Found out the love of my life turned into a pervert whore. Has been fucking so many countless guys that she cannot even tell a number, after she broke up with me. I would never expect that from her. I would never in my life think that such a caring, beautiful, lovely sweet girl would turn out to be a worthless whore you don't even need to pay. And she even says he sees no problem in this. I have put my faith on her, I trusted her, what she told me she felt, to end up like this. Having your beliefs broken is not very pleasant. I can't imagine what type of shit she has been doing. I still remember when she told me she used to get sick in the stomach just from thinking about me with someone else. And what was the final result? I really believed with all my soul that she would never do this. Girls have it way too easy in this topic, way too easy. Funny because she used to say she would never trust a guy because she think no guy has fidelity. She told me she gained a bit of confidencce after a guy refused to have sex with her because he had a gf. EXTRA! EXTRA! Girl that has fucked so many guys she cannot even count thinks men cannot be trusted! EXTRA EXTRA!
Really dude? I thought she was good and would never do this... I really thought. To make things worse, I've been in love with her, completely, totally, for the past 6 years. This feeling seemingly will never go away, because I think she is THE one, but I am not the same for her anymore. So knowing the truth has broken me to unprecedented levels. I know I will never trust anyone again. I used to say I am the most bitter person in existence... and now? I guess I even more bitter now. I am made of disappointments, regrets, bitterness. I don't know what I have done to deserve any this, my friend, I don't know. Am I paying for something from another life? Is this some kind of punishment? Why does the universe bring to people together and then tear them apart like that? Am I really THAT fucking unlucky? Am I so much of a fucking idiot to deserve this? I waited for her for so long... and she was out there living life fucking god knows how many people. I've never felt so humiliated in my life, I've never felt so low and deluded. With her looks, she can have whoever she wants, she's gorgeous. I lost the race, badly. Never let people get to your life, never. The closer people are and the more you care, the more you will get disappointed at a point. Nobody can disappoint you as much as those you love the most. Learned it the hard way, 2 times. This has destroyed any confidence and any trust I've had with everyone. Girls are all the same dude, all trash, they are the same whore in different bodies. It is just unimaginable to think that such a sweet girl would be something like this. Well, what can I do? She has every circumstance in her favor, I do not. I will never in my life be getting into a relationship again, I can't, I simply can't. It ends at some point and I don't want to go through this and get disappointed again. Hard to imagine a girl I love so much and treated so well, put her at the top everytime, would do something like this. I can't imagine such a good person being a low whore and fucking with random people. I am always the joke dude, always. Is this some fucking joke? What did I do all my life to have this type of stuff happen to me? It feels I simply am here to feel like shit everyday. I don't know what to say anymore.