, felt like I was dying lol
- felt high afterwards and really confident
- a very nice blonde girl was staring at me
it'S pretty kewl what happens when u push ur body to the limit, u realize its not even the limit and u can gooooo on and on. like for me running till i puke, was really awesome feeling. puke ur guts out go home recharge with nice food. and relax.