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Aight mens)) it's time to come clean about something few will car about, but maybe a few of the polish scammers and russian cheaters that make up 100% of this forum will.
Your boy has been clinically depressed for a few years now. Seen most therapists under the sun, and tried different meds to assist in getting my shit together. There have been ups, and many fucking downs, and I've racing towards a new low these past couple weeks.
Long story short, CS is one of the only things which today keeps me going. Gives me something to look forwards to and goals to reach that aren't too abstract. I know how pathetic it sounds but knowing I've been helpful to my premade, and the collective cheer of when a dumb strat goes right gets my serotonin flowing like nothing else.
Are there any other strugglers out there who've found something special in the game? Perhaps the lads which pushed past the unhealthy relationship to CS and properly dealt with their problems? Anyone's welcome lol, we're all fucking bored anyways.
TL;DR: sad shit clicks heads to feel happy and is asking for insight/advice/shared experience
Mens just keep play till u become happy menss
When i get home from a long stressful day, nothing better to squad up with the boys and play a chill game of cs
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imagine going outside lol
Easy to say but try to find goals in real life not in computer games.
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bro I literary play CS and watch Youtube during it , online school is the best thing to happen in 2020
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im in my last year of highschool now
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I honestly dont care about grades at all . i only care about 2 subjects , the rest i just try my minimum effort so I can take the exams even with a low grade . Will do my best to succeed in my own way and later laugh in the face of this kids who lost their life getting 10s in everything
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we can play mm together men))) its always more fun with fellow mens))
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Same thing for me. Depressed for years even though I had lots of friends and partied all of the time. Tried meds which were terrible. They just made me feel nothing. Quit taking those and it eventually just worked itself out.
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Meds are worse in their own way. Sure you don't feel sad anymore but you also don't feel happy either. You have no lows but you also have no highs. It was an all around terrible feeling. And yeah partying doesn't help .
these are the kinds of responses I was looking to get. I'm sorry you also had to face your own demons alone; despite being surrounded by people who should in principle be all you need. It's incredibly tough to rationalize why and how you feel this way despite living a "normal life", with "normal people". Yet you still feel like shit. I'm glad you where able to fight your way out man, hopefully I can do the same as well. Stay strong mens))
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Don't get me wrong I still have the occasional bad day once in a while. You just have to remember that everything changes and even if it doesn't feel like it now things will eventually sort themselves out.
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Got into korean dramas/variety shows, now i feel like i dont have enough time to be depressed.
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Is it like daytime tv, or is it more like a bizarre comedy?
Any game is good to play if it helps you during a long depression. Often enough I hear it's the other way around with cs, that it assists in making them feel worse. But I am glad that's not the case for you :)
I've been depressed for 8 years myself, and sure gaming was a sort of outlet during that time. These days I wouldn't say any game helps me on a bad day, except Playne, which is meditation help in the form of a game. Hope you get better!
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I can only wish you well and to be back on the track. I personally can't see how games help the depressed, I'd thought they only make it worse and it's the case with me but anyway. You should find a purpose in life.
just join pokecord discord server and talk with people there, community really nice and makes everyone happy
you will regret doing anything crazy, just breathe, and endure, aim for getting something, like a good pc, or straight teeth, or muscles, or just browse through hltv twitter and watch twitch like myself and thousands of others being lazy during this quarantine
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