Kjaerbye: "I think winning the Major at 18 and being crowned MVP was hard for me to deal with"

North's star rifler Markus "Kjaerbye" Kjærbye opened up about motivation issues after the ELEAGUE Atlanta Major success with Astralis in our interview at the Europe Minor in Berlin.

The Danish side advanced to the playoffs of the Europe Minor after beating BIG twice, in a BO1 and a BO3, with fnatic handing them a crushing defeat in between. At the end of the second day, we sat down with Kjaerbye to hear his thoughts.

Talking about motivation issues is still a taboo, Kjaerbye says

The 21-year-old, who has been in great form since the roster change that saw Valdemar "valde" Bjørn Vangså assume the in-game leader role, talked about the games at the Minor, the preparation, and getting out of his slump.

What are your first thoughts as you made it into the playoffs of the Minor, the first step going towards the Major?

The first impression is that we are happy we survived. We played a poor game against fnatic yesterday and the Minor is really tough, we felt that last time, albeit we were in much worse shape at the last Minor, we are a lot better team right now, in my opinion. But you can see it on mousesports as well, they were struggling and almost went out.

It means everything to qualify for the Major, it is still the biggest tournament of the year, but getting there still feels far away, you know? That is a little bit of a mental challenge but I feel that we are doing everything we can to qualify and we still have to play well in playoffs and win two more games.

You mentioned that you are doing everything to qualify - after EPL you haven't been playing anything, not even the qualifiers such as the one for ESL One New York. Is that something you purposely skipped to focus on the Minor? What was the preparation like in general?

Yeah, we skipped the ESL One New York to focus on the Major. This is the first time with this lineup that we've had time to get a lot of practice in. We had a really busy schedule with five tournaments before that, so it was a crucial time to take our game to the next step. We had a lot of bootcamp days and long practice days and that is also why we didn't have much time to take off. We played a lot, I think we have a 100 hours in two weeks on Steam. And I think we have improved but we still need to show it, we still have some inconsistent games, as against fnatic, but I think that is more about the matchup, really.

Let's touch on the fnatic game. Going into it, they were in bad form, you were in decent form, a big favorite, and then it was a complete blowout from their side. How couldn't you even get into the game?

The game against fnatic was the first one, I think, in a really, really long time, where we didn't have any good ideas. We tried our whole playbook and we basically just got shut down. As you said, we were favorites for once against them and I believe and really thought we could have finally beaten them. Sadly it wasn't the day, but if we meet them later on, in the playoffs, we need to be sharp. There are only two spots going directly to the Major and the way we got beat by them is not the best sign for us in that matter. But we are facing CR4ZY first and that is also a tough game because we have no idea how they play, I think we never played them before. There is a lot of individual skill and talent on that team, so we have to win our game on our teamplay.

Talking about what could happen in that game, how do you usually approach teams that are like CR4ZY, individually pretty skilled?

I don't think the approach is really different against specific playstyles, I don't think it is that way, I think it is tough playing a matchup you didn't play before because you don't feel what they are going to do. I think we had a similar issue against FURIA, we knew that they were going to be all around us and we watched the demos and stuff, but they can still catch us off guard and that is really the problem with not having practice playing against them. So we need to be even more on point, even though CR4ZY are maybe not as composed as the better, the bigger teams. That is the way I see it, the more individual skill a team has the sharper teamplay we need in some weird way.

Talking about your individual form, since valde took over your form has been looking the best since 2017, I would say. Where does that come from? Is it something about you individually or is it the change in the team that inspired the form?

I think a lot changed in the team structure, I'm feeling a lot more freedom now, but it is no lie that this was also a big wake up call for me. Getting a new caller instead of cadiaN and me having been playing badly for almost half a year as well is not a nice feeling, I was not feeling good about myself in that period. And it is really, really hard to get out of a slump in a circuit like CS:GO because you never have time to take a mental break, the tournaments keep coming and you really have to be experienced, motivated all the time, and it can be tough for everyone, I think, at a certain point of their career. I stood at a crossroad, either I could give it a 110% and get back to my initial shape or...

