coldzera: "It was really hard being on the bench; I became a little bit depressed because I wanted to compete"

In a talk with Marcelo "⁠coldzera⁠" David at the BLAST Pro Series Copenhagen 2019 media day, we heard about the time he spent on the bench of MIBR, the initial results with FaZe, and the difference between EU and NA Counter-Strike.

The tag-team duo of coldzera and Nikola "⁠NiKo⁠" Kovač didn't produce great results at their initial LAN event, ESL One New York, but have been showing signs of improvement, at least on an individual basis, since then in EPL and ECS. With a month of practice under their belt, they will now be looking to impress at BLAST Pro Series Copenhagen 2019.

coldzera was ecstatic after the move to FaZe was completed

In our interview with coldzera, the Brazilian star admitted that being outside of competition wasn't easy for him, but he used the time off to reset mentally. He added that leading up to this tournament, FaZe were practicing 12 hours a day, and thinks that the way they will play at this event will produce results.

You joined FaZe Clan, moving away from the Brazilian core, tell me about finally getting the deal done, getting into the team, and the first emotions after making that switch?

It was really hard being on the bench, I competed all my life in CS, so when you get benched and you wait for a few months it's kinda hard. After we got the deal done, it was really good for me, I was starting to get really bad mentally before that, I became a little bit depressed because I wanted to compete and all this stuff was happening. It was relaxing a little bit as well, in Serbia with them [YNk and NiKo] already. It was good, I reset my mind a little bit as well. After the things got done I got really happy, I wanted to play with NiKo since a long time ago. Playing with him right now is good, some stuff is still new for me, but it is really good playing here.

Tell me about the ESL One New York event, you only finalized the deal shortly before the tournament and it ended up not going so well, especially individually for you and NiKo, so that was a surprise. How did that sit with you, personally?

Personally, it was hard because we closed the deal two days before so we didn't have too much time to practice. I think I put too much pressure on my shoulders as well, I wanted to show a good level of CS on the first day but I was not competing for 3 months. People can say "yeah, it's gonna be the same thing", but it's different, believe me, it's really different when you don't compete for 3 months. I was in shape individually, but at the same time, I put too much pressure on my shoulders because I wanted to show so much. In the end, it was just the first tournament, that's fine, we just had two days of practice, of course, we couldn't expect a win. We played bad, we had a bad result, we had bad individual performances as well, but that's fine, sometimes that happens, and we will figure it out for the next tournaments.

Not being an active player — obviously, you played FPL and stuff like that —, but was it difficult to play competitively after the meta changes that happened? Was that a part of the issues you had?

Yeah, of course, everyone is playing really fast. I was watching a lot of demos as well, not just playing FPL, but it's kinda different when you come to a tournament without competing for 3 months, it is different, the way you play online is not the same as when you play on LAN. I was really pressured about that and people showed a good team play level [against us]. We played EG and they are pretty good as a team, it was hard to play the first game against EG with our team which was together for 2 days. Since then, I stopped putting pressure on myself and I started to play better. At ESL Pro League we played really good as a team, we just lost to mousesports and we saw the mistakes after that match and we saw we lost to ourselves, but in terms of performance, it was really good.

What is the experience being in the European circuit now, coming in from NA considering FPL, online matches that you played in ECS... How does that compare to NA?

I think the difference is that in NA you have a lot of teams to play as well, FPL has a good level, but not as good, but talking about teams, you have Liquid, EG, Cloud9, the new Complexity team, and FURIA - they are the 5 teams you can have good practice with, but at the same time, you play against them in tournaments. I think you don't have a lot of good teams you can practice against without showing your strats. That's the most heartbreaking part of NA. You don't have too many good teams to practice against, and if you show them good strats, they can record the demos, everyone has a coach, an analyst, they are bringing them to the server... If you start to show everything you have, it can be really painful when you face them in the match.

The crucial part is that in Europe you have a lot of teams to play, if you want to play against tier 2, tier 3 or tier 1 teams, they all play really well. They have good mechanics, good skills, and everyone knows how to play CS. In Europe, you have a lot of teams you can practice against and you can show them everything and you are never going to face them. That's the difference between Europe and NA right now, and the skill level here is really insane.

