I have been a rapist and a murderer in two of my previous lives. It is the soul that wants to experience such things. Well there are afaik only 2-3 billions with a real soul, the others are a byproduct of clones and mechanically engineered, they are easily identified because they usually lack empathy, feelings and are narcissists.
The best thing to start the spiritual journey is to cleanse your body from toxins and meditation. I have lived in Tibet for 4 years with the Monks. Meditation between 8 to 10 hours a day or even longer is a must. There is a world inside all of you to discover. The world outside is literally a well made matrix of destruction and distraction (porn, games, tv's, electronic entertainment in general) by evil forces. Many people born from the 90s are so called starseeds. They are here for one purpose only: fight the evil forces and help humanity ascend into the fifth dimension. They then will leave the planet again and continue their soul journey on other planets OR if they want they can stay on GAIA. Most of the people on Earth are living in the third dimension (greed, hate, fear) is ruled in 3D. In 5D there is only unconditional love for nature, animals and other human beings and ETs, no wars, no greed, no hate. Only pure love. Earth is shifting into 5D and will erase all negative beings (it is called climate change from the mainstream) the whole Universe is heating up preparing for the great solar flash to wipe out all negativity and enlighten all Humans into the 5D reality. This process cannot be stopped as the whole Universe is a living organism and it is happening every 26.000 years. There are many different beings on this planet that you can't see cause your vision is limited to the 3D reality (cleanse your pineal gland (third eye) so you will be able to see more than what you are used to see). ALL WILL BE REVEALED at one point in the near future. I don't say things such "the enormity of what is coming will shock the world" for fun. The old guard is dying, 1000 years of peace are around the corner for planet earth and humanity.