I think I never fulfilled my talent and it is really hard for me to say that because I feel like I have experience now, but between being 18 and now 21, I haven't improved enough, I haven't learned enough from my mistakes, and I think that is the biggest change. I evaluate myself a lot more, I watch my own demos and I just want to be a better version of myself, in general. I hope the team can feel that. I feel I'm just giving a lot more energy to the guys as well, we motivate each other every day and that is how we are going to keep improving.

Because I've been there before, going from the top eight to the top 1: there is no magic recipe, you have to play hard and have a unique team chemistry to get there. I believe we are on the right path, but also, there is still a really long way to the very top. That is why it is tough still being at the Minor, because in the recent months we have played well against or beaten almost all the best teams in the world. I think that with this team we only got stomped by fnatic and maybe a bit by FURIA. Apart from that we just need the last percentages, I'm not sure how we are going to get it, but we are going to keep searching for solutions to get the last 10% because then I believe we can be a really, really strong force to be reckoned with.

I wanted to touch on the thing that you said, that you didn't develop as much as you could. Is there anything that you think that you did wrong, any regrets about that period?

I think winning the Major at 18 and being crowned MVP was hard for me to deal with, to be honest. It was what I woke up for and played for every day, it was my biggest motivation, and it came out of nowhere, suddenly winning it, and not only that but also being one of the best players and playing a good grand final. I think I didn't have the mental fortitude, when looking back now. And I didn't reach out to my team in Astralis back then, it is a bit of a taboo you could say, talking about motivation issues. I feel like I was playing just as much, the team practice was the same, but my mental desire, my hunger wasn't the same as before the Major because CS-wise, that was all I dreamt of. I don't think anyone thinks about being a legend one day, that is something that comes with the titles and other people's perception of you.

My biggest issue was motivating myself when I was on the top. That is what I'm trying to learn off of because the downside of it, only getting worse from there, was really hard for me to turn around. It took me even years, to be honest. I thought my move to North would give me the motivation back, and in many ways, it did, but we also didn't have the skill to get up there where I initially thought we would get easily, to the very top. So that is just the hard truth, you live and you learn. I think the biggest lesson for me is learning who I am and what I want to become, that makes me satisfied, just trying to be the best version of myself. That is all you can do.