We touched on it at the beginning, you finally playing with NiKo. The first tournament didn't go so well, and then at some other events, he still didn't play to his standard level, still. So there was some criticism about the NiKo and coldzera hype not being worth it. How has playing with NiKo been from your perspective?

Of course, there is gonna be some hype because of me and him playing together, we were among the best players in the world for a long time. But it's really different, people can not expect us to be beating everyone after being a team for 2 days. It doesn't work like that right now. In the past it could have worked, but nowadays everyone plays so good, everyone knows how to study the game and prepare really well, and everyone has a skill level on point for every tournament. It is not the same anymore.

I think we are doing a good job right now with the team, we changed all the roles, they brought broky and myself, we changed olofmeister to be the AWPer, NiKo to in-game leader, and I think only rain was kept the same - it's different for everyone, a new game for everyone, everyone is learning how to play together and right now we put in a lot of effort for this tournament, we practiced 12 hours every day, we put in hard work. If we lose some match, we are still fine, we are still fixing our mistakes and trying to figure out how to play more as a team and stop doing more individual plays. We have some new plays, some new stuff as well, we know how to play as a team, we know how to use ourselves as individuals, play fast, play slow, we are focusing on having a lot of strats and lot of ways to play against some teams.

Right now, with NiKo being the in-game leader, he is pretty good. People say "he is bad", but he is pretty good, he understands the game pretty well, and YNk is helping him a lot on that part, to structure the team and he's doing a good job. Everyone has a lot of confidence in NiKo's calls and I think, from my perspective, it's pretty good. For the meta right now, the way we will play at this tournament is going to be really good.

Just before this event, you played ECS qualifier and you lost to and earlier you lost to BIG in one of the qualifiers. Did those results impact the confidence of the team negatively?

No, not sure about that, I don't think so. We lost to but at the same time we are playing so much CS, we were kinda tired, we woke up every day at 10 AM, but it's not an excuse, we played a little bit bad against them. But it is the same thing, we are trying to fix our mistakes, we are a new team, we are playing together for a month. We watched the match against and we found a lot of mistakes on Inferno we could fix for this tournament. We didn't play too many official matches yet, that's why I'm saying it's always different when you practice and when you play officials. That's why we will try to play more officials to figure out our mistakes because sometimes we do mistakes we can not see during practice - when you play officials you can see them and you can fix them.

The loss against was good, especially because it was Inferno, as we are going to play a lot of Infernos here. We saw our mistakes and we already had some talks about these mistakes in the game. The important thing right now is that we improve step by step as a team and as a unit as well. That way we understand each other better in the game and outside the game, and build confidence around ourselves.

