I think it means more to me than everyone else in the team, mostly because of all the comments about me. I've seen them, I've read them, I haven't commented so much on them because I tried to block myself out of it. I don't really use my social media anymore mostly because of it, because every time I go into it, there is a lot of hate. It can go to the point when it's fine, people can complain about me, about my game and everything, but I can't hold on and keep doing it, be more social, when there are a lot of death threats against me and my family and friends. That's the boiling point.
I've been playing a long time, I've had this issue before, as well, when I was very successful, but eventually, a guy like me or someone is going to crack. And that crack can become even bigger. Like I said, I'm fine getting a lot of hate for my play, but I don't ever get into the hate when they actually want to me to die, or something like that, that's over the top.
And it felt like that weight I had before, because I've done it a couple of times in the last two years and it hasn't given any success back, and this was the first time in maybe one and a half years that it actually gave back to me, and I was so happy about it. It really meant the world to me knowing that I could still put up a big game and I can still do everything for my team, because, at the end of the day, I don't really give a f... about having bad stats or anything like that, I just want to feel that I did something for my team and feel that I'm there. So it felt really good to just know that I can pull a little bit more weight than usual. So I was just happy about that as well.