Denmark Valdemar 'valde' Bjørn Vangså
Valdemar 'valde' Bjørn Vangså
Age:
24
Team:
Rating 1.0:
1.10
Maps played:
817
KPR:
0.75
DPR:
0.66
APR:
0.14
Denmark Markus 'Kjaerbye' Kjærbye
Markus 'Kjaerbye' Kjærbye
Age:
21
Team:
Rating 1.0:
1.06
Maps played:
1279
KPR:
0.72
DPR:
0.66
APR:
0.15
hltv ruined kjerbees career by crowning him with mvp confirmed
2019-07-19 13:06
#11
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Sweden Unluko 
Nice
2019-07-19 13:06
who cares about tier 3
2019-07-19 13:06
#24
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Europe Kermac 
*4
2019-07-19 13:13
#30
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Austria shaakeh 
He's still a god <3
2019-07-19 13:18
#33
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Europe Kermac 
I know
2019-07-19 13:20
Who?
2019-07-19 13:52
#53
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Europe Kermac 
You
2019-07-19 13:52
#91
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Austria shaakeh 
wholesome hltv
2019-07-19 14:48
#166
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:32
BOO HOO POOR ME i ONLY GOT MAJOR MVP AT 18 WAAAH
2019-07-19 13:06
niko major mvp at ... oh wait never
2019-07-19 13:55
xD
2019-07-19 14:27
Baiting or dumb
2019-07-19 14:30
LOOOOL +1000000000000000000000000 .... He is such a crybaby. Thought he was the best player on Astralis, left, and hasn't found success since. Garbokiddie.
2019-07-24 22:13
+1
2019-07-19 13:06
Nice edit my friend :)
2019-07-19 13:07
:DDDDD
2019-07-19 13:19
axaxaxaxa
2019-07-19 14:16
#75
ptr | 
Poland EvilMack 
are we the baddies?
2019-07-19 14:23
also device deserved that mvp
2019-07-19 15:35
+1
2019-07-20 23:27
Cry
2019-07-19 18:34
#138
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Brazil lordjasz 
Cheaterbye
2019-07-20 13:25
we are not talking about NA cs here
2019-07-20 23:27
#153
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Brazil lordjasz 
2019-07-24 17:52
#155
swag | 
Brazil teeskr 
Indian cs btw
2019-07-24 20:03
#173
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:33
#164
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France Nieulssss 
Forsaken
2019-07-30 15:49
Hey f0rsaken isnt vac banned bruh HAHAHAHHAHAHAH
2019-08-01 03:19
#167
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:32
#2
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Denmark Jonasnhj 
Ok
2019-07-19 13:05
#3
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United States RULE34TRACER 
shakerbye
2019-07-19 13:05
True +1 Why is he like that
2019-07-20 21:47
#154
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Brazil lordjasz 
2019-07-24 18:07
#4
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Singapore FallBlade 
ok
2019-07-19 13:05
#5
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Germany Sabba1 
snake
2019-07-19 13:05
#160
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Australia PegasusGG 
yep
2019-07-27 15:14
Harder to deal with that shaky style lmao
2019-07-19 13:05
So why U leave astralis???
2019-07-19 13:05
To get his motivation back. He touches that subjekt in the interview - read it!
2019-07-19 13:16
#174
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:34
Did you even read the article, son? " I thought my move to North would give me the motivation back, and in many ways, it did"
2019-07-19 13:22
DID YOU EVEN READ?
2019-07-19 13:52
Dude, did you really read it?
2019-07-19 14:46
#168
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:32
Ok
2019-07-19 13:06
#9
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Finland perkelemeister 
cry me a river
2019-07-19 13:06
Ok
2019-07-19 13:06
ez for cr4zy
2019-07-19 13:07
He is like Götze for Germany. Best moment of carrer already over in very early age
2019-07-19 13:07
#25
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India bozzmob 
Yeah! Nice comparison. I liked it!
2019-07-19 13:13
#35
oskar | 
Czech Republic PaYaB 
+1
2019-07-19 13:20
+1
2019-07-19 13:52
lol n1
2019-07-19 13:52
+1
2019-07-19 13:53
#175
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:34
+1
2019-07-19 14:00
+1
2019-07-19 14:16
+1 smart HLTVer
2019-07-19 14:24
#169
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:32
#101
s1mple | 
Germany NatsuS 
Lars Ricken is a better example. With 18 make 2 goals in CL final. After that he had absolutely null career. Götze at least still plays.
2019-07-19 15:22
#110
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Italy Gio_bose 
Nah gotze is a better example as kjaerbye still plays in tier1/2
2019-07-19 16:08
not even close
2019-07-19 16:57
+1
2019-07-22 13:52
Yeah fucker shoudnt have been mvp in the first place
2019-07-19 13:08
then who should? he won them the final u retard
2019-07-19 14:36