Brazil Marcelo 'coldzera' David
Marcelo 'coldzera' David
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Maps played:
Bosnia and Herzegovina Nikola 'NiKo' Kovač
Nikola 'NiKo' Kovač
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Maps played:
2019-11-01 16:10
2019-11-01 16:29
Clownzera OMEGALUL
2019-11-01 16:30
2019-11-03 00:13
2019-11-03 03:02
Poland humen))))
u benched yourself so dont cry?
2019-11-01 16:10
Romania torchi
+1 clownzera did it to himself
2019-11-01 16:10
2019-11-01 16:11
+1, He asked to stay in the benched and leave MiBR and says that. lul
2019-11-01 16:14
Ukraine ksay
he doesn't he revealed that he will leave after major and was benched by the team
2019-11-01 16:19
Germany Sabba1
"hey guys fuck off i dont like you i want to leave because you suck" "ok if thats what you want youre benched"
2019-11-01 16:24
Ukraine ksay
yeah that was stupid mibr using their coach instead of him was stupid too tbh but technically he didn't bench himself
2019-11-01 16:26
Actually was good because it helped them to change their teamwork, and try new things without the pressure of coldzera leaving. If coldzera had stayed they would probably have stayed with the same system they had, which was not helping them to win anything with slow rotations and such. Their stupid decision was kicking tarik and stewie, who brought a lot of teamwork to the team, you can't see the flashbangs and support in MIBR now that you could see with stewie and tarik in the team.
2019-11-01 17:52
Ukraine ksay
that's just a speculation. they could've tried out new things with cold. playing with zews can't really show you how good is your new approach and fucks up roles. + they were risking to go out 0-3 anyways they devalued another major by attending it with stand-in once again should've just been professional and try to do their best at the most prestigeous tournament (like ence)
2019-11-01 18:16
I meant like, with cold yes, they could have done a lot of things different, but they would always have that bad ambient around them, it could bring a really bad mood for the team, but i agree with you, the lack of being professional is what did hurt them the most with coldzera.
2019-11-01 18:29
Not sure
2019-11-10 02:06
Brazil theluksabm
Nice German, proud of u. 7x1
2019-11-01 16:27
“Hey guys, i want to leave the team, we suck, but i can play the major if do you want” Why am i supposed to play with somebody who dont want play with me?
2019-11-01 17:14
Ukraine ksay
because it's their job and they are "ruining" another major by attending with stand-in cold was willing to play despite not wanting to be a part of the team. it was a dick move by cold in the first place but they had a chance to be more professional
2019-11-01 18:39
Brazil Pandapool
Nope. It was even on HLTV " Clodzera ask to be benched". He asked to be benched. HE even said i=n an interview he asked to be benched so other teams could buy him, he only offered himself to play the major if the team needed.
2019-11-02 05:02
United States circles308
yeah he benched himself and he wasnt even benched for long, dude is massive pussy, exposed himself lul
2019-11-01 16:28
2019-11-01 16:35
Israel Sonnabend
2019-11-01 17:00
2019-11-01 17:03
2019-11-01 20:03
Hahahah I laugh. Anyway, I will always be a fan of coldzera. Never satisfied with his.level.even when he were top1
2019-11-02 19:10
2019-11-12 14:43
He now become BaitZera
2019-11-13 06:05
2019-11-01 16:10
dobu | 
Mongolia blgnnaf
2019-11-01 16:10
Who cars
2019-11-01 16:11
Romania Obuz8
You deserve to be teamless baiting fuck
2019-11-01 16:11
Switzerland Cenoon
2019-11-01 16:11 have becnhed yourself...whatever, it's BR iq anyway.
2019-11-01 16:11
he played himself lol
2019-11-04 08:36
no one cars diva
2019-11-01 16:12
Israel SOEZ4NIK0
2019-11-01 16:13
2 million dollarydoos
2019-11-01 16:13
Light feelings of sadness are not depression
2019-11-01 16:13
exactly that.
2019-11-02 03:07
Feeling depressed is not the same as having a depressive episode, too. So you can say that.
2019-11-07 12:00
Brazil |LUCAS1|
2019-11-01 16:14
Australia Leftistt
and MIBR is going to get anywhere?? lmaoooo
2019-11-08 09:46
United Kingdom foolio
Sounds like a real dilemma this, anyone got a tissue?
2019-11-01 16:15
coldera =🐍🐍🐍🐍
2019-11-01 16:15
Brazil JazZ98
this guy is crazy, he went to the bench by his own choice, and then he make drama bout it?
