Sorry for my crappy translate, i've finished a school 5 years ago, and didn't practice eng since that time. I've tried to translate "word-to-word". Enjoy
Hello everybody. I'm writing here last time, because my colloquial speech is much poorer, then written speech.
It was strange, that i was taken to the team, where already were two snipers, because i'm sniper too, so it could cause bad mobility and economy in rounds. I knew, that it will be hard to find my place in team, but I really wanted to achieve something. I had tried to play with ak-47 and m4a1, but my game wasn't be good enough, so I've changed mouses several times, but have returned to mx518 in the end. I was trying to play as main awp in team, but it didn't really chanched our game. So, this is one of problems of us, or more exactly, mine problem, that i coundn't find optimal role in team. I only know, that my role isn't "carry", i don't want to rush after mate's flash and kill everybody with headshots, i prefer to be an "support" and play more tactic. And this is one of reasons, why we have problems.
I think, that you should work hard, if you wanna reach some results (not only in counter-strike), but we have some problems with it. Maybe our people are lazy, maybe another reason... You can't reach anything in one moment. Playing every day with bots, csdm, useless pcw's - It's not, that need players with 10 years experience. When you are playing against best teams in the world, you need something more, than standart game with nice headshots, you should surprise your enemy. I can remember only 2-3 rounds, where our opponent could say "Woah" after the round, since we start to play under tag "MoscowFive". But i noticed, that other teams have much more such rounds.
You wanna ask me, why I didn't try to do something, or force to do something others mates? Probably, I' ve tried, and we have some results, but other guys didn't want to continie the work, because they thought, that we can win without it. So, this situation and, somethimes, my non-standart style of playing caused difficulties in our game. For example, look at the FX/ESC guys. They are one of best teams for an 5-6 years. I remember, when our team Begrip played against Pentagram, which just formed. They looked like simple middle-skilled team. But after year or two, they have a great perfomance and perfect teamplay, so I can only wonder.
I was trying to change my playing style before wcg'11, but could do that only on several pcw's. I cant play for frags or "rat" style, i always going first, always take a participation on every fight on map, die, than it need or don't need, i don't care, if everybody will write, that i'm worst player, or i have the worst k/d statistics. I believe, that really good players, like Dosia or Edik, can do our game much better instead me, and, maybe romjke, but where we can find such good players in Russia? And, if we find such players, we should make a huge work to find our style and win best teams.
Now about emotions. Where are many "experts" saying, that we don't have it enough for the victory. What are you talking about? I can find hundreds examples (not only in e-sport) of sportsmans, who have become the best without any emotion. Emotions - it just splash of negative of positive energy, it don't need for win. And where are only non-emotion people in MoscowFive, I can do nothing with it.
About inet "experts". Some people like to discuss about, how we should play in that round, how should play that guy, etc.. And, sadly, i have such guys in my team. I'm not talking about oblivious mistakes, but if I play in one way and failed, how can you see a right variant? This is a game, and it don't depend only on your decisions, it depends on opponets decisions too and you can't divine everything.
To the Dmitry (owner of M5). I can't remember, that i speak word's like " We did everything we could". If it really was, i'm sorry for that. I'm accustomed, that team says I'm reason of losing 90% games. But also, I'm accustomed to defend my point of view. We have very big problems with understanding each other and common view of game, everybody in team is so complicated. Team don't need me anymore, so i'm leaving it. You called yourself a fan, but when we lose, you are first of all, who gonna throw shit to us. You more looks like an employer or spectator. Real fan will throw shit to another team, not to his. But, anyway, thank you for support, it woundn't be a CS in our country without you. I was one of the worst in team, maybe i could play better, but i didn't realise my potential.
Why did I write this? It was for a popularity of site :( (joke). I don't have any target to acquit myself of make bad to somebody. Indeed, if suddenly m5 will have a better team, i hope, something of my thoughts help them. You think, that we have just one step to win, but where is the long way to first place. A good players and great work - that's a key to a victory. So, good luck to my team, especially to Dosia, the most skilled player and to ROMJKE, very kind and simple guy =) Goodbye everybody!