device ofc oh and dont forget frenche scene lost both macthes today- G2 Vitality sucks
2019-07-19 17:20
device? hello retardo ?
2019-07-19 22:06
0/8 left Astralis for shit team axaxa cri is fri.
2019-07-19 13:08
#21
cR4zY | 
Myanmar xdcc 
It's ok you won't deal with it again
2019-07-19 13:10
#176
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:34
0/8 hard thing for you after enjoying a lot? Duh you were lucky
2019-07-19 13:10
Lucky? He was the MVP of that major.
2019-07-19 14:02
Device got robbed
2019-07-19 15:26
#170
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:32
That major was a fluke
2019-07-19 21:19
Why? Kjaerbye was great back then and so was Astralis.
2019-07-19 21:25
#177
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:34
Astralis pick me back up plz
2019-07-19 13:16
Free win back then and now he complains? Yikes
2019-07-19 13:20
This
2019-07-19 13:24
#41
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Sweden yayer 
+1
2019-07-19 13:29
how does he complain u swedish cucklord?
2019-07-19 14:30
#178
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:34
Free win? Without him they would have lost to Virtus.Pepe, nice historical revisionism.
2019-07-19 13:33
+1 he carried the last map
2019-07-19 13:58
swede soy detected, he won them the final u retard
2019-07-19 14:36
Flag checks out
2019-07-19 14:53
fReE wIn bTw, stfu ur CS is irrelevant since 2015
2019-07-19 14:57
Who cares whose country is relevant in CS? It's not an argument. But A for effort
2019-07-19 15:08
F for bait otherwise retarded but thats ok ))
2019-07-19 16:58
nice cope, better luck next time
2019-07-19 17:47
#171
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:33
damn he won 100k and got major mvp? what a poor guy.... cant imagine how difficult it was for him to deal with all that money and fame...
2019-07-19 13:25
#40
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Denmark Tr1mble 
Hahaha xD
2019-07-19 13:29
You even read the article retard?
2019-07-19 13:33
Obviously not.
2019-07-19 14:46
Why you use bad words you slavic waste
2019-07-19 22:17
Albanian ANELE speaking OMEGALUL
2019-07-20 17:05
#140
byali | 
Europe W1W4T 
Nt Morocco
2019-07-20 17:58
#179
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:35
+1
2019-07-19 13:53
another pleb who didn't read the article
2019-07-19 13:56
more majors and major mvp than s0mple LULULULL
2019-07-19 14:35
#112
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Italy Gio_bose 
Didn't read the article lol
2019-07-19 16:10
#180
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:35
#39
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Denmark DanishDelight 
Good luck in the future Kjærbye
2019-07-19 13:26
#42
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United Kingdom Beardo 
S n a k e
2019-07-19 13:32
#172
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:33
#181
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:35
xd
2019-07-19 13:34
#47
s1 | 
Armenia gr1nch 
mr stay humble is back
2019-07-19 13:36
He still shakes?
2019-07-19 13:44
#49
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Brazil LUIXTR0NDA 
nice interview, he looks very mature rn
2019-07-19 13:50
Its intresting what could be on Pro Scene If Virtus Pro would Won Eleague Atlanta :) Virtus Pro ERA? Kierbey still in Astralis...? :) Im sad cuz of shakerbay :/
2019-07-19 13:51
what is so hard being overpaid for such an job at such young age lul
2019-07-19 13:53
+1
2019-07-19 13:53
ego
2019-07-19 13:55
#63
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Indonesia Exodd 
It’s a personal issue... The thing is he’s got the highest titles under his belt, being major champion AND mvp at the same time. It’d be very hard to live up to that & be consistent everytime.
2019-07-19 14:05
+1
2019-07-19 14:00
i dont understand how your post makes any sense tbh huh, you edited it
2019-07-19 14:04
#70
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Indonesia Exodd 
Lul
2019-07-19 14:10
#182
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:36
#102
s1mple | 
Germany NatsuS 
And when he wins lottery he will kill himself. I am sure for people in the real world it is the opposite.
2019-07-19 15:25
Silly weeb
2019-07-19 17:00
#113
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United States Samsquanch_ 
Translation: he won at 18 and thought he was hot shit, causing him to be cocky and lazy.
2019-07-19 16:11
#114
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Italy Gio_bose 
Because he basically achevied what he wanted and worked hard for for so long. So he didn't have any motivation as he was young and didn't think to set new goals
2019-07-19 16:11
When you achieve ur life goal at 18...
2019-07-25 21:07
Don't care virgin
2019-07-19 14:06