2019-11-01 16:15
he should create a team called snakes, fnx is waiting already
2019-11-01 17:03
Brazil JazZ98
yooo fnx is lit don't talk bout him men(((
2019-11-01 17:54
Brazil Cleckzera
"he went to the bench by his own choice" well this is not 100% wrong, but it's not 100 correct as well, He would continue play for MIBR in the Major, but the team wanted bench him
2019-11-01 18:43
How could the team want to bench him when he was already benched before? They just didn't want to play with such a guy at the major so they didn't bring him in to the roster again. BR logic
2019-11-04 08:56
Brazil Cleckzera
Wtf? He wasn't bench, he just wanna bench himself after the Major, and the team benched before, fer confirmed
2019-11-04 12:52
Ok, so your girlfriend comes to you and says: - hey idiot, from next Saturday we are no longer a couple!!! What would you do? Getting fucked from your back? Or break up in the exact time she said it? Put him on the bench, after he declared that he would leave the team, is the right decision, the team have lots of problems, why would keep one more? Demotivation is contagious.
2019-11-07 15:55
Becoming Baitzera xD
2019-11-08 05:51
Sounds like he doesn't know what depression is
2019-11-01 16:16
lmao nowadays people are overusing it in a wrong way XD
2019-11-01 16:34
Magisk | 
Europe s1xX
THIS +1 thank yoU!
2019-11-01 16:41
"we woke up every day at 10 AM, " lol
2019-11-01 16:16
Brazil vhq
2019-11-01 16:24
Asia Blitzer
+1 really depressing :'(
2019-11-01 16:27
Spain elskio
2019-11-01 17:30
+1 Oh man waking up at 10am every day to play and practice your favourite game every day with people you enjoy playing with must be so hard I would much rather wake up at 5am to get to my 8am classes FUUUUU-
2019-11-01 17:31
+1 in that moment i wanted to punch him
2019-11-01 17:51
Let's punch this clown
2019-11-02 08:40
Yeah that's insane
2019-11-01 17:34
And go to bed 4am. Soo...
2019-11-01 17:59
2019-11-01 18:35
Brazil Cleckzera
10 AM is too early to a pro player who travel every time
2019-11-07 19:55
"I want to leave! Bench me!" "Im depressed because Im benched". BR BRAIN.
2019-11-01 16:16
He asks for a bank and is sad because he is at the bank, brazilian genius
2019-11-01 16:22
lmao cold just sad not depressed lol
2019-11-01 16:34
Wooww, you are really smart, aren't you? I guess you really didn't read the article
2019-11-01 16:37
Of course not. Who reads an entire article in 2k19 ? Lol
2019-11-01 16:40
Nice, just another no brain. Tinha que se chamar Gustavo um deficiente mental assim AKAKKAKAJAKAKA
2019-11-01 16:42
Reported for not speaking english.
2019-11-01 18:03
Putz já to sendo banido aqui mongol #FazeUP
2019-11-02 17:35
I stopped reading when he said Niko is an excellent IGL
2019-11-01 16:21
2019-11-01 16:31
+1 lol
2019-11-01 16:43
+1 No specifics though. Just "yes he's really good. He has good calls and he's a really good leader. People say he's bad but he's really good."
2019-11-01 17:33
Haha +1
2019-11-02 08:41
Netherlands KendraLust
Let's go COLD!
2019-11-01 16:21
Portugal zeniteee
You benched yourself so
2019-11-01 16:21
I became a LITTLE BIT depressed because I wanted to compete and all this stuff was happening. It was relaxing a LITTLE BIT as well, in Serbia with them [YNk and NiKo] already. It was good, I reset my mind a LITTLE BIT as well. Marcelo "little bit" David
2019-11-01 16:22
And now count "good". My research: he said the word "good" 25 times.
2019-11-01 16:42
He must improve his interviewing skills. His language is poor
2019-11-02 03:08
Germany Sabba1
then dont bench yourself idiot
2019-11-01 16:22
Brazil Cleckzera
but the team didn't let him play, it was not his choice, search more before say a thing you don't know
2019-11-01 18:46
Germany Sabba1
cold:"fuck you i dont want to play with you anymore you suck" mibr:" ok then youre benched"
2019-11-02 12:01
Brazil Cleckzera
he didn't say this, but ok
2019-11-02 13:01
I thought it was his decision o_O
2019-11-01 16:23
Denmark Zorrondo
you benched yourself, piece of tsundere snake.
2019-11-01 16:24
LUq | 
Poland legitb
2019-11-01 16:26
Asia Blitzer
niko has such a big ego, jesus! I think faze will not have a proper igl while he is there he is definitely the problem
2019-11-01 16:26
And now they got another problemzera in the team.
2019-11-01 16:42
STFU , thank you for leaving MIBR, u make them better now LOL
2019-11-01 16:27