Playing video games 24/7 is very stressful, poor Shakebye :*(
2019-07-19 14:10
#86
f0rest | 
Russia 1.6 FTW 
well, it is
2019-07-19 14:34
#74
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Vietnam olaolakaka 
Kjager 1 major 1 major MVP s1mple never major Xd
2019-07-19 14:22
#103
s1mple | 
Germany NatsuS 
Prove that major means nothing for skill. Gambit also great example
2019-07-19 15:26
gambit was a great team with zeus but they kicked him and became shit after that
2019-07-19 15:37
#111
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United States Samsquanch_ 
Great team? More like fluke major. They had to beat immortals to win LUL
2019-07-19 16:08
3-0 in group stage . beat fnatic in the quarter finals 2-0 , and ASTRALIS in the semi finals 2-1
2019-07-19 16:36
#126
s1mple | 
Germany NatsuS 
And what? Fluke.
2019-07-19 17:34
#183
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:37
Learn from Jake man. You are still a legend!
2019-07-19 14:26
#109
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United States Samsquanch_ 
Stop
2019-07-19 16:07
#78
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Chile strong221 
humble snake lmao
2019-07-19 14:26
Come on Cr4zy little bot
2019-07-19 14:27
Beta kid
2019-07-19 14:27
#90
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Bosnia and Herzegovina h2o! 
It means everything to qualify for the Major, it is still the biggest tournament of THE year, but getting there still feels far away
2019-07-19 14:47
Naaa
2019-07-19 14:49
Good interview. Personally I've never really been a fan but good luck to him with North.
2019-07-19 14:49
leaving Astralis is even more hard to handle
2019-07-19 14:59
imagine all the prize money he didnt win lul must feel bad man
2019-07-19 17:21
lul +1
2019-07-19 19:18
Weird flex but ok
2019-07-19 15:00
#184
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:37
Stop shaking
2019-07-19 15:14
#100
s1mple | 
Germany NatsuS 
Lul pitty. He had success and cried about it. I feel his pain KAPPA
2019-07-19 15:17
Salty weeb is salty))
2019-07-19 17:01
#127
s1mple | 
Germany NatsuS 
Kappa no talk jutsu
2019-07-19 17:35
#107
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Iceland caverat 
Omg so hard to deal with it...
2019-07-19 16:00
#108
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United States Samsquanch_ 
Cryaerbye
2019-07-19 16:07
First world problem dawg lol
2019-07-19 16:13
Lmfao. That is the most first world problem I think I've ever heard of.
2019-07-19 16:38
I thought hltv is better than reddit but after reading the replies i think both are filled with retards...😪
2019-07-19 17:11
#162
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Indonesia bringsik100 
What about cricket forums? Are they any better than this? . Well tbh. Soccer forum in my country even worse than this. Full of hooligan thugs and gangsta wannabe. That's why I stayed here.
2019-07-28 06:21
Poor boy, 100k in the pocket is not enough for rest of the life, u got to keep going and dont stop
2019-07-19 17:30
Nice way to remind people about that lmfao Genius move
2019-07-19 17:44
#185
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:37
FLUKAERBYE
2019-07-19 20:34
#137
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Brazil AidoNou 
It was 17 not 18 :)
2019-07-20 02:16
#141
g0d | 
Brazil L4x @.@ 
??? Reply needs to have actual content
2019-07-20 20:16
#145
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Czech Republic @me 
Weird flex
2019-07-21 04:15
Really interesting and personal interview from Kjaerbye.
2019-07-21 13:09
#147
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Australia t0rrent 
Very underappreciated player, everyone who gives him shit for leaving astralis is retarded
2019-07-21 13:28
lmao noob
2019-07-22 00:55
Lol 21yo only, thought somewhat older
2019-07-22 17:29
RoFlLOl Major ruined Kjaerbyes career. What a winner...
2019-07-23 09:38
LMFAO you don't deserve anything after what you did. Plain old simple.
2019-07-24 15:19
#157
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Turkey LineSon 
in other words, ıM sO SoRrY AsTAHrALİS , CuM bAH TaHe Me En
2019-07-24 22:17
#186
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:38
Kjaerbyes doesn't give himself the credit he deserves. He made the best roaster move in CS GO history. He let Astralis become the most dominant team this game has ever seen. Thx Kjaerbyees.
2019-07-25 23:13
Faze Kjaerbye :)
2019-07-27 18:21
#187
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Russia Thingummy 
+1
2019-08-01 18:38
#163
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Norway CheNaLii 
Excuses. I feel so sorry for him that he won the major and was MVP
2019-07-28 17:46
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