2019-11-01 18:37
Right now, with NiKo being the in-game leader, he is pretty good. People say "he is bad", but he is pretty good, he understands the game pretty well, and YNk is helping him a lot on that part, to structure the team and he's doing a good job.
2019-11-01 16:29
Sweden changrai
Pretty Good LUL
2019-11-01 17:01
he said it 2 times
2019-11-01 17:13
Magisk | 
Europe s1xX
lmao if that is your definition of depressed
2019-11-01 16:30
2019-11-01 16:30
We woke up 10 am and then played some video games. Life is hard,yada yada yada. Coldzera needs a life lesson. Whiny and cocky all life.
2019-11-01 16:32
2019-11-01 18:26
This guy have serious problems. He choose to be on bench and is complaining about. He stay on bench like 2 months with all pro in vacations that means no tournaments. 1-3 top. Dramaboy + egoboy = FaZe Clan.
2019-11-01 16:33
Brazil Cleckzera
"He choose to be on bench" information 2/10
2019-11-01 18:48
Flair checks out.
2019-11-01 19:25
Snakezera niko's little bitch
2019-11-01 16:36
How many times did Coldzera said the word "good"? Lol
2019-11-01 16:38
25 times to be correct.
2019-11-01 16:41
masq | 
Czech Republic Puget1
Damn zoomers
2019-11-01 16:39
This little snake what he is talking about , u gonna see Faze on the bottom this event and i will come back to this thread little midget
2019-11-01 16:39
Good to see 2 arrogant d*ckheads playing together. Shoutouts to niko and coldzera
2019-11-01 16:41
Asia Blitzer
2019-11-01 16:40
vberg | 
North America Mang0
Cryzera making Brazil look bad
2019-11-01 16:40
The typical asshole, did a lot of bad things but in his mind he is always the victim. I wish nothing but the best for him.
2019-11-01 16:49
"I wish nothing but the best for him." sarcasm? Kkk
2019-11-01 16:59
This dude..... smh.....
2019-11-01 16:51
We will see, personally hope to see a god tier Faze.
2019-11-01 16:57
He literally benched himself
2019-11-01 16:57
He said he wanted to leave after the major, but wanted to play until then. Mibr decided to bench him and play with the coach Both sides stupid but whatever
2019-11-01 18:12
That’s the spirit cold!! Happy belated birthday <3
2019-11-01 16:58
who cars baitzera fatzera roidzera
2019-11-01 16:58
I knew he's going to find some twisted way to blame his low impact on Fallen even when he is in other team already lol!
2019-11-01 16:58
+1 lmao what a rat
2019-11-01 17:02
India _Jazz_
Good Luck FaZe!!!
2019-11-01 16:59
" we saw the mistakes after that match and we saw we lost to ourselves, but in terms of performance, it was really good." arrogant player, arrogant Faze. They lose and still think they lose cuz they didn't play as they could. Hello you lose cuz u suck and others really work for their performance. Now it is okay you joined Faze and all losers are together in one team. Faze is a fucking joke full of pricks
2019-11-01 17:07
Do you use your brain sometimes?
2019-11-01 17:14
Yes and it sees a lot of bullshit Faze fans.
2019-11-01 17:17
Simple fan okay
2019-11-01 17:18
S1mple has at least the courage to practice for his goals and he doesn't think he is the best. This is a GOAT attitude. Faze has a Hartz 4 attituted. Do nothing, think you are the best and give me the money. If Faze were a small Clan they would have disban the team cuz of being shit.
2019-11-01 17:20
Okay thats the dumbest thing I have ever heard about Simple lmao
2019-11-01 17:34
you are stupid and only sad that S1mple is better than Guardian in any aspect of his existence.
2019-11-01 17:37
I never said that I am lol, I didnt even think about it, if you believe what you wrote about Simple that is maybe sad :)
2019-11-01 17:42
When you become the best and still work hard that is the right attitude and this is the only case when you can be arrogant, cuz you worked for it. Faze, Naiko, Coldzera don't earn that respect to be arrogant. They are obv lazy and bad as fuck
2019-11-01 17:45
2019-11-01 19:19
lmao what a "fan" have u ever seen 1 s1mple stream?:
2019-11-01 17:55
Flair and Flag checks out. Coldzera is shit as player and obv as human. Even his "friends" were happy to get rid of him. Now he plays for the biggest loser team 2019. That is where he belongs.
2019-11-01 20:09
aged well. when s1mple wins 2 majors, 2 majors mvp, 2 best in the world, you can talk.
2019-11-05 13:16
boring. When Coldzera can play like s1mple come back. Will never happen.
2019-11-05 14:57
"S1mple has at least the courage to practice for his goals and he doesn't think he is the best." No ego at all tho)))
2019-11-01 18:07
He was clear #1 at that period of time. And he admitted ZywOo to be good. I don't see any "ego" move by S1mple here.
2019-11-01 19:20
You can have an ego, if you work for it. Coldzera is shit and still thinks he is the best same 4 nNiko. S1mple is GOAT and still not so fucking arrogant.
2019-11-01 20:05
they dont think they are the best. you think they do think, because u hate both.
2019-11-05 13:16
Nope, they said it several times. You read the words but you don't understand the meaning. I can't help you but maybe learn to listen
2019-11-05 14:58
>Benching himself >Saying that he was depressed because of that
2019-11-01 17:10
Brazil Exfm
Good one friend XD
2019-11-01 17:29
Brazil Cleckzera
well, it was not him choice, he didn't "bench" himself, the team did it, he was going to play major, but the team didn't let him plays
2019-11-01 18:53
He offered to play but they refused nothing bad in it.
2019-11-01 19:44
He's going to kill himself playing for Faze if he wants to be competitive
2019-11-01 17:11
lets go cold!
2019-11-01 17:12
Brazil fazecrack
what a legend
2019-11-01 17:14
2019-11-01 19:18
ok now sit down benchzera.
2019-11-01 17:19
coldzera was so much better when he was on the bench
2019-11-01 17:19
Fors | 
Brazil ricca
lmao the dude is a life ruler millionaire at 25 yo and yet says that hes depressive fvck off lad
2019-11-01 17:22
Cause you cant be depressed and a millionaire, guess depression is for poor people only, yikes
2019-11-01 18:10
Because money doesnt buy u happiness
2019-11-01 18:32
Seu judas do caralho.. antes de ter saído devia ter levado o taco com vc
2019-11-01 17:25
Brazil Cleckzera
Why is he "Judas"?
2019-11-01 18:54
cuz ur mom mama meu caralho
2019-11-02 11:33
Czech Republic PaYaB
benchzera LUL
2019-11-01 17:29
2019-11-01 17:32
needs to sort who plays with who in the bombsites. put olof + coldzera on b site inferno than its absolutely closed. but niko wants to play there idk why... he is terrible there, always agreesive and always dies.
2019-11-01 17:54
Faze can surprise
2019-11-01 18:01
Sweden Akoulad
2019-11-01 18:03
Gonna cry? Gonna piss your pants? Maybe? Maybe shit and cum?
2019-11-01 18:05
2019-11-01 18:06
So You said You were leaving the team, got obviously benched and got a little bit depressed? What can You really expect?
2019-11-01 18:17
Brazil Cleckzera
well.. no, he would play the Major for MIBR, but the team didn't let him play and prefered play with zews haha
2019-11-01 18:56
And they made a good choice.
2019-11-01 19:17
2019-11-01 18:18
baitzera talks too much !!!
2019-11-01 18:28
sadFallen He was in love cold But cold has gone world best awper is sad
2019-11-01 18:38
Never won champions....retarted..
2019-11-01 18:48
You didnt got benched you chose to step down.
2019-11-01 19:19
2019-11-01 19:29
Coldzera igl POGGERS
2019-11-01 20:02
well, coldzera confirmed eu > na
2019-11-01 22:45
I can only imagine
2019-11-01 23:00
Is he an idiot? Is hard to work and earn a living not being benched and get paid
2019-11-02 00:38
Brazil gux4
''We watched the match against and we found a lot of mistakes on Inferno we could fix for this tournament.'' good work! inf today 16-2 vs astralis kekw
2019-11-02 03:12
astralis are weak nip 16-7...
2019-11-02 11:34
Brazil gux4
2019-11-02 15:25
Asks to get benched then complains *visible confusion*
2019-11-02 04:08
Brazil tacold
This is pathetic and full of excuses. Coldzera is shit
2019-11-02 04:56
life is tough when its either stay in a team or back to daddy's broom factory
2019-11-03 07:19
that picture is rlly scary on the cake
2019-11-03 11:04
Looks like a vampire lmfao
2019-11-04 08:30
what a nickname lul ooohmensss XXDDDD
2019-11-05 13:28
Really hard = receiving money without playing. LOL I really wanted this hard Moment im my Life
2019-11-04 19:59
he benched himself...???
2019-11-05 17:41
Brazil bodjol
2019-11-06 20:24
they sure impressed at BLAST Pro Series Copenhagen, what a team
2019-11-06 23:37
cya in hell
2019-11-08 17:31
32-2 Xc
2019-11-09 15:41
2019-11-10 10:03
Russia SaLL1()
2019-11-11 11:00
2019-11-12 17:58
2019-11-14 22:34
GODZERA, people like to talk a lot of bad things about him, but this guys is such a legend bro
2019-11-16 05